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A message pops up on your work message app. "Drinks tonight at Kelele Lounge. 6pm ;)" [["Sure"]]

Kelele lounge has a great view of the Spirit Plaza. Despite only being 95 stories high, Spirit Plaza stands out in the city you live in. Not even in the top 100 tallest buildings in the world (you had checked the rankings years ago, and back then it had been 143rd, now it was probably lower, what with a few more high rises being built), but it was so beautiful. Especially with the hacked grafitti streaming on its massive LED screen windows. It is 5.50. You were early. You are always early. [[Order a drink as you wait.]] [[Watch the digital graffitti painting the Spirit Plaza.]]

Wave at the waiter. - Let the player order a drink With your drink ordered. You wait for your friend and watch the tower. [[Watch the digital graffitti painting the Spirit Plaza.]]

The plaza lights up the area around it with all the colours emited from it's screens. "There's probably a grafitti battle happening on one of the websites." A randomman tells you. You look at him. "Probably." You respond. You go back to watching the lights and waiting for your friend. The man sites opposite you. "Hi, I'm Ethan." He introduces himself. [[Introduce yourself to Ethan]] [[Ignore Ethan]]

<h2><b>Welcome to x2-100 </b></h2> Hello and welcome to this short interactive narrative. It is a short exerpt of a larger ongoing narrative that will be updated in the future, but for now, have this short part of the story. You play as a character called Bekiru (Kiri, Kiki or Ru for short). She is an engineer who specializies in the care, maintenance and evolution of Plant-Based Large Language Models called TREE's. You are currently on an illegal and secret space mission to save some space colonies that are in crisis. Your job on the ship is to keep ADAM, the ships main utility management and navigation system TREE, functional. Without ADAM you and your team will get lost in space and the ship will deteriorate until it becomes uninhabitable. This narrative covers 3 days aboard the ship. [[Start the Narrative|Start the Game]] Thank you for starting the narrative and hopefully you enjoy.

<h2><b>Good morning Eng B. Muna</b></h2> <div id="passwordArea"> Please Enter the Password <<textbox "$password" "">> </div> <<click "Confirm Password">> Monday 2nd. <<if $password is "EVE_TREE_1">> <<goto [[Monday 2nd]]>> <<else>> <<replace "#passwordArea">>Try again! What's the password? <<textbox "$password" "">> Hint: It's "EVE_TREE_1"<</replace>> <</if>> <</click>>

Inbox: 2 Messages Daily tasks: 1) Prune EVE

<div id="passwordArea"> International Bureau of Space Exploration </div> <<if $password is "EVE_TREE_1">> <<replace “#passwordArea”>>Welcome Eng. B. Muna<</replace>> <<else>> <<replace "#passwordArea">>Try again! What's the password? <<textbox "$password" "">><</replace>> <</if>>

<h2><b>Welcome Eng B. Muna</b></h2> Inbox: 2 Messages [[Check Inbox, 2nd]] Today tasks: 1) Check on EVE water level 2) Check EVE bark and leaves for disease 3) Prune EVE It looks like it's going to be a manual maintenence of EVE day. [[Go to EVE, 2nd]] Energy Level: $EL

[[Check on EVE water level]] [[Check EVE bark and leaves for disease]] [[Prune EVE]]

Inbox: 2 messages: 1: John Danson, Head of EVE Department "Meeting pushed to Wednesday" Hello Bekina, Please note that the meeting has been pushed from Tuesday 3rd to Wednesay 11th. Have a good week, John [[Respond to John, Monday 2nd]] 2: Stephanie Otlako, First Class Pilot, IBSE Space Station Eos "Space Station Update" Girl, they updated the wash units on the space station, I can finally have a 10 minute shower.... Trust, the shower playlist is going to ham. Also, farts and kisses butt face. Hope your TREE's are doing well. TTYL Steph. [[Respond to Steph, Monday 2nd]] <<if hasVisited("Go to EVE, 2nd")>> [[Shut down computer and head home]] <<elseif not hasVisited("Go to EVE, 2nd")>> [[Go to EVE, 2nd]] <</if>>\ <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL - 1, 0, 10)>> Energy Level: $EL

All in all a simple day, not too much to do. [[Head Home]] [[Plan Tuesday 3rd Tasks]] Energy Level: $EL

The mulch level is still good and even without a volcano at the trunk. Push some mulch aside and stick your finger into the soil, about 4 to 6 inches deep. Is the soil damp any where along that depth? [[Yes]] [[No]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL - 1, 0, 10)>>

You have to climb EVE to check all the leaves and bark. It takes you an hour and half because you take your time and are thorough. There's no disease, mould or pests on EVE. <<if not hasVisited("Prune EVE")>> [[Prune EVE]] <</if>> <<elseif not hasVisited("Check on EVE water level")>> [[Check on EVE water level]] <</if>> <<elseif hasVisited("Check on EVE water level" and "Prune EVE")>> [[Head back to office]] <</if>>\ <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL - 3, 0, 10)>>

Prune EVE. Cut off all the branches growing in the wrong direction and the branches that are visibly already dead. <<if hasVisited("Check on EVE Water Level" and "Check on EVE bark and leaves for disease")>> [[Head back to office]] <<elseif not hasVisited("Check on EVE water level")>> [[Check on EVE water level]] <<elseif not hasVisited("Check on EVE bark and leaves for disease")>> [[Check EVE bark and leaves for disease]] <</if>>\ <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL - 2, 0, 10)>>

EVE has enough water. <<if not hasVisited("Prune EVE")>> [[Prune EVE]] <<elseif not hasVisited("Check EVE bark and leaves for disease")>> [[Check EVE bark and leaves for disease]] <<elseif hasVisited("Prune EVE" and "Check EVE bark and leaves for disease") [[Head back to office]] <</if>> <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL + 1, 0, 10)>>

Get the hose and water carefully around the base of EVE. <<if not hasVisited("Prune EVE")>> [[Prune EVE]] <</if>> <<if not hasVisited("Check EVE bark and leaves for disease")>> [[Check EVE bark and leaves for disease]] <<else hasVisited("Prune EVE" and "Check EVE bark and leaves for disease") [[Head back to office]] <</if>>\ <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL - 1, 0, 10)>>

Go to computer. <<if not hasVisited("Check Inbox")>> [[Check Inbox, 2nd]] <<elseif hasVisited("Check Inbox")>> [[Shut down computer and head home]] <</if>>\ Energy Level: $EL

You want to head home, but tomorrows tasks should be organised. [[Plan Tuesday 3rd Tasks]] Energy Level: $EL

Key Tasks for tomorrow: 1) EVE seed pollination 2) EVE data checks 3) EVE-based seedling check [[Finally head home]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +1, 0, 10)>>

Triple check your station. Papers tidy, Desk clear, Computer properly shut down. Check. <<timed 4s>>Confirm keys in bag. Check.<</timed>> <<timed 6s>>Confirm office access card in wallet. Check.<</timed>> <<timed 8s>>Confirm IDcard in wallet. Check.<</timed>> <<timed 11s>>[[Finally, finally head home]]<</timed>> Energy Level: $EL

Leave the office. <<timed 3s>>Did you carry everything? Yes. <</timed>> <<timed 5s>>Are you sure? Yes. <</timed>> <<timed 7s>>How about-<</timed>> <<timed 8s>>YES I HAVE EVERYTHING.<</timed>> <<timed 10s>>[[Get on the transport home]]<</timed>> Energy Level: $EL

Put on headphones and listen to a guided breathing meditation. "Deep breath in for 4 seconds" "Hold for 6 seconds" "Exhale for 6 secons" Repeat. Get home and rest. End of Day Energy Level: $EL [[Start Day 2 (old)]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +8, 0, 10)>>

<h2><b>Good morning Eng B. Muna</b></h2> <div id="passwordArea"> Please Enter the Password <<textbox "$password" "">> </div> <<click "Confirm Password">> Tuesday 3rd. <<if $password is "EVE_TREE_1">> <<replace "#passwordArea">>Welcome Eng. B. Muna [[Tuesday 3rd]]<</replace>> <<else>> <<replace "#passwordArea">>Try again! What's the password? <<textbox "$password" "">> Hint: It's "EVE_TREE_1"<</replace>> <</if>> <</click>>

Inbox: 3 Messages [[Check Inbox, 3rd]] <<if not hasVisited ("Go to EVE, Tuesday 3rd" and "Go to EVE lab, Tuesday 3rd")>> Tasks, Tuesday 3rd 1) EVE seed pollination 2) EVE data checks 3) EVE-based seedling check Today is a lab heavy day with only one manual EVE task. [[Go to EVE, Tuesday 3rd]] [[Go to EVE lab, Tuesday 3rd]] <</if>>

