My Story

(text-size: 1.5) + (text-color:white) + (text-style:"italic")[The Seven Deadly Sins] (text-color:green)[Invidia (Envy):] A feeling of discontented or resentful longing aroused by someone else's possessions, qualities, or luck. It involves the desire to perceive others as inferior or to see them lose what they have. (text-color:blue)[Superbia (Pride):] An excessive belief in one's own abilities, accomplishments, or status, which interferes with the recognition of the grace of God or the worth of others. It is traditionally considered the ultimate root of all other sins. (text-color:orange)[Gula (Gluttony): ]The overindulgence and overconsumption of anything to the point of waste, especially food and drink, driven by misplaced desire rather than necessity. (text-color:red)[Luxuria (Lust):] An intense, uncontrolled sexual desire or a passionate craving for earthly pleasures, which misplaces spiritual love for selfish gratification. (text-color:yellow)[Avaritia (Greed / Avarice):] An immoderate or insatiable desire for material wealth, possessions, or power, emphasizing hoarding and acquisition above spiritual or moral values. (text-color:gray)[Acedia (Sloth):] A state of spiritual or physical laziness, apathy, and sluggishness. It represents a refusal to utilize one's talents or to put effort into spiritual growth and daily responsibilities. (text-color:red)[Ira (Wrath / Anger):] An intense, uncontrolled feeling of rage, hatred, and resentment. It often manifests as a powerful desire for vengeance or destruction. [[Credits]]

Use this pain to not to do kinda things you have done before. (if: $iyilik >= 4) [ [[....|Final]] ] \(else:) [ [[...|ch3p3]] ]

(enchant: ?page, (bg: "white")) {(set: $parlaklik to 255)} (text-size: 5) + (text-color:black)[[Black]<w1| Side] (click-replace: ?w1)[[White] (set: $k1 to true)] (color:black)[[Start to experience|shakes]]

I made this game during a game desing workshop at İKSV(Istanbul Culture and Art Foundation) with mentorship of Zeynep Burcu Kaya Alpan and Barış Ünder. İdeas behind the game is deeply effected by the podcast The Happiness Lab with Dr. Lauire Santos, especially the episode "Why 'No Regrets' Is Bad Advice". I hope this game helps someone understand more deeply the structure of regret. <script>calSes("sesler/music.mp3", true);</script> Arda Çelik <div style="display: flex; flex-direction: row; justify-content: center; align-items: center; gap: 15px; wrap: wrap;"> <img src = "C:\Users\macel\OneDrive\Masaüstü\Black Side\gorseller\iksv.jpg" width = "200"> <img src = "C:\Users\macel\OneDrive\Masaüstü\Black Side\gorseller\iksv2.jpeg" width = "300"> <img src = "C:\Users\macel\OneDrive\Masaüstü\Black Side\gorseller\iksv3.jpeg" width = "200"> <img src = "C:\Users\macel\OneDrive\Masaüstü\Black Side\gorseller\iksv4.jpeg" width = "350"> </div>

From now on, the boy carried the burden of what he have done rest of his life and use that as a reminder before choosing what to do. He couldnt beat guilt, but never commited similar mistakes because that feeling of guilt whipped up his pain and didnt let him be a bad person. Lets hope he finds peace. END [[Credits|Credits]] (if: $k1 and $k2 and $k3 and $k4 and $k5 and $k6 and $k7 and $k8) [ You collected all easter eggs. Well done, now you can see the secret passage. [[Secret Passage | sonrakiPasaj]] ] [[Relive|ch0p0.1]]

(text-colour:blue)[Samuel:] (text-color:black)[Your best friend, who always have supported you through two years. He got close with Aria, after that he focused so much on her that you two couldnt spend time together. Once, you made him a favor and he told you not to care himself too much again because you are not his"lover". You tried to be like the old times with him but it did not work.] (enchant: ?page, (bg: (rgb: $parlaklik, $parlaklik, $parlaklik)))} (text-colour:gray)[[Back to story|ch0p0]]

