First time alone

''Gosha'': [[Hey]]

''Gosha'': [[You awake?]]

''Gosha'': I miss you. [[A lot.]]

''Gosha'': Waiting for this plane is giving me cold feet. I don't know if I can do [[this]].

''Gosha'': I mean I know I can. I have to, [[right]]?

''Gosha'': This just feels so much like a leap of faith. And that terrifies me. ''Gosha'': Like this is the last internship I applied to and so far I haven't heard anything from the [[others]].

That's basically a rejection, yea? Not hearing back is even worse than one of those [[fake apologies]] via email.

And if this internship pulls the same ~~shit~~ I'm gonna have to go back empty handed And I don't want that I'm so sick of it I'm so [[tired.]]

''Petya'': Hey ''Petya'': [[I'm up]]

''Gosha'': [[Hi]] 💖💖💖

''Petya'': Are you [[alright]]?

''Gosha'': Yea! Of course I am. Just [[nervous]].

''Petya'': [[Understandable.]]

''Gosha'': Yea. I mean, what would I have left? My parents' deli? A bunch of filled notebooks with [[my notes?]]

I mean, everything around me would basically be mocking how I //almost// accomplished my goals but missed it by a strand. One fluke. And I'm reduced to nothing. I'm just [[Just]]

''Petya'': But why are you sure [[that's the case?]]

''Gosha'': It's not about being sure, it's just. That's something that //can// happen and it just It scares the shit out of me. I wish you were [[here.]]

''Petya'': [[I know,]] my [[love.]]

''Gosha'': God, please don't call me that you know how [[emotional]] I get.

''Gosha'': I don't think you do. You got what you worked for and you did such a good job just swooping into every [[opportunity.]]

I can't stop [[crying.]]

I miss Paga. I want to go to the moon. Is that [[a lot]] to ask for?

Every chance you got you got cause you were [[recognized]] for your work.

And I'm so fucking proud of you but it's just. It's just. I don't want to fall behind I don't know what I'm doing here. I want you to be [[here.]]

''Petya'': It //is// a [[whole moon.]]

''Gosha'': [[Pfft.]]

''Petya'': Pfft yourself, [[Neznaika.]]

''Gosha'': [[YOU]]-[[yoooouuu]]

''Gosha'': I can't believe you [[wow]]

''Petya'': [[yoooouuu]] can't tell me I'm [[wrong!]]

''Gosha'': Jeez [[yoooouuu]] are real mature!!!

''Gosha'': Yoooouuu make me feel better. And I still [[wish]] you were here.

And [[I love you.]]

''Petya'': Love you [[too]].

Are your [[feet warm?]]

''Gosha'': Wow just kidding I [[hate]] this.

''Petya'': I'll send Paga over to [[lick your toes.]]

You know how much of a [[scum]] he is for toes.

''Gosha'': Take that back, you [[face eater.]]

''Petya'': What the fuck does that even [[mean?]]

Grab it like some [[savage]]

Then, like, //try// to kiss me like you're face first in a plate of [[potato salad.]]

''Petya'': But you know [[potato salad]] is my favorite))

''Gosha'': You wake up, [[eyes half shut]]

Breathe into my [[face]] for like 10 seconds

''Gosha'': And? Sweet gesture, but it's basically like Paga on [[toes.]]

''Petya'': You just called [[yourself]] toes.

''Gosha'': I'M TIRED OF THESE [[GAMES]]

''Petya'': [[Haha]]))

''Gosha'': I miss your [[laugh]].

''Petya'': I miss your [[rosy cheeks]].

''Gosha'': My... slices of [[kelbasa]]?

''Petya'': [[Yum]].

''Gosha'': I love you ''Petya'': I love you [[...]]

''Gosha'': I'll be home [[soon]].

''Petya'': [[How soon?]]

''Gosha'': [[Sooner]] than you'd think.

Will you bring some [[bread]] home?

Yea, just don't leave the last slice for rot.