Inbox: 3 Messages: Emails to Eng. B. Muna, EVE Engineer 1) Stephanie Otlako, First Class Pilot, IBSE Space Station Eos Girl, Thanks so much for the music. It's appreciated. Also, please tell me you got tickets to see Hagen Hagen Hela this weekend. Please say you did, you've wanted to see them forever. PLEASE. When you go, give me all the deets. I must live vicariously through you. Have a good day fart face. Steph. [[Respond to Steph]] 2) Tabitha Wilson, Communications Engineer, IBSE Head Quaters Drinks on me tonight. 7pm, Riders Lounge. [[Respond to Tabby]] Emails to bmuna@mailme.int 3) Unknown Email Flagged as unsafe. Unknown sender. Hey Bekiru, This is Kim. Sorry for emailing you outside my work email, but I had a random and personal question to ask you. What's the name of that restuarant by the beach that has good surf 'n turf? I'm thinking of proposing to Talia there. Thanks in advance. PS, just respond to this email direct. All the communication through this line is encrypted. Kim. [[Respond to Kim]] <<if hasVisited ("Respond to Steph" and "Respond to Tabby" and "Respond to Kim")>> [[End of Tuesday 3rd Work Day]] <</if>>

[[EVE seed pollination]]

<<if not hasVisited("Go to EVE, Tuesday 3rd")>> The flowers bloom in the morning and the fresher the flowers the higher the chance of pollination being successful. [[Go to EVE, Tuesday 3rd]] <<elseif hasVisited("Go to EVE, Tuesday 3rd")>> It was nice spending the morning with EVE. Now focusing on the Lab Work. [[Start Lab Work]] <</if>>

Send a message to John <<if $EL gt 4 >> Hello John, Thank you so much for the notice. I will prepare for the meeting accordingly. Have a good day. All the best, Bekiru. <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL - 2, 0, 10)>> <<endif>> <<if $EL lte 4>> Hello John, Noted. Best, Bekiru. <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL - 1, 0, 10)>> <<endif>> Energy Level: $EL [[Check Inbox, 2nd]]

Message to Stephanie Eng. Bekiru Muna Hi Steph, Smelly pilot... your hair must have matted into a gaint dreadlock. Enjoy the longer shower time though. I'll send you some new songs to add to the shower playlist, now that you have a luxurious 10 minutes in there. EVE's good. I'll probably try to pollinate her soon. Farts and kisses, stupid face. Ciao. Kiki. <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +1, 0, 10)>> Energy Level: $EL [[Check Inbox, 2nd]]

<<set $EL to 10>>>

Start with the EVE seed pollination to increase chances of the maual pollination being successful. //Today is a therapy day. You typicaly have these sessions once a month to just to do a mental self check in. Dr Lincoln had agreed to record a few guiding questions and excercises for you to do in his absence. //Kim dialogue: "Basically, using TREE's for space travel is a field that was uner researched for years until my professor started researching it a few years ago. He created a prototype and was going to show case it, when IBSE stopped him. But he kept copies of his research and devloped it in secret. After we recieved the SOS beacons last year and IBSE shut down all support for the colonies. I reached out to him and asked to start on the research again." // before turning to look at you //He then tuens to you with a smile.

[[EVE data checks, Tuesday 3rd]] [[EVE-based seedling check, Tuesday 3rd]]

EVE Data Details Water level: 70% Good water level. No need to rewater for a few days. Uplink to IBSE Space Station Cosmo: 3.8tbps Uplink to IBSE Space Station Juno: 2.97tbps Uplink to IBSE Space Station Eos: 4.12tbps Uplink to IBSE Space Startion Atlas: 3.51tbps Uplink to IBSE Space Startion Selene: 3.3tbps Uplink to IBSE Space Startion Nyx: 6tbps All withing acceptable ranges. Pruning yesterday increased the uplink speeds across the board, noticably to Eos which had been at 1.11tbps before the pruning. Storage Used: 45% Plenty of space for when the updated data comes in later today from the Luchik Telescope. Network Strength: 52% That's a problem. [[Figure out the network strength issue]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL - 1, 0, 10)>>

Go to the nursery and check on the EVE seedlings. The nursery is humid, but it is not too hot. The EVE seedlings have been separated to prevent them from killing each other. There were 4 viable seedlings from the last seed planting. All 4 are mostly healthy. Number 3 has some dark spots on it's leaves. They are topical though, not indicative of a blight. The restof the plant is healthy. You carefully prune the damaged leaves and check for any other signs of disease or pests. After some checking, you find that all the seeds are fine. You move seedlings 1 and 4 to the outside area and adjust their watering schedule to account for the new heat wave caused by the solar flare. <<timed 35s>> <<if hasVisited("EVE data checks, Tuesday 3rd")>> [[Tuesday 3rd]] <<elseif hasVisited("EVE data checks, Tuesday 3rd" and "Check Inbox, 3rd")>> [[End of Tuesday 3rd Work Day]] <</if>> <</timed>>

Climb EVE with your pollination tools; Cotton swab kit, Test tubes to hold the cotton swabs, back up paint brush. Climb until you reach a flower. Carefully use a cotton swab to collect the pollen around the Stamen of the EVE flowers. Place pollen full cotton swab carefullt into test tube, suspended in the stopper. Repeat 6 more times. Find the fruit flowers, with bulbs at the base. Swab the pollen full cotton swab against the petals of the bulbs. Repeat 6 more times. Climb down from EVE. [[Go to EVE lab, Tuesday 3rd]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -4, 0, 10)>>

Open the Direct Communication Program, Talk2EVE To start the program type "Hello EVE" <div id="talkArea"> Talk2EVE <<textbox "$talktoEVE" "">> </div> <<click "Talk to EVE">> <<if $talktoEVE is "Hello EVE">> <<replace "#talkArea">> Hello Kiru [[Talk to EVE]]<</replace>> <<else>> <<replace "#talkArea">>I do not know this command Try Again <<textbox "$talkArea" "" >><</replace>> <</if>> <</click>>

Self diagnosis. <<timed 3s>> EVE is funtioning within acceptable parameters <</timed>> <<timed 6s>> Run Network Diagnosis <</timed>> <<timed 9s>> EVE Network Strength 52% <</timed>> <<timed 12s>> Network Diagnosis Report <</timed>> <<timed 17s>> Report: Sector 6: Cluster mycellium damaged. Sector 11: Nutrient deficiency in Network Sector 15: New plants in Network. 52% Network Strength. <</timed>> <<timed 25s>> Print Report. <</timed>> <<timed 28s>> Thank you EVE. <</timed>> <<timed 32s>> Conversation terminated. <</timed>> <<timed 34s>> [[Close Program]] <</timed>>

Open printed report and open Sector Map. Sector 6: Cluster mycellium damaged. Sector 11: Nutrient deficiency in Network Sector 15: New plants in Network. <<timed 5s>> Email Sector 6 Maintenance Lead. "Good afternoon Ada, I hope that this email finds you well. There may be an issue with the new fertalizer that you are testing. It is damaging the soil and harming the mycellium in the area. Could you please check this out? Thank you. Best, Bekiru." <</timed>> <<timed 20s>> Email Sector 11 Care Lead "Good afternoon Manager Lennox, I hope that this email finds you well. I wanted to inform you that the plants in your area are suffering from a nutrient deficiency. Consider adding nitogen fixers to the area to help nutrient infusion. All the best, Eng. Bekiru." <</timed>> <<timed 32s>> <<if not hasVisited("Lunch Break, Tuesday 3rd")>> [[Lunch Break, Tuesday 3rd]] <<elseif hasVisited ("Lunch Break, Tuesday 3rd")>> [[End of Tuesday 3rd Work Day]] <</if>> <</timed>> <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL - 2, 0, 10)>>

Go to IBSE Cafeteria to get lunch. Get food. Sit alone. Eat food and listen to podcast. Take a walk around the compound and do deep breathing excercise. [[Back to the Lab]]

<<if not hasVisited("EVE-based seedling check, Tuesday 3rd")>> Time to check on the seedlings. [[EVE-based seedling check, Tuesday 3rd]] <<elseif hasVisited("EVE-based seedling check, Tuesday 3rd")>> Time for the data checks. [[EVE data checks, Tuesday 3rd]] <</if>>

Tiring day, but at least it's done. Plan Wednesday 4th Tasks 1) Therapy Session in the morning 2) EVE Data checks, Wednesday 4th [[Head Home, Tuesday 3rd]]

Eng. B. Muna, EVE Engineer Hello Steph, STOP MAKING ME CRY!!! I didn't get the tickets. Yes, I'm crying about it. They sold out so fast. I'm trying to get the tickets from the venue directly. I'll keep you posted. Otherwise, I'm glad that you liked the music. Bye stupid face. [[Check Inbox, 3rd]]

Eng B. Muna, EVE Engineer Sure. Also, just text me. Sending me a drinks request via my formal work mail is wild lmao. [[Check Inbox, 3rd]]

KIM!! OMG, you're finally proposing to Talia?? Congrats. Hopefully she says yes. Also if I'm thinking of the correct restaurant, it was "Flints Cove". The one that was literally inside what had once been a coral reef, with the porous stone and white sand beach? I can't wait to attend the wedding. I'm so excited. Will it be a destination wedding? I know she has to say yes first, but you guys have been together for forever, so I have no doubt that she'll say yes. Best of Luck with all of this. Kiki. [[Check Inbox, 3rd]]

Quick Pause here, just wanted to do a small test.