(text-color:black)[You were three close friends. You, (text-colour:purple)[[Aria|womanInfo]] and (text-colour:blue)[[Samuel|ManInfo]].[ Aria and Samuel got closer]<w2|, moreover they tried to have a romantic relationship, which you have also contributed but could not make it. After some time, Samuel focused so much on her that your friendship started to fade away. You always wanted to be as close as possible to (text-color:purple)[Aria], to her circle of friends but you could not make it, and felt [bad]<w3| about it.You tried to fix it but did not work. After some time, you started to get close with Aria, and one day while you two were doing normal stuff in your house things have changed permanently.] (click-replace: ?w3)[(text-color:green)[Avaritia] (set: $k3 to true)] (click-replace: ?w2)[(color:red)[Invidia](set: $k2 to true)] (text-color:blue)[[Continue|ch1p0]] (enchant: ?page, (bg: (rgb: $parlaklik, $parlaklik, $parlaklik)))}

(text-size: 5) + (text-color:black)[Black Side] (text-color:black)[This is a game which you experience a stroy and directly changing its destiny thorugh decisions. Every decision matters so choose carefully. Some decisions only affect relationship level, some effect directly the ending. Also there are easter eggs. When you (color:red)[click]<click| to specific words they get changed.This one was colored but upcoming ones will be colorless, so good luck finding them out. You can find them by playing again with different choices. This way you can explore different endings. If you find all of them, a secret page will occur in the end.(A hint, there are 8 of them but if you find 7, you can see the secret passage)] (click-replace: ?click)[(color:blue)[like this]] (enchant: ?page, (bg: "white")) [[Start to experience|Beginning]] (set: $k1 to false, $k2 to false, $k3 to false, $k4 to false, $k5 to false, $k6 to false, $k7 to false, $k8 to false)

(text-color:black)[She push herself back and feels guilty. She says i am sorry, you...] [[console her and hug her |ch1p103]] [(set: $iyilik to it +1)] [[tell her everything is going to be ok and hug her|ch1p103]] [(set: $iyilik to it +1)] (enchant: ?page, (bg: (rgb: $parlaklik, $parlaklik, $parlaklik)))}

(text-color:black)[Aria was not behaving normal. She was so emotional, affectionate and happy. You two were pleasent because there were no one around to disturb you. After some time, you two started to talk about tough stuff; trust, love,fight, etc...] (text-colour:purple)["You are under controll of your biases, it is noticable even from your jokes."] (text-color:black)[(She seems like she is scared to criticize you but does anyway in order to solve problems.)] (enchant: ?page, (bg: (rgb: $parlaklik, $parlaklik, $parlaklik)))} (text-colour:blue)[[Are you jugding me according to my jokes? They were just "jokes".|ch1p1.5]] (text-colour:blue)[[Prejudices are what keep us alive for thousands of years. Dont you have some?|ch1p1.5]]

(text-color:black)[When she [hugs]<w5| you you...] [[Hug her too|ch1p101]] [(set: $iyilik to -1)] <script>calSes("sesler/sarilma.mp3", false);</script> [[Piss off|ch1p102]][(set: $iyilik to 1)] (enchant: ?page, (bg: (rgb: $parlaklik, $parlaklik, $parlaklik)))} (click-replace: ?w5)+ (text-color:red)[Luxuria](set: $k5 to true)]

(text-color:black)[With your attack, she silks her shoulder. Maybe she doesnt need that much [aggression]<w4| so soon...] (text-color:purple)["I see your point, i also have some pre judgments but i think you are [over judging]<w8| people by just looking at their physical appereances."] (click-replace: ?w4) + (text-color:red)[Ira] (set: $k4 to true)] (enchant: ?page, (bg: (rgb: $parlaklik, $parlaklik, $parlaklik)))} [[I always consider people looking at what they do, not what they tell or how they look like.|ch1p2.5]] [[Reality is hard to accepts but it is all we got, darling.|ch1p2.5]] (click-replace: ?w8)+(text-color:blue)[Superbia](set: $k8 to true)]

(text-color:black)[You start too feel peacefull. She puts her hand to your chest. What will you dou?] [[Move accordingly|ch1p103]] [(set: $iyilik to it -1)] [[Start to slow down|ch1_104]][(set: $iyilik to it +1)] (enchant: ?page, (bg: (rgb: $parlaklik, $parlaklik, $parlaklik)))}

