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your phone rings. it's someone you've been hoping to hear from.
pick it up.(click-replace:"pick it up.")["hi. do you still love me?"
[[> yes.]]
[[> no.]]]
"i was afraid you might say that."
[[> why?]]"well, i guess that makes sense. that should be my answer, too."
"did you know it's been a year since we broke up? to the day."
[[> yes.|i do remember]]
[[> no.|i don't remember]]
"but i do."
"did you know it's been a year since we broke up? to the day."
[[> yes.|i do remember]]
[[> no.|i don't remember]]"right. i figured you wouldn't remember."
"i think of you all the time, you know. do you remember..."
[[> chicago?]]
[[> joshua tree?]]"i looked at my phone all day. i hoped you would message me first, but you didn't. so here i am, calling you."
"do you remember..."
[[> chicago?]]
[[> joshua tree?]]"chicago was the first time you really hurt my feelings. three years ago."
"we fought in the park and i didn't talk to you for an hour. and you didn't notice, and when i brought it up in the five-hour conversation where i broke up with you, you didn't even remember. you said you probably apologized. but i know."
"you don't apologize to me. not really. even when you were wrong, you were never sorry."
[[> i'm... sorry?]]
"joshua tree was the beginning of the end. thirteen months ago."
"the park was beautiful. you complained about the drive, the dust, the other people around. i won at scrabble. we got high and you left me alone, for some reason. i slept on the couch with the dog. out in the water, we saw falling stars. my wish wasn't about you."
"but you already knew that."
[[> yes. you told me.]]"i'm sure you are."
"sometimes i think about what we'd be doing if we were together again."
"you'd pick me up and we'd go to your house. we'd watch a movie and order takeout from the same place you like. you'd show me what you're working on. you'd never ask about me, and i'd never tell anyway. you'd make me come. i'd make you come. we'd brush our teeth (separately) and i'd go to bed in your shirt. you'd hold me for a few minutes before turning over to your side."
"it doesn't even sound nice, when i say it out loud."
[[> why did you call me?]]do you still love me?
[[> yes. i love you.]]"you know, that's the first time you've said that without calling me stupid. i remember.
'i love you, stupid.'
or that time in your car, 'because i love you, you idiot.'"
"i guess i just wanted to hear it once."
[["goodbye."|goodbye.]]''THE END''
i wrote this because i was sick of talking to my ex in my head. he'll probably never know
[[> start again?|> pick up.]]right. i did.
sometimes i think about what we'd be doing if we were together again.
you'd pick me up and we'd go to your house. we'd watch a movie and order takeout from the same place you like. you'd show me what you're working on. you'd never ask about me, and i'd never tell anyway. you'd make me come. i'd make you come. we'd brush our teeth (separately) and i'd go to bed in your shirt. you'd hold me for a few minutes before turning over to your side.
it doesn't even sound nice, when i say it out loud.
[[> why did you call me?]]"if you told me you hate me for leaving, it'd be easier."
"i shouldn't want this anymore."
[[> but you do.]]