More than 95% of humanity takes drugs. You are part of the 4.3% of adult humans that don't. Your refusal to take the drugs cost you your dreams of travelling to space. Until this mission. Now you are travelling in space on the ship Galileo to save the lives of hundreds of thousands of people on the space colonies. [[Start Your Day|Day 1]]

You get to the therapists office. You adjust your blazer in preparation for the session. At least you look presentable. You arrive 10 minutes early, because you're sure that your lateness will negatively affect her report of you. [[Sit in the waiting room]]

You take out the Action Plan and hurridly fill out a few more things, so it doesn't look so empty. You were supposed to go to the gym this week. You had. For 10 minutes, but she doesn't need to know that. You score the experience a 3. You were supposed to call your mum. You actually did. You talked for over half an hour. It was nice. You put a score of 7 on that task. You were supposed to call Talia to schedule a day to meet up and hang out. You.... did not do this. Not because you forgot, but because you know Talia is busy. She just got a promotion at the university. You didn't want to bother her. If you had, she wouldn't like you anymore. So you just kept your distance. Dr Nelly will understand this, surely. [[The receptionist invites you to go to Dr Nelly's office]]

Dr Nelly is siting at her desk. She smiles at you. "Good morning Bekiru. How are you feeling today?" Tell the truth: [[Nervous about the session]] Lie: [[You're feeling great, no issues at all]]

<b>Energy Level: $EL </b>

You wake up groggy. You try to blink the sleep from your eyes. Looking around your sleep capsule, you wonder what woke you. Your alarm isn't ringing and the artificial sunlight that you programmed to "wake you up naturally" isn't on. The room is pitch black. There's a knock on your capsule door. "Kiki." [["10 more minutes"]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +4, 0, 10)>>

"Wake up Kiki. I need to ask you something about the newest data we've gotten from ADAM." You groan as you sit up carefully. "Give me a sec." You drink a bottle of water and take a breath mint. [["Sure, what's up Ethan?"

Ethan laughs, "No can do, I need to ask you about some data I'm reading from ADAM." You groan as you sit up. "Give me a sec." You drink a bottle of water and place a mint strip on your toungue. You shuffle out of your bed to the entry way of the capsule, still very sleepy. [["Sure, what's up Ethan?"]]

You open the capsule door and look at Ethan. "Hello, to you too." Ethan greet affably. He then points to some numbers on his tablet. You look at the blurred numbers and reach out to pull the tablet closer to your face. The light from the screen hurts after the dark of your capsule, but you blink through it. "Get your glasses Kiki." He states. [[Keep looking at the screen]]

You see what he means. His print out is less detailed than the ones you read but it still has some key diagnostic information. Hydration: 62% Nutrition: 65% Root health: 89% Trunk health: 90% Branch health: 92% Leaves health: 81% ADAM is using more memory than he should. "There's a Data Leak somewhere." You say to Ethan. You turn into your room and grab you glasses from the small shelf beside your bed. [[Head to ADAM]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -1, 0, 10)>>

You start walking to ADAM assuming that Ethan is following you. You stop when you realize Ethan isn't following you. "What?" You ask. "How'd you know?" Ethan asks. "He's loosing too much water too fast. He was at 68% yesterday and now he's at 62%" You say. "He should still be at 68% or at 66% at worst. 62% is a red flag." You carry on towards ADAM. You barely notice the ship passing around you as you head determinedly to the ADAM lab. You'll need to adjust the irrigation system again. There is something happening with the water absorbtion and water retention that is concerning. You'll also need to light ADAM more but reduce the temparature in his biome. You get to the [[ADAM Biome Control Console.|ADAM Biome Control 1]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -1, 0, 10)>>

You wake up in your [[sleep capsule]]. Your alarm is ringing and you are in a warm glow of orange light. You look at the ceiling and take in the photos. You can't see the notes without your glasses, but you remember the key things. You reach for your glasses and put them on as you head to the door to the ensuite bathroom. [[Go to the bathroom]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -1, 0, 10)>>

The capsule is small. 2 meters by 3 meters. Your bed attached to the left wall, directly infront of the door. There is a ledge inside the left wall next to your bed where you usually stash your glasses before you sleep. The rest of the room is minimal with a small desk and a chair by the door and cupboards in the right wall. You look at the photos you stuck to the ceiling of your capsule. They are photos of your family. Your dad is giving you a thumbs up and your mum is laughing. There's a note next to it that reads: "We are proud of you." Your brother and sister are playing a video game in another photo. The note next to that reads, "You are smart, competent and brilliant." Finally your grandmother sits at a gathering in a green dress, her dyed white hair perfectly styled. The note next to her reads, "Keep going, you will achieve your dreams. I am rooting for you." [[Start Your Day|Day 1]]

The sleep pods are too small to fit much in there, but everyone has their own personal sanitation cubicles. 1m by 2 m cubicles come with a shower area that is separated from the sink and toilet by a sliding glass door. Your sanitation cubicle has one of your Therapy Notes pinned on it. You glance at it as you brush your teeth. Therapy Note: "When I start to feel depressed or anxious, I need to remember that I am a competent person with a mental illness and to evaluate my thoughts, which may be 100% true, 0% true or somewhere in between. Give yourself credit for all the hard things that you are doing everyday, even the little things." You rinse out your teeth and wash your face before getting into the shower and completing your daily sanitation ritual, before getting dressed for the day. [[Head back into your room|Start Day 1]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +1, 0, 10)>>

You sit at your desk and start writing your tasks for today. A maximum of three because anymore will overwhelm you. You typically also try to estimate how much energy you anticipate a task taking (AEnergy). You have to manage your energy because when you get tired you make more mistakes, get snappish or feel increased anxiety and sadness. You do not need to become suicidal again. Especially in space on this mission, with your friends, who depend on you, hanging in the balance. Today tasks: 1) Check on ADAM water level | AEnergy: 1 2) Check ADAM bark and leaves for disease: | AEnergy: 4 3) Prune ADAM, if needed: AEnergy: 4 It looks like it's going to be a manual maintenence of ADAM day. [[Head to Comissary|Breakfast Day 1]]

You stand up and open your door. Annie is standing at the door with a massive grin holding 2 trays of food.

You get to the main commissary. It is down the hall from the sleeping pods in the "living wing" of the ship. To get to the rest of the ship from the sleep pods, you need to go through the commissary. The [[commissary]] is quite a large rectangular room, with a kitchenette attached to one corner of it. But most days you just eat the pre-packaged meals that the kitchen machine dispenses. You get to the commissary and see Annie and Kim already deep in conversation. They look up when they see you and both smile at you. You join them. "What are your plans today?" Kim asks. "ADAM maintenance." You reply simply. "Nice." Annie says. "How about you guys?" "Updating Navigation Systems" Annie says. "Inventory check and updates" Kim replys. "Same ol', same ol', huh." You respond with a laugh. You finish breakfast with Annie and Kim, grab a to go lunch pack and [[head to ADAM.|ADAM day 1]]

About [[ADAM]]. <<if not hasVisited("ADAM Water day 1")>>[[Check on ADAM water level|ADAM Water day 1]]<</if>> <<if not hasVisited ("Bark and leaves day 1")>>[[Check ADAM bark and leaves for disease|Bark and leaves day 1]]<</if>> <<if not hasVisited ("Prune Day 1")>>[[Prune ADAM, if needed|Prune Day 1]]<</if>> <<if (hasVisited("ADAM Water day 1" and "Bark and leaves day 1" and "Prune Day 1") and hasVisited("Lunch Day 1"))>> I should head to the commissary for dinner now. [[Head to commissary|End of Day 1]]<</if>> <<if (hasVisited("ADAM Water day 1" and "Bark and leaves day 1" and "Prune Day 1") and not hasVisited("Lunch Day 1"))>> It's too late for lunch. I guess I should just head to the commissary for an early dinner instead. [[Head to commissary|End of Day 1]] <</if>>

The mulch level around the trunk is still good and thankfully doesn't have a volcano at the trunk. You push some mulch aside and stick your finger into the soil, pushing your hand about 4 to 6 inches deep into the soil. Is the soil damp any where along that depth? You wiggle your fingers a bit and feel the earth around the tree, waiting a few seconds. [[Yes the soil is still damp.|Water Day 1]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +1, 0, 10)>>