(text-color:black)[She just puts her head to your shoulder. You..] [[Let her do it|ch1p103]] [(set: $iyilik to it -1)] [[Get up|ch1_104]] [(set: $iyilik to it +1)] (enchant: ?page, (bg: (rgb: $parlaklik, $parlaklik, $parlaklik)))}

(text-color:black)[Her breaths start to [slow down...]<w6|] [[Continue|ch1p105]] (enchant: ?page, (bg: (rgb: $parlaklik, $parlaklik, $parlaklik)))} (click-replace: ?w6)+ (text-color:gray)[Acedia] (set: $k6 to true)]

(text-color:black)[At the end of the night you wake up and feel guilty of what you have done.] (text-color:black)[She also feels guilty and forces you to talk to (text-color:green)[Samuel] about what happened.] {(set: $parlaklik to it - 25) [[Talk to him|ch2p101]] (enchant: ?page, (bg: (rgb: $parlaklik, $parlaklik, $parlaklik)))}

(text-color:black)[She starts with a sorrow voice, like starting a confession or complainment] (text-colour:purple)[" People always critisize looking what you wear, how you speak or how much you earn, they waste good people this way...."] (text-color:black)[(She looks the other way and raises her hand to her face, looks like you broke her heart)] (enchant: ?page, (bg: (rgb: $parlaklik, $parlaklik, $parlaklik)))} (text-colour:blue)[[ I didnt mean to say....|ch1p3.5]] (text-colour:blue)[[ Hey I'm sorry to...|ch1p3.5]]

(text-color:black)[After a brief silence, she starts to talk about daily stuff. Than you two decide to watch a movie. When the movie was is about to finish, you two got closer...] (enchant: ?page, (bg: (rgb: $parlaklik, $parlaklik, $parlaklik)))} [[...|ch1p1]]

"Sit down, we will seperate our common circle of friends, than you can leave." <script>calSes("sesler/ch2last.mp3", false);</script> [[....|chplast2]] [[Can we talk two minutes?|ch2last3]][(set: $iyilik to it +1)] {(set: $parlaklik to it - 25) (enchant: ?page, (bg: (rgb: $parlaklik, $parlaklik, $parlaklik)))}

"There is nothing left to talk" [[...|chplast2]] {(set: $parlaklik to it - 25) (enchant: ?page, (bg: (rgb: $parlaklik, $parlaklik, $parlaklik)))}

I love her and she loves me, Get off our way. [[We are lovers|ch2p002]][(set: $iyilik to it -1)] {(set: $parlaklik to it - 25) (enchant: ?page, (bg: (rgb: $parlaklik, $parlaklik, $parlaklik)))}

"How dare you betray me? You piece of..." He stops, and takes a deep breathe. [[Continue|ch2last]] {(set: $parlaklik to it - 25) (enchant: ?page, (bg: (rgb: $parlaklik, $parlaklik, $parlaklik)))}

(text-color:black)[At a cold day you start to walk with him. You cant figure what is he thinking but of course he is [starving]<w7| for an explanation...] <script>calSes("sesler/yurume_sesi.mp3", false);</script> (text-color:black)[While you both walk silently, you feel more anxious every second....] {(set: $parlaklik to it - 25) [[It all started...|ch2p102]][(set: $iyilik to it +1)] (enchant: ?page, (bg: (rgb: $parlaklik, $parlaklik, $parlaklik)))} [[Resist to it and stay silent|ch2p103]] (click-replace: ?w7)+(text-color:orange)[Gula] (set: $k7 to true)

(text-color:black)[With you starting of your talk, you feel that every word you choose will determine the faith of your friendship.] [[It all started the day you call me and tell the thing between you and her|ch2p106]][(set: $iyilik to it +1)] [[I dont feel any romantic emotions to her, it was... you know, the time was late,i was tired and fed up, could not resist to her|ch2p106]][(set: $iyilik to it +1)] [[I love her, so much.|ch2p001]][(set: $iyilik to it -1)] {(set: $parlaklik to it - 25) (enchant: ?page, (bg: (rgb: $parlaklik, $parlaklik, $parlaklik)))}

