There are many stories on the internet.
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[[This one is mine.]]
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]}The drive is boring. Monotonous. I play some music to pass the time. I can still feel the sleep clinging to my eyes. I sip my coffee to push away the devils that make my eyelids slip.
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(transition: "dissolve")[I get to work five minutes late. Nobody says anything, but my mind screams. I used to be the person who loved to be fifteen minutes early. Prided myself about it.]
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{(live: 6s)[
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[[But I suppose I'm just slipping.]]
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]}I started by waking up. It's usually the beginning to every story. Well, most stories.
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I went through my morning routine. Coffee. Loaded up the car and [[headed to the office.]]
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]}I sit down at my desk. All of the things I taught my coworkers must have went over their heads again. Or they just want me to do their job.
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(transition: "dissolve")[My therapist tells me I can't think that way.]
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]}
{(live: 5s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[There's good in every person. Even if it's hard to believe.]
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{(live: 7s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[I plug myself into my work to occupy my mind. My eyelids keep drooping.]
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{(live: 9s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[ [[I wish I could get a good night's sleep]] ]
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]}"Are you fucking serious?"
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(transition: "dissolve")[The terse tone and coarse language makes me leap out of my skin. I spin in my chair to find my supervisor behind me. The lines on his jaw are drawn taut and his eyes bore into my soul.]
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]}
{(live: 4s)[
(transition: "dissolve")["Are you asleep again?" he growls.]
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{(live: 6s)[
(transition: "dissolve")["I. I'm sorry. I-"]
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]}
{(live: 8s)[
(transition: "dissolve")["I don't fucking care. Boss might like you, but you're why we're behind."]
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]}
{(live: 10s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[I open my mouth, but words don't come out. [[I try to defend myself]] ]
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(transition: "dissolve")[ [[He walks away, because nothing I do or say matters.]] ]
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]}{(live: 2s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[I turn in my seat and found that I was sleeping for three hours. It's time for lunch.]
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{(live: 4s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[It's hard to find a reason to keep my mood up. At least I made a good lunch for today.]
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{(live: 6s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[ [[If only I remembered to grab it this morning.]] ]
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]}I know it's bad for me. I know my clothes are tightening.
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(transition: "dissolve")[But maybe going somewhere that I like would be good for me. Some chinese or italian.]
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]}
{(live: 4s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[ [[I reach into my work drawer to take my pre-lunch pills.]] ]
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]}Rather, I would. But I took the last one on Friday. My therapist will be so pissed that I forgot to refill again.
{(live: 2s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[I can only do so much. I can't beat myself up for it.]
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]}
{(live: 4s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[I leave the office.]
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]}
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(transition: "dissolve")[ [[I step to the crosswalk]] ]
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]}The cars pass by at blazing speed. Everyone speeds at this intersection. That's what I get for working downtown. The air is freezing. I put the hood up on my coat, trying to shield myself from the cold.
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(transition: "dissolve")[ [[But I can't shield myself from words]] ]
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]}"He fell asleep again," the familiar upset voice says.
{(live: 2s)[
(transition: "dissolve")["Again?" groans another voice. "Don't worry, the layoffs are coming."]
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]}
{(live: 4s)[
(transition: "dissolve")["Yeah, I know. I just ran the report. At least they won't be a problem for long."]
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]}
{(live: 6s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[ [[I close my eyes, but the voices in my head start to whisper.]] ]
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]}//You have nothing left.//
{(live: 2s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[//Why do you even try?//]
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]}
{(live: 4s)[
(transition: "dissolve")['No.' I tell myself. 'Everything will be okay.']
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]}
{(live: 6s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[//You know you don't believe that. Not really//]
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]}
{(live: 8s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[
[[My breathing quickens.]] ]
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]}{(live: 1s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[The cars pass by in a blur.]
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]}
{(live: 2s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[I can't feel anything anymore. The frost buries its way through my coat into my veins. My heart feels like it stops. Gravity gives up. My limbs give up.]
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]}
{(live: 4s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[There's only a few more seconds until the walk sign turns. ]
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]}
{(live: 6s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[ [[I could wait just a few more seconds.]] ]
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]}
{(live: 6s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[ [[Or I don't have to wait anymore.]] ]
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]}But
{(live: 3s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[Don't You Remember?]
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]}
{(live: 6s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[This is my [[story.]] ]
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]}{(live: 1s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[I just couldn't anymore.]
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]}
{(live: 3s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[I felt finally free.]
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]}
{(live: 5s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[Except it wasn't the end of my [[story.]] ]
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]}I remember waking up in the hospital.
And I didn't hate myself for losing my job.
{(live: 2s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[I didn't hate myself for being weak enough to do something so stupid.]
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]}
{(live: 4s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[I didn't hate myself for racking up thousands of medical bills.]
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]}
{(live: 6s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[ [[I hated myself...]] ]
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]}{(live: 3s)[
(transition: "dissolve")[ [[Because I couldn't even get this right.]] ]
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]}Thank you for playing "My Story"
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