ADAM only needs some light pruning. You carefully cut off all the branches growing in the wrong direction and the branches that are visibly already dead. Take your time with it and enjoy the process. ADAM is still quite young and if you over prune it will harm him. However under pruning will also cause harm. You carefully go around the crown, removing branches that are growing wrong and that are blocking the light to other sections of the TREE. <<if not hasVisited("Bark and leaves day 1")>> [[Bark and leaves day 1]] <</if>> <<if not hasVisited("ADAM Water day 1")>> [[ADAM Water day 1]] <</if>> <<if (hasVisited("ADAM Water day 1" or "Bark and leaves day 1") and not hasVisited ("Lunch Day 1"))>> [[Have Lunch|Lunch Day 1]] <</if>> <<if hasVisited("ADAM Water day 1" and "Bark and leaves day 1" and "Lunch Day 1")>> [[Head to Commisary|End of Day 1]]<</if>> <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -3, 0, 10)>>

You have to climb ADAM to check all the leaves and bark. It takes you an hour and half because you take your time and are thorough. There's no disease or mould on ADAM. You know that the biome around ADAM is carefully maintained to avoid anything that would harm him from even existing in the space, but you still do the check because you would rather be thorough than get lazy now, when lives are at stake. <<if not hasVisited("Prune Day 1")>> [[Prune Day 1]] <</if>> <<if not hasVisited("ADAM Water day 1")>> [[ADAM Water day 1]] <</if>> <<if (hasVisited("ADAM Water day 1" or "Prune Day 1") and not hasVisited ("Lunch Day 1"))>> [[Have Lunch|Lunch Day 1]] <</if>> <<if hasVisited("ADAM Water day 1" and "Prune Day 1" and "Lunch Day 1")>> [[Head to Commisary|End of Day 1]] <</if>> <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -4, 0, 10)>>

ADAM has enough water. <<if not hasVisited("Bark and leaves day 1")>> [[Bark and leaves day 1]]<</if>> <<if not hasVisited("Prune Day 1")>> [[Prune Day 1]] <</if>> <<if (hasVisited("Bark and leaves day 1" or "Prune Day 1") and not hasVisited("Lunch Day 1"))>> [[Have Lunch|Lunch Day 1]] <</if>> <<if hasVisited("Bark and leaves day 1" and "Prune Day 1" and "Lunch Day 1")>> [[Head to Commisary|End of Day 1]] <</if>>

Go back to the commisary. Ethan is sitting at a table looking at one of his SEED's part frazzled and part excited. You approach him. "Missed you at breakfast." You say. "Was working in the nursery, forgot to come up to eat." He says while shrugging. "We should probably put an alert system in the nursery." You say while smiing. Ethan shrugs before pinching the bridge of his nose and looking at the SEED. "How's ADAM?" Ethan asks. "Good." You respond easily enough. "At least biologically. Tomorrow I'll be doing more data and systems work." Ethan nods absent mindedly, before returning back to staring at his SEED. [[Get dinner|Dinner Day 1]]

Stop to have your lunch. Sit at the base of ADAM and look at the flowers blooming around ADAM's roots. Take a deep breath. 4 seconds in, 4 seconds hold, 6 seconds out. Read your tasks for today and congratulate yourself for getting two tasks done. Finish your lunch. [[Get back to work|ADAM day 1]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +1, 0, 10)>>

You get some food from the premade food station. "Whose turn is it to cook this week?" You ask Ethan, because you forgot the cooking schedule. Ethan stares at the SEED in front of him and speaks without turning to look at you. "Who knows anymore." He says. You look at the roster printed by the food dispenser. It's Kim's week. He's a good cook. The weekly team dinner will be a treat. "Kim this week." You tell Ethan. Ethan smiles as he continues to stare at his SEED. "Nice, we'll get some good food." Kim and Annie enter the commisary. They grab their meals from the premade food station. [[You all sit to eat.|Eating]]

Kim and Annie happily banter between each other but you look at Ethan. He isn't eating. "Hey Ethan, did you eat today?" You ask him quietly. He hums. That usually means no. You get up and get a premade meal from the dispenser before returning to Ethan and handing him the plate. He looks surprised that the food. "Eat." You say simply. "Or you can't take x2." Ethan finally grabs a spoon and starts shovelling the food into his mouth without any care. Annie and Kim watch in silence, before Kim goes, "I'm thinking pasta for the weekly meal." Annie looks excited at the prospect. Ethan replies, "Whatever you make will be great." But he is smiling and does slow down the speed with which he is shoving food down his throat. You laugh. The rest of the meal goes by pleasantly. [[You head to your room.|Wrap up day 1]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +2, 0, 10)>>

Back in your capsule, you go over your day. After going over everything, you thank yourself for all the hard work you did that day. You look at your second therapy note pinned to your desk next to some dried flowers that you pressed from your friends garden. Therapy note: "You are capable of overcoming challenges that arise, especially if you ask for help from others.Remember that the people around you do not hate you, and they are willing to help if you ask them. There is no shame in needing help. It is a normal and natural thing to need help. You are a competent individual who is doing your best, even when you feel like that may not be true. Remember that your thoughts can be 100% true, 0% true or somewhere inbetween. Always evaluate your negative automatic thoughts using the techniques Dr Lincoln gave you." You go to bed and [[go to sleep.|Start Day 2]]

You work on your Arrows Up and Arrows Down Goal Setting Worksheet 3 behaviours I would like to decrease to achieve my goals Behavious Did I Engage Today (Y/N) If yes, how many times 1)

Your alarm goes off. Your room is bathed in a soft golden light that is getting brighter by the minute. You get out of bed and go to your desk. You spend a few minutes journalling. You know that you should be doing it everyday, but sometimes you forget or are tired. Today you woke up early, so you can spend 5 minutes on the activity. [[Start Journalling]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +6, 0, 10)>>

<<type 85ms start 1s>>Wednesday 3rd May. It's been a few weeks in space now and everything seems to be going well. ADAM is doing better than expected so I'm trying to grateful for that. Honestly, I'm surprised. I'm in space..... something that I've dreamed about for my whole life, and it's finally happening, but I keep feeling like sonething will go wrong and it wil be all my fault. Kim and Annie have space experience, I on the other hand had never left Earth until this mission. What if I mess up and mess them up. What if I make a mistake and everyone dies. I'm the only person here that isn't on x2, what if they realize that it was a mistake to bring me. x2 exists for a reason, and all astronauts are on it for a reason... what if I make a mistake? It's all so nerve wracking. But I am here and that should count for something, right? Anyway, I need to get started on my day. Short but at least writing stuff down has given you some clarity. [[Get ready for the day|Day 2 morning]] <</type>> <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +1, 0, 10)>>

Head to the sanitation cubicle and brush your teeth. The therapy note is still pinned to the mirror. Therapy Note: "When I start to feel depressed or anxious, I need to remember that I am a competent person with a mental illness and to evaluate my thoughts, which may be 100% true, 0% true or somewhere in between. Give yourself credit for all the hard things that you are doing everyday, even the little things." You rinse out your teeth and wash your face before getting into the shower and completing your daily sanitation ritual, before getting dressed for the day. [[Head back to your room|Plan Day 2]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +1, 0, 10)>>

You sit at your desk and start writing your tasks for today. Today tasks: 1) ADAM SEED pollination. | AEnergy: 5 2) ADAM data check. | AEnergy: 2 3) ADAM systems check. | AEnergy: 2 Today is a ADAM data and systems check day, but you do get to do some manual ADAM seed pollination. [[Head to Comissary|Breakfast Day 2]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +1, 0, 10)>>

You head to the comissary where Annie is alone. "Why are you up alone?" You ask Annie as you sit next to her. "Can't sleep." She admits honestly. "Any particular reason that you can think of?" "Not really." Annie states "Just a bout of insomnia, it's a common enough side effect of x2 that I'm not concerned by it." "Okay." You say as you smile. She smiles back at you and you both finish breakfast in a companiable silence. [[Head to ADAM data and systems station|ADAM day 2]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +1, 0, 10)>>

Tasks: 1) ADAM SEED pollination 2) ADAM data check. 3) ADAM systems check. Today is a lab heavy day with only one manual ADAM task. [[Go to ADAM|Go to ADAM day 2]] [[Go to the ADAM lab|Go to ADAM lab day 2]]

<<if not hasVisited("Go to ADAM day 2")>> The flowers bloom in the morning and the fresher the flowers the higher the chance of pollination being successful. [[Go to ADAM|Go to ADAM day 2]] <<elseif hasVisited("Go to ADAM day 2")>> It was nice spending the morning with ADAM. Now focusing on the Lab Work. [[Start Lab Work|ADAM Lab work day 2]] <</if>>

Start [[ADAM seed pollination]]

The ADAM Lab has three main consoles. Two are for the two functions ADAM has onboard the ship. The third is a control panel for the maintenance, monitoring and manipulation of his biome. The two function consoles are: 1) A data console for all the space and navigation funstions that the ship needs ADAM for. 2) A system console for all the utility functions, like assisting the life support system, managing the ships sanitation and such, that ADAM does onboard the ship. <<if not hasVisited("ADAM data checks day 2")>> [[ADAM data Checks|ADAM data checks day 2]]<</if>> <<if not hasVisited("ADAM system check day 2")>> [[ADAM system Checks|ADAM system check day 2]] <</if>> <<if (hasVisited("ADAM system check day 2" or "ADAM data checks day 2") and not hasVisited ("Lunch Day 1"))>> [[Have Lunch|Lunch Day 2]] <</if>> <<if hasVisited("ADAM system check day 2" and "ADAM data checks day 2")>> [[Head to Commisary|End of Day 2]] <</if>>

You open the ADAM Data Control Panel connected to the ADAM supported Data Servers. The system is completely self contained and only esists to store data about space and the space colonies. It'd data comes from the mother tree on Earth called EVE, who has over 200 years worth of space exploration data and maps. The system is crucial for the ships ability to navigate space. ADAM Data Details Water level: 68% pH Level: 6.5 Nutrient Ratio: Nitrogen (N): 9 Phosphorus (P): 7.5 Potassium (K): 8.5 Micronutrients check (including Calcium (Ca),Magnesium (Mg), Sulfur (S)) : All at acceptable levels. EVE Link: 50TB/s Storage Used: 45% Network Clarity: 52% The only concerning thing is the low Network Clarity. [[Figure out the ADAM network clarity issue]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -1, 0, 10)>> <<if $EL lt 0>> <<goto [[Take a break]]>> <</if>>

Open the ADAM system panel. This panel monitors ADAM's utlitity functions and the ways in which ADAM suplements the on board life support. ADAM system levels Water level: 68% pH Level: 6.5 Root health: 89% Trunk health: 90% Branch health: 92% Leaves health: 81% ADAM-Galileo System Check Network Connection: 75TB/s Network Clarity: 88% Utlity System Processing: 20% Utility System Memory: 30% Everything here is looking good. There are no issues. Maybe, tomorrow you'll run a deeper analysis on the utility system. <<if (hasVisited("ADAM data checks day 2") and not hasVisited ("Lunch Day 1"))>>[[Have Lunch|Lunch Day 2]] <</if>> <<if hasVisited("ADAM system check day 2" and "ADAM data checks day 2")>> [[Head to Commisary|End of Day 2]] <</if>> <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -1, 0, 10)>>

Climb ADAM with your pollination tools; Cotton swab kit, Test tubes to hold the cotton swabs, back up paint brush. Climb until you reach a flower. Carefully use a cotton swab to collect the pollen around the Stamen of the EVE flowers. Place pollen full cotton swab carefullt into test tube, suspended in the stopper. Repeat 6 more times. Find the fruit flowers, with bulbs at the base. Swab the pollen full cotton swab against the petals of the bulbs. Repeat 6 more times. Climb down from ADAM. [[Go the Lab|Go to ADAM lab day 2]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -3, 0, 10)>>

Open the Direct Communication Program, Talk2ADAM To start the program type "Hello ADAM" <div id="talkArea"> Talk2ADAM <<textbox "$talktoADAM" "">> </div> <<click "Talk to ADAM">> <<if $talktoADAM is "Hello ADAM">> <<goto [[Talk to ADAM 1]]>> <<else>> <<replace "#talkArea">>I do not know this command Try Again <<textbox "$talkArea" "" >><</replace>> <</if>> <</click>>

Self diagnosis. <<type 65ms start 2s>>ADAM is funtioning within acceptable parameters. <</type>> <<timed 7s>>You type in "Run Network Diagnosis" into the command prompt of the console. <</timed>> <<type 60ms start 4s>> Running Network Diagnosis ADAM Network Clarity 52% Network Diagnosis Report Report: Low Light. Low Phosophorus. 52% Network Strength. <</type>> <<timed 22s>> You hit the "Print Report" pop up on the screen to get a file sent to your tablet. Finally you close the console by typing "Thank you ADAM".<</timed>> <<type 65ms start 7s>>Conversation terminated. <</type>> <<timed 28s>>[[Close ADAM Program]] <</timed>> <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -1, 0, 10)>>

Damn. There is too little artificial light around ADAM and the phosphorus is too low now that he is flowering. Idiot, should have remembered that, what a rookie mistake. [[Head to ADAM again]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -1, 0, 10)>> <<if $EL lt 0>> <<goto [[Take a break]]>> <</if>>

Idiot, how on earth could you forget such a simple thing. More phosophorous when a TREE is flowering. DAMN!! You start to pick at a hang nail. You pull at it hard enough that it rips out. It also takes some skin out and you start bleeding. You grimace. Your blood has some nutrients, you guess. It's a small penance to pay for forgetting to up the phosphorous in the fertalizer when it's flowering season. No wonder you were never allowed on a legitimate space mission. You're stupid and incompetetnt. This is why they were never gonna let you go to space. You bring your hand up to your mouth and start biting your already quite short nails. "Woah slow down." [[Annie comes out of no where.]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -1, 0, 10)>>

"Not now Annie, need to fix something with ADAM." You reply curtly, droppping your hand quickly. You quickly brush past her You're an idiot. How did you even end up on this mission if you forgot something as simple as- "Hey Ru, chill out." You want to snap at Annie, then you lok at her face. She's pissed at you. Damnit. You can't do anything right, and now you've pissed off a friend trying to help you. You're a bad friend and a bad TREE engineer [[and you've doomed the mission.]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -1, 0, 10)>>

You look at Annie. You look can't look her in the eye so instead you start to look down and catch a glimpse of your wrist. On your right wrist is a purple, white, yellow and green woven bracelet. "What is going through your head right now?" Dr Lincolns voice asks in your mind. "That I'm an incopetent failure who doesn't deserve to be here." You tell his voice in your head. "And are these thoughts 100% true?" You look at Annie. She's looking at you. "What's up?" Annie asks softly. "Nothing. Just an issue with ADAM." You state matter of factly. "Do you want any help?" "No. No I need to do this myself." Annie nods. "Okay, just relax though. What ever it is, it's not like it's life or death. I would know. I'm the pilot." She says with a smile before heading back to the main cockpit of the ship. You take a breath and [[go to ADAM]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -1, -1, 10)>>

You look at the bracelet. "Maybe not 100% true." You tell yourself. You get to ADAM and grab the spray fertalizer bottle, mix in a bit more phosphorous, before spraying the trunk of the tree and also adding more fertalizer to the soil before re-mulching the base of ADAM. The initial emotion has left you tired, but now you feel better. It will take a while for ADAM to absorb the nutrients. You will need to make checking in on ADAM's nutrient level a daily activity now. Especially since this fertility window is seemingly draining him more than you had thought it would. [[Head back to the ADAM lab|ADAM Lab work day 2]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -1, 0, 10)>> <<if $EL lte 0>> <<goto [[Take a break]]>> <</if>>

Eat your meal pack and take slow careful breaths. Take a sip of water after every three mouth fulls. Finish eating slowly. Look around and see that you are completely alone. Do a somatic movement excercise. Shake your whole body and jump around a bit. Count to 60 as you jump and shake out your body. After 60 stop and catch your breath. Clean up after yourself and [[head back to the lab|ADAM Lab work day 2]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +2, 0, 10)>>

Head to the comissary. 2 day until Kim's dinner. For now though, the pre packaged meal claims to be a cheesy baked potato with some shredded chicken. You shrug as you take it to a table, where you sit opposite Ethan. He looks calm today and is watching an anime on his screen. "How's your day been?" You ask Ethan. "Good." He said. "Finally figured out wht that SEED had started to sprout, instead of being dormant like I had set it to be." He laughs at something the anime character says on the screen. Kim enters the commisary and sits next to you. "Hey Kiki? Can I ask you something?" He seems stern. You take a sip of water as you try to calm your nerves. [["Sure." You say]]. You think he's going to ask about the slower network. You get ready to apologise for dropping the ball on that. You fidget, before forcing yourself to be still. If he's angry he has every right to be. You did mess up with the fertalization of ADAM.

"You don't eat pork right?" He continues. "No...." you respond confused. You've never eaten pork. Kim should know this. He's cooked for you before countless times on earth before this space mission. "But you can eat shell fish, right? Like shrimp or crab?" "Yes....." you respond. "Okay good." He breaks into a smile. You can feel your heart beat in your throat and the stone weight you had felt in your stomach roll around a bit. "That's it?" You ask. "Yeah, I'm thinking a fish pasta and I saw that we have some shrimp and some crab. I was debating on what to make, or if I should just stick to chicken alfredo." "I vote for shrimp." Ethan says casually. "If we are voting." Annie arrives grabs a tray and joins them. [["Wait you're not mad?"]] You ask.