"You gonna talk or what?" [[Sorry I was...|ch2p102]][(set: $iyilik to it +1)] [[Keep your silence|ch2p105]][(set: $iyilik to it +1)] {(set: $parlaklik to it - 25) (enchant: ?page, (bg: "white")) (enchant: ?page, (bg: (rgb: $parlaklik, $parlaklik, $parlaklik)))}

"You dont even have an explanation?" You better talk. [[It all started...|ch2p102]] [[I have nothing to explain.|ch2last]] {(set: $parlaklik to it - 25) (enchant: ?page, (bg: (rgb: $parlaklik, $parlaklik, $parlaklik)))}

... I have burried my feelings and kept a distance till last night. Last night, i couldnt resist more. I tried a lot, believe me. [[I dont know what else could i have done|ch2p108]] [[She was just so...|ch2p107]] {(set: $parlaklik to it - 25) (enchant: ?page, (bg: (rgb: $parlaklik, $parlaklik, $parlaklik)))}

"She was acting very weird that night. She was literally squeezing me whil hugging. I wasnt expecting this kind of attitude. Maybe I shouldnt have invited her to my house..." [[I...|ch2p108]] [[She made me do it|ch2p108]][(set: $iyilik to it -1)] {(set: $parlaklik to it - 25) (enchant: ?page, (bg: (rgb: $parlaklik, $parlaklik, $parlaklik)))}

"You shouldnt have invited her to your house! You should have kept your distance no matter what! I thoguht we were friends but you stabbed me from my back, you traitor!" [[Continue|ch2last]] {(set: $parlaklik to it - 25) (enchant: ?page, (bg: (rgb: $parlaklik, $parlaklik, $parlaklik)))}

Wanna try again and save your friendship? [[YES|ch3p2]][(set: $iyilik to it +1)] [[NO|ch3p3]][(set: $iyilik to it -1)]

"You gonna talk?" [[It all started the day you called me and told about thing between you and her.|ortayol]][(set: $iyilik to it +1)] [[She just made up my mind, i was so blind to notice this|suclayıcı]][(set: $iyilik to it -1)] [[When she hugged me i felt blessed|saltgercek]]

You end up loosing a best friend... END

You two separate everything you shared together and he leaves while you sit still. <script>calSes("sesler/ezan_sesi.mp3", false);</script> [[Continue|ch3p1]] {(set: $parlaklik to it - 25) (enchant: ?page, (bg: (rgb: $parlaklik, $parlaklik, $parlaklik)))}

I wanted to stop everything but it didnt work i did my best i swear. "Why did you invited her to your house?" [[Because we were going to do study date|ortayol2]] [[Because we did wanted some place in which we cant be disturbed by others.|sıçış]]

"Why did you sleep in the same bed?" [[It was late and i couldnt resist...|ortayol3]] [[Because she made me felt so peaceful|sıçış]]

"You betrayed me, ı was once trusted and loved you. I saw you as my brother, you could have talked to me about this. I would respect you if you had let me know it and we would separate our ways. Now you betray all the values we trust. Sit, we will seperate our ways." [[Continue|ucuncuduvar]]

"Are you proud of what you have done?" [[Yes|sıçış]] [(set: $iyilik to it -1)] [[No|ortayol3]][(set: $iyilik to it +1)]

I have never felt something romantic to her but with that moment I felt peace. [[She made me feel beloved, which ı have never felt before.|salt2]]

(transition: "blur")+(transition-delay: 1s)+(text-size: 1.4) + (text-color:black)["This thing of darkness I acknowledge mine."] (live: 2.2s)+ (text-color:black)[(Act V, Scene 1)(stop:)] (live: 3s) + (text-color:black)[William Shakespeare(stop:)] (live: 3.8s) + (text-color:black)[[[Continue |ch0p0]](stop:)] (enchant: ?page, (bg: (rgb: $parlaklik, $parlaklik, $parlaklik)))}

She forced me to do this i was simply trying to keep my distance with her. "Thats why you were inviting her to do study-date?" [[We were doing job stuff|suçlayıcı2]][(set: $iyilik to it +1)] [[She was the one who kept inviting me to some places!|sıçış]][(set: $iyilik to it -1)]

"Thats why you felt asleep together, huh!" Looks like things fucked up, wanna try again? [[Yes|ch3p2]] [(set: $iyilik to it +1)] [[No|ch3p3]][(set: $iyilik to it -1)]