They look at her. "ADAM's network clarity dropped to 52%. You're not mad?" You ask extremely confused. They all look at you. Kim is confused and Annie and Ethan exchange a look. "No." Kim finally says. "We're not mad." "Plus ADAM's navigation is fina as long as the network clarity stays above 40%" Annie states. You don't know how to feel. You decide to [[leave dinner early.]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -2, -1, 10)>>

You head to your room and get ready for bed. You look at the Therapy Note on the desk. Therapy Note: "When I start to feel depressed or anxious, I need to remember that I am a competent person with a mental illness and to evaluate my thoughts, which may be 100% true, 0% true or somewhere in between. Give yourself credit for all the hard things that you are doing everyday, even the little things." You decide to use one of Dr Lincolns pre-recorded messages to guide yourself through a self check. You open your desktop and search through your computer files until you find the "Therapy recordings.exe" file. You created this program with recordings that you did with Dr Lincoln while on earth. He had agreed to do them, since he thought that you were moving to a remote TREE farm. The program was simple. It could hear what you said, but did not record any data unless you said record data. It would listen to what you said and find the appropriate pre-recorded video from the massive collection of video logs that Dr Lincoln had recorded for you. [[Start Self Check In]] <<if $EL lte 0>> <<goto [[Take a break]]>> <</if>>

Dr Lincoln's Voice comes through the headphones that you put on. "Hello Kiru. How are you feeling today?" "Not so good." You respond honestly. "I keep thinking that I am going to get everybody onboard the ship killed because I mismanage ADAM." "Before we unpack that, I would like to go over last weeks Action Plan and set the agenda for today." You want to yell at the pre-recorded message, but there is an order that the recordings have to follow. You pull out the [[Action Plan for the last 3 days]] since you did a self check in. <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +1, 0, 10)>>

Monday: Back Up onboard ADAM data Update EVE link connection. Ensure connection is fully secure before updating ADAM data to most recent data from EVE. Tuesday: Check ADAM water levels. Prune ADAM Check state of bark and leaves on ADAM Wednesday: Pollinate ADAM SEEDs ADAM Network Check ADAM System Check You accomplished everything on your Action Plans so far. "I was able to accomplish everything on my Action Plan." you tell the recording of Dr Lincoln. "Good job Kiru. And what does completing the Action Plan tell you?" "That I set easy goals." You try and joke. "It tells you that you can do the tasks that you set for yourself. That you are competent and capable. That despite the difficulties involved with being depressed and anxious, you are still engaing with your work and in your life in a meaningful way." Dr Lincoln's voice says without missing a beat, almost like he could hear your self deprecating joke. "Moving forward, what will you remind yourself about difficult tasks?" He asks you. "That I am capable and competent." You reply to him with a sigh. "Great, then lets [[set the agenda for today]]." His voice is warm in your ears and you feel yourself calming from the initial frustration. <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +2, 0, 10)>>

"What do you want to work on today?" Dr Lincoln asks. "As this is a recording I can not offer you any help with solving problems, as I typically would, but I can also listen to any problems and concerns that you have." You think about it for a beat. "I want to work on not panicking whenever things don't go according to plan." You finally admit. "Anything else?" "I want to work on a plan to keep a better eye on ADAM." "These seem like good things to focus on today." [["Let's start with working on not panicking."]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -1, 0, 10)>>

"As you are aware, your emotions are not good or bad. They simply are." You take a deep breath. He always used to remind you of this. You always seem to struggle with holding this truth whenever you panic. "The goal of therapy is not to eliminate negative emotion. All emotions are important. Negative emotions frequently point to a problem that needs to be solved, which may or may not include changing your thinking, or, if it can’t be solved, accepted." You nod. "It's just hard to remember that when I am panicking." "Yes. But it important to not beat yourself up for panicking. Your reactions come from somewhere. Let's look at the cognitive model again." [[You look at your quick doodle of the cognitive model]] on the first page of your therapy journal. <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -1, 0, 10)>>

Thoughts - Feelings - Actions you had drawn in a triangle on the first page. The expanded version written below reads: Event - Thoughts - Feelings - Actions - Results "What event triggered the panic?" Dr Lincoln asked. "ADAM's network clarity was low because I forgot to increase the phosophorus ratio in the NPK mix back up to 10:10:10 now that he is flowering." "And what thought passed through your mind after that event?" "That I was an idiot, And that I was going to get everybody killed." "And is that thought 100% true, 0% true or somewhere in between?" You take a few seconds to think before you finally respond. "Somewhere in between." "It is important to remember that your anxiety and depression are giving you a distorted perception of your reality. Let's look at your schema." You look at the sketch that Dr Lincoln gave you of [[your schema]]. <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +2, 0, 10)>>

A circle with an open "mouth" and the sentence "I am incompetent" inside it. "Rememeber that your schema is distorting your self perception and leading you to believe the anxiety and depression. But those thoughts are sometimes untrue." He says gently. "And the schema is also leading you to ignore all the things that you do well." You look at the circle. "Turn the page and write down a list of things that you do well as an excercise in remiding yourself of your own competence and abilities." You turn the page and start writing the list that Dr Lincoln asks for. "You are a competent engineer, or you would not be on this mission. You are good at taking care of TREE's in your stewrdship. You are capable of recovering from your mistakes as you continue to do every day of your life." "Good job Kiru." He says after a pause. "[[Let's move to the next item on the agenda.]]" <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +1, 0, 10)>>

"I want to work on a plan to take better care of ADAM." You tell Dr Lincoln's recording. "And what does that entail?" The recording asks. You think about what ADAM needs. "More attention." You finally say. "That's too broad Kiru. Remember that specifcity is key." You sigh. "What causes the most anxiety about the task?" Dr Lincoln asks after you have been silent for too long. "That I drop the ball and kill everyone." You admit. "That sounds like all or nothing thinking, Kiru. You know that that isn't helpful or honest. That is the depression and anxiety speaking." You stay silent for a few more moments as you think about it. "Let's reframe the issue. Why is the system so dependent on EVE and what specifically is the system dependent on EVE for?" Hearing Dr Lincoln mention EVE throws you for a loop, but he had recorded these sessions for you on Earth where EVE had been your main responsibility. [["Well..... ADAM is the ships core navigation system."]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -1, 0, 10)>>

"ADAM has all the data on where we are going and the best trajectory for how to get there." "So if EVE fails, the system falls apart?" Dr Lincoln asks. You think about the mission preparation you did. Annie had mentioned something about backup systems. "Maybe not." You finally admit. "But I need to be sure about the backup systems before I can relax." "That sounds like an item that you can put on your action plan for the week ahead." You write it down. Check back up systems for navigation and utility. "[[So to summarise?]]" Dr Lincoln asks. <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -1, 0, 10)>>

"I am a competent and capable individual who has accomplished all the tasks I set out for myself this week. When I panic, I need to remember that while the emotion is real in the moment, I can fix my mistakes." You pause and think about the last few minutes. "My thoughts are not always 100% true. My thinking is skewed due to my anxiety and depression, but I through using my therapy notes and practicing my mental excercises, I can move past the initial emotions." You look at the woven bracelet on your right wrist. "The therapy is not about eliminating negative emotions, it is about learning how to accept and process the emotions." You take a deep breath. "What will you put on your action plan?" Dr Lincoln asks. "Daily check in's with ADAM's data and systems." "Is that a sustainable goal? Or are you setting yourself up for failure." "It's sustainable as long as I minimize my other tasks." It's doable. 3 tasks a day. 2 lab tasks like today and a separate ADAM location task. "Okay, but if you feel overwhelmed, remember that you can adjust the tasks accordingly to increase your chance of success. The action plans are guides towards your goals, that are sustainable and align to improving your mental health, not making them worse by having tasks that you can not complete. It is about building self trust and mental and psychological resilience." You think about this. [["This session is over." Dr Lincoln says.]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +1, 0, 10)>>

"Have a good week ahead Kiru, and well done for taking this session seriously, participating and doing your action plans. I acknowledge that this is difficult and yet you did it. Well done and carry on with the good work." "Good bye Dr Lincoln." The recording ends. You take a few moments to rewrite your to do list for tomorrow before going to bed. [[Start the next day|Day 3]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +1, 0, 10)>>

You open your note pad and turn to the passwords page. The Password for the ADAM Biome Control Reads: "ADAM_BioCont_1" You go to the Biome Control Console <h2><b>Good morning Eng B. Muna</b></h2> <div id="passwordArea"> Please Enter the Password <<textbox "$password" "">> </div> <<click "Confirm Password">> Thurday 4th <<if $password is "ADAM_BioCont_1">> <<goto [[ADAM Biome Control 2]]>> <<else>> <<replace "#passwordArea">>Try again! What's the password? <<textbox "$password" "">> <</replace>> <</if>> <</click>>

<h2><b>Welcome Eng B. Muna</b></h2> [[Check ADAM Biome Data]] [[Check Life Support Data]] [[Exit]]

<<type 65ms start 1s>>Biome Weather Temprature: 28C Humidity: 85% PPFD: Photosynthetic Photon Flux Density: 360 μmol/m²/s Ergosterol concentration: 85μg/g Overall Flora Gamma Diversity: 30 Overall Fauna Gamma Diversity: 40 [[Adjust Biome Data?]] <</type>>

[[Back to Biome Control|ADAM Biome Control 2]] [[Talk to Ethan about what the biome data is telling you|Talk to Ethan]]

<<type 65ms start 1s>>Life Support Data Air Quality: 10 AQI Oxygen Reserves: 100% Water Reserves: 99% [[Back|ADAM Biome Control 2]] <</type>> <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -1, 0, 10)>>

You turn to look at Ethan. "The humidity is too high in the ADAM biome, I think he's loosing water faster than he's absorbing it, I lowered the temprature in the Biome but increased the light and activated the dehumidifiers setting them to collect more water from the biome and re-irrigate the soil." Ethan nods. "Makes sense." "That should get the memory under control, so you should notice an improvemnt in his data responses. If this works out, his memory will increase the next few weeks." Ethan looks happy with that. [["While you're up, I wanted to ask you a few questions about your SEED research"]] Ethan says.

You set the thermostat down to 25 degrees with a gradual drop ovee the next 48 hours. You turn on the dehumidifiers and set the water collection to "recycle - irrigation" instead of the default "recycle - sanitation". You increase the PPFD to 420 μmol/m²/s and adjust the Photoperiod up from 12-14 to 16-18. [[Back|ADAM Biome Control 2]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -1, 0, 10)>>

You nod. "Sure." Ethan starts walking towards the commissary. You follow along. You get to the room and it is bathed in a soft orange glow. It's still too early, but since you're up, you may as well be up. Ethan pulls out his tablet and starts talking to you about his research on SEED's. You find yourself getting sucked into the technical and bioengineering brilliance of his research. Annie and Kim walk into the commissary some time later to have breakfast and find you both debating the advantages and disadvantages of EVE SEED's over LILTH SEED's. [["How long have you both been up?"]] Kim asks with a laugh. "You're both too alert for 6am." Annie adds with a yawn. <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +2, 0, 10)>>

"3 hours." Ethan states. You hadn't noticed the time when you went to check on ADAM with Ethan this morning, but now that he says it, you realize how tired you still are, and how much you have to do today. You get up from the table abruptly. "Need to get ready for the day." You tell Ethan. "Of course." Ethan states. "Have a good day." He turns to Annie and Kim "I'm headed back to my lab." Annie saluting him with a spoon full of oat meal is the last thing you see before you make a beeline for your room. [[Go to the bathroom|Bathroom day 3]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +1, 0, 10)>>

You start brushing your teeth and read your therapy note. Therapy Note: "When I start to feel depressed or anxious, I need to remember that I am a competent person with a mental illness and to evaluate my thoughts, which may be 100% true, 0% true or somewhere in between. Give yourself credit for all the hard things that you are doing everyday, even the little things." You rinse out your teeth and wash your face before getting into the shower and completing your daily sanitation ritual, before getting dressed for the day. [[Head back to your room|Start Day 3]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +1, 0, 10)>> <<if $EL lt 0>> <<goto [[Take a break]]>> <</if>>

You get dressed and sit at your desk. After therapy yesterday you take stock of your action plan. data and systems checks are now a daily activity, leaving you with the capacity to complete only one other taska day. Today's task is simple. 1) Understand the backup navigation system. | AEnergy: 5 2) ADAM data check. | AEnergy: 5 3) ADAM systems check. | AEnergy: 5 You'll need to talk to Annie to understand how she pilots the ship and what data she actually specifically needs from ADAM to do her job. It will also minimize future anxiety. [[Talk to Annie]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -1, 0, 10)>>

You go to the cockpit directly, figuring that you'll wait there until Annie shows up. You open the door to find Annie sitting in her seat toggling some switches and reading something on the screens in front of her face. "Hi Annie." You say. She startles. "Hi Ru." She finally says after composing herself. "I wanted to ask you a few questions about the navigation system again." Annie smiles and nods. "Sure, but can this wait a bit." You understand, Annie is busy. "Sure let me know when you're available." Annie nods. "In about 1 hour." She says. "I'll come and find you." You nod. [[Head to ADAM Lab|Lab Day 3]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -1, 0, 10)>>

<<if not hasVisited("ADAM data checks day 3")>> [[ADAM data checks|ADAM data checks day 3]]<</if>> <<if not hasVisited("ADAM system checks day 3")>>[[ADAM system checks|ADAM system check day 3]] <</if>> <<if (hasVisited("ADAM system check day 3" or "ADAM data checks day 3") and not hasVisited ("Lunch Day 1"))>> [[Have Lunch|Lunch Day 3]] <</if>> <<if hasVisited("ADAM system check day 3" and "ADAM data checks day 3")>> [[Talk to Annie|Meet up with Annie 1]] <</if>>

ADAM Data Details <<type 65ms start 1s>> Water level: 68% pH Level: 6.5 Nutrient Ratio: Nitrogen (N): 9 Phosphorus (P): 7.9 Potassium (K): 8.5 Micronutrients check (including Calcium (Ca),Magnesium (Mg), Sulfur (S)) : All at acceptable levels. EVE Link: 52TB/s Storage Used: 45% Network Clarity: 64% The Network Clarity improved and ADAM has already begun to absorb the added Phosphorus. [[Leave the data console|Lab Day 3]] <</type>> <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +1, 0, 10)>>

Open the ADAM system panel. <<type 65ms start 1s>> ADAM system levels Water level: 62.5% pH Level: 6.5 Root health: 89% Trunk health: 90% Branch health: 92% Leaves health: 81% ADAM-Galileo System Check Network Connection: 75TB/s Network Clarity: 88% Utlity System Processing: 20% Utility System Memory: 30% Everything here is looking good. There are no issues. Run the full debugger on the system to make sure that there are not gonna be any future issues. [[Run Deep Analysis]] <</type>>

You open the command center of the system console and start running a system analysis. The console informs you that it will take about 7 hours. You set the analysis to send the summary of the final results to your email inbox when it is completed. You will check the results in person tomorrow morning. [[Leave the system console|Lab Day 3]] <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -1, -1, 10)>> <<if $EL lte 0>> <<goto [[Take a break]]>> <</if>>

You eat your lunch sitting outside the Lab. You take in the random art work that was hung outside your door and notice the flecks of gold in the sea of green dots. Tracing the orange dotted sparodically around the painting with your eyes helps you to calm down and take deep breaths. In for 4, hold for 4 and exhale for 6. You take the time to try and recenter. You're tired but you got a lot done this morning and after dinner you can take an early night. [[Head back into the lab|Lab Day 3]]. <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +1, 0, 10)>>

You head back to the cockpit. Its been more than an hour, but hopefully Annie is free. You stop before the cockpit and remind yourself that this conversation is you working towards your goals of having less anxiety about the navigation and that you can do things that initially feel difficult, even asking for information and guidance. No one thinks that you are stupid because you ask question. You take a deep breath. You knock on the cockpit door. "Annie?" You ask through the door. You hear some shuffling behind the door before Annie responds. "[[Come in]]." She answers.

You enter the room. She's sitting at the console looking at one of the screens. A light is blinking and she's adjusting one of the dials on the console slowly, before flipping 3 switched sequentially. She finally turns to you with a smile. "What's up?" She asks casually. "I juat wanted to ask about the navigation systems." You respond. "Crap, I forgot that I was supposed to find you." This surprises you x2 supposedly made peoples memory perfect, but then you rmember that she probably means that she got so caught up in work that she forgot the time. "It's okay, I get that you are busy. This is mostly just a chat to make sure I'm on top of things." You say amicably. She smiles briefly. <<if not hasVisited("Lunch Day 3")>> "Wanna get lunch together? <</if>> <<if hasVisited("Lunch Day 3")>> "Wanna grab a coffee or tea?"<</if>> She shakes her head. "I'm not feeling hungry right now." [[That piques your interest.]]

"Are you okay?" You ask her. "Yeah." She says with an easy enough smile. "Well, you know I'm always here if you want someone to talk to." You state. She looks at you for a few beats. "I know Ru." She says with a smile. "So let's get into ADAM and the navigation system. ADAM is the main data source that the map uses to navigate through space because of all the DATA that he has from EVE." "I understand that part. What I didn't understand is the backups that you mentioned?" "Ah, yeah, the back up is just a local harddrive with the key spatial navigation data on it." She says. "So even if ADAM's netweork clarity was to drop to less than 30%, we won't be flying blind." You smile. "Great. That's a massive weight off my chest." Annie laughs. "Yeah. Kim, Talia and James set it up as a back up on earth before we launched." "[[Where was I when all the prelaunch work was being done]]?" You jokingly ask her.

She laughs, "Probably doing physical space training with me." She says. "Honestly, though, you're a TREE engineer, and I'm pilot and astronaut, we did not need to be involved with the ship construction chaos." "Well. That's one relief." You say. Then you pause as you think about your panic yesterday. "Sorry I snapped at you." You state after mulling it over. "That wasn't right. Just cause I was stressed does not mean I should have taken it out on you." "It's okay." Annie says with a smile. "No it's not." You state. "I need to get a better grasp of my own emotions." You tell her. "[[It's human Ru.]]" <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +1, 0, 10)>>

"All the same. I'll try be better about keeping my emotions in check." "Sure." Annie agrees easily. There's a beat where you think Annie is going to say something, but then sha just nods and turns back to the console. "Well, let me get back to the commissary. I need to check with Kim on some things." "Wait." Annie says. "Yeah?" "How are you actually handling it?" She turns and finally asks you. "[[Handling what?]]" <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +1, 0, 10)>>

"This mission." You shrug. "Okay, I guess. ADAM isn't dead yet, so I'll take that as a win." You're trying for levity. You hope it works. "I mean, you don't even take x2." You think about it. 1) Your notebook in your pocket with a therapy note stuck to the inside of the front cover. 2) Your daily lists that you have to write down and allocate time and anticipate energy for. 3) The bracelet on your wrist that forces you to slow down and evaluate the truth of your automatic thoughts. 4) The 20TB harddrive filled with notes, textbooks and recordings from Univeristy until now on everything there is to know about SEED's and TREE's. "I have some systems I set up on Earth that I am using to function right now." You admit. "Like what?" She asks. "Why?" You ask without thinking. She blinks at you. "I mean which systems do you want to know about and why. So that I don't tell you about unneccessary things." You clarify. "[[ADAM for example.]] How do you stay on top of everything you need to do for him as the sole ADAM expert of the ship?"

You think about this. "Well I made ADAM, so I guess, I know him best?" You tell her. "And I have all the textbooks I ever read, papers I ever referenced, talks I ever heard and videos I ever watched on a harddrive that I can access anytime I need to." You shrug. You had to stop taking x2 as a child due to an allergic reaction, so you're used to creating systems to keep up with everyone else. Annie looks contemplative. "So you're just always reading?" "No, that's Ethan." You state and Annie laughs. "It's more like, I'm aware that I con't hold all this information in, so I don't try. I reference everything I do against the information I have access to." Annie nods. "Good talk." She says. "See you at dinner?" "Yeah, see you then." You say before heading out to [[find Kim]]. <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +1, 0, 10)>>

You leave the cockpit behind and head to the commissary where Kim typically worked. He prefered to be accessible instead of sequestered away in the captains suite. You find him going over some data on his tablet. "Hi Kim. Can I talk to you?" "[[Yeah, sure]]." He says. <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +2, 0, 10)>>

You decide to get straight to the point. "Is there a backup plan if ADAM fails as an assistance to the life support system?" You ask bluntly. Kim pauses and thinks. He then opens his tablet and looks at some information on it. A few moments pass before he looks up at you. "So, the short answer is kinda, the long answer is no." You take a deep breath. "The life support system in this space craft is experimental, [[the first of it's kind]]." <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -1, 0, 10)>>

"Do you want the long story or the short story?" "[[Long story]]." "[[Short story]]."

"This whole space ship was built around ADAM. He is the core of our life support and navigation and without him we would not survive on the space ship. ADAM is not the only part of our life support system, but he is the cornerstone of how we created the life support system. There is a back up, but the back up is us going into cryo and being sent in the vague direction of Earth." "That was still pretty short." You think for a bit. "Can I ask for the longer version now?" "No." Kim says while laughing. "The point is, we have cryosleep tubes coded with the location of Earth and enough fuel to get us back home, but that's it. Without ADAM there is no ship or mission." "Good chat." You say as you feel your anxiety settle like a stone in your gut and stay there. "Good chat." Kim agrees with a laugh. [[You get up to head to ADAM]] and check in on him, just in case. <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -2, 0, 10)>>

"This whole space ship was built around ADAM. He is the core of our life support and navigation and without him we would not survive on the ship. There is a back up, but the back up is us going into cryo and being sent in the vague direction of Earth." "That was pretty short." You think for a bit. "Can I ask for the longer version now?" "No." Kim says while laughing. "The point is, we have cryosleep tubes coded with the location of Earth and enough fuel to get us back home, but that's it. Without ADAM there is no ship or mission." "Good chat." You say as you feel your anxiety settle like a stone in your gut and stay there. "Good chat." Kim agrees with a laugh. [[You get up to head to ADAM]] and check in on him, just in case. <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -2, 0, 10)>>

"Kiki," Kim calls out, "I'm not telling you this to make you panic." You want to scoff, but also, you kmow Kim. He answered as kindly as he could. The fact of the matter was that ADAM needed to be okay for the mission to succeed. There's no way to mince those words. "Seriously." He says and his voice sterner now. "Sit down." He states. It takes you a few moments of standing there in a mild state of panic before [[you sit back down]]. <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -1, 0, 10)>>

"If ADAM dies, we head home." He says. "We don't die." "But the mission-" "The mission has a snow balls chance in hell of actually being successful." He says bluntly. "And it's not a mission." You stare at your bracelet. People will die is you can't keep ADAM alive. Your incompetence will get people killed, is the thought running through your head. You try to evaluate it but all you can think is that it is 100% true. "Kiki." Kim says softly. "You and Ethan have never done space missions before, so you wouldn't know this, but most space missions in the last 100 years have been failures." "I know that. I worked for IBSE too you know." You say, trying to play for humor. "But you don't know, because you weren't there." Kim looks serious for once. "IBSE didn't publish when ships had air lock failures that led to emergency evacuations, or when the ships sun shields failed and people burned to a crisp in seconds." You grimace when you hear this. IBSE was a weird organisation. Despite being the International Board of Space Exploration, they always seemed to keep their cards close to the chest. "A successful mission is one where the whole crew returns home unscathed." Kim states. "We built this ship with the cryopod contingency, because we anticipated the possibility that ADAM may not survive the whole trip." "[[So you set us up to fail]]." <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -1, 0, 10)>>

"No." Kim said firmly. "What I'm trying to say is that, we are doing what no one else is willing to do. Not even IBSE with it's wealth of resources and personnel. We're out here trying to save lives. Trying." Kim looks you in the eye. "If we fail, we go back home and we get to hold our heads up high and say that we tried to do better for the colonies. No one else, no one else, can say that." You look at Kim. "So you anticipated ADAM dying?" You confirm. He definitely thinks that you are incompetent. Your position on this ship was a fluke, he didn- "No." Kim says simply. "I think that the mission will be a success, or I wouldn't have captained the mission." "But you just said-" "I said if." Kim smiles. "If we fail. But we're doing everything that we can to avoid that." You look at the walls of the commissary. You're hungry, you realize. "Kiki. We set out in an experimental aircraft, against IBSE approval, hiding our take off from the International Council for Space Travel, on a secret mission to save the lives of thousands of people on space colonies that haven't had contact with Earth in over a century. No matter what happens, this mission is not a failure." [[You finally nod]]. <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -1, 0, 10)>>

"I think my blood sugar is low." You finally respond. Kim laughs. He gets up and head to the food dispenser and gets 2 trays of food. You look at your bracelet. I am not going to get people killed, you think. They won't let themselves die that easily. That thought feels closer to 100% true. Kim brings you a tray as Ethan enters the room. He looks a little manic but his smile is genuine. "Keek's, Kim." He says with a tonne of energy. Annie enters after him. "Wait, how am the last person here?" She asks. "It's still so early. Are you all skivving off work?" She asks with a smile. "Yes." Kim answers before starting on his meal. "It's been a long day, let's wrap work early and hang out." "OOhhhh, a movie night!" Annie says excitedly. "No, game night!" Ethan insists. "I second movie night." You add. [[Game Over]]

Thanks for playing through the whole game. [[Start the Game Again|Start the Game]]

and (not hasVisited("Lunch Day 1"))) Tasks Today:<<if hasVisited("Monday 2nd")>>[[/Monday 2nd]] <</if>> Formally in StoryInit <<set $EVEWater to 50>> <<set $StephFriend to 7>> <<set $JohnWork to 5>>

The meme stuck to the back page of your note book pops to mind. "Remember, you are a plant with emotions. Drink water, eat some food and take a break." You find a place to sit and close your eyes for 10 minutes. You don't need to nap, you just need to slow your mind down and minimize the stimulation. This isn't an alternative to rest, but it's a small window of time that you need to take so that you can recharge. You listen to a soft guided meditation and you take deep breaths, making sure to properly fill up your lungs. In through the nose, out through your mouth. Let your mind drift on nothing and everything. Ground yourself: 5 things you can see 4 things you can feel 3 things you can hear 2 things you can smell 1 thing you can taste Relax. <<return>> <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL +3, 0, 10)>>

Self diagnosis. <<timed 3s>> ADAM is funtioning within acceptable parameters <</timed>> <<timed 6s>> Run Network Diagnosis <</timed>> <<timed 9s>> ADAM Network Clarity 52% <</timed>> <<timed 12s>> Network Diagnosis Report <</timed>> <<timed 17s>> Report: Low Light. Low Phosophorus. 52% Network Strength. <</timed>> <<timed 20s>> Print Report. <</timed>> <<timed 23s>> Thank you ADAM. <</timed>> <<timed 25s>> Conversation terminated. <</timed>> <<timed 34s>> /[[Close ADAM Program]] <</timed>> <<set $EL to Math.clamp($EL -1, 0, 10)>>

The main sleep pods are