You are just a piece of shit! Couldnt make it, another try? [[Yes|ch3p2]] [(set: $iyilik to it +1)] [[No|ucuncuduvar]][(set: $iyilik to it -1)]

Dont you see? [[See what?|ud2]]

Wanna try againg? [[Yes|ud3]] [(set: $iyilik to it +1)] [[No|ud3]]

Do you think you can change the past, for better? [[Yes|ud4]] [[Maybe?|ud4]]

You cant change the past even in an interactive storytelling fiction. You think you can do it in real life? Why do you keep thinking all the alternative realities you doing the right thing even if you cant affect it? [[Because it relaxes me, it feels like i could go back and change it. Maybe there is something left ı could...|ud5]] [[I cant stop but thinking it. It hurts me but i cant help it. I feel,,, pathetic|ud5]]

(text-size: 17)[ITS TOO LATE!] <div style="position: relative; width: 100%; min-height: 950px; font-size: 1.4em; box-sizing: border-box;">  <div style="position: absolute; left: 2%; top: 30px; width: 400px; transform: rotate(-12deg);">ITS TOO LATE!</div> <div style="position: absolute; left: 4%; top: 220px; width: 400px; transform: rotate(18deg);">YOU TWO FACED JERK!</div> <div style="position: absolute; left: 1%; top: 440px; width: 400px; transform: rotate(-25deg);">YOU PLAYED ME!</div> <div style="position: absolute; left: 3%; top: 660px; width: 400px; transform: rotate(15deg);">YOU SUCKER!</div>  <div style="position: absolute; left: 35%; top: 20px; width: 450px; transform: rotate(8deg);">I THOUGHT WE WERE FRIENDS</div> <div style="position: absolute; left: 32%; top: 200px; width: 500px; transform: rotate(-20deg);">DONT YOU SEE THE CONSEQUENCES!</div> <div style="position: absolute; left: 38%; top: 480px; width: 450px; transform: rotate(5deg);">YOU BETRAYED ME!</div> <div style="position: absolute; left: 28%; top: 720px; width: 500px; transform: rotate(-12deg);">WE SHARED EVERYTHING WE HAD!</div>  <div style="position: absolute; right: 2%; top: 50px; width: 400px; transform: rotate(25deg);">YOU FOOLED ME!</div> <div style="position: absolute; right: 4%; top: 250px; width: 450px; transform: rotate(-18deg);">YOU COULD HAVE TALKED TO ME!</div> <div style="position: absolute; right: 1%; top: 490px; width: 400px; transform: rotate(20deg);">I WAS YOUR BROTHER!</div> <div style="position: absolute; right: 3%; top: 690px; width: 400px; transform: rotate(-10deg);">SELFISH BETRAYER!</div>  <div style="position: absolute; left: 5%; top: 860px; width: 550px; transform: rotate(-5deg);">YOU CANNOT CHANGE ANYTHING ANYMORE!</div> <div style="position: absolute; right: 5%; top: 880px; width: 450px; transform: rotate(8deg);">YOU HAVE RUINED IT!</div>  <div style="position: absolute; left: 15%; top: 590px; width: 650px; font-size: 0.95em; transform: rotate(-4deg); line-height: 1.4; color: #ffcccc;">HE TRUSTED YOU AND YOU BETRAYED HIM FOR WHAT? FOR WHAT SAKE, YOU IDIOT?</div> </div> [[....................|ud5.5]]

(text-size:2)[[Sorry, ı just... okey listen.|ud6]]

There is no benefit thinking it more and more. Things have happend, accept it. Regrets are valuable guides which shows us the person we want to be. Looks like you are not like the ones who dont give a shit when they break heart. [[Accept what you have done and its consequences. Move on.|BeforeFinal]] [[No, ı can still make it|ch0p0]]

(enchant: ?page, (bg: "white")) (text-colour:purple)[Aria:](text-color:black)[ Your best friend off all times. You do not notice how the time flows while you are with her. The only person who listens to you and cares about you. You do feel happy with her. Lately, you noticed some emotions in yourself against her but could not really name it. You are not sure if you like her or not, but you do really love her and want her to be happy.] (text-colour:gray)[[Back to story|ch0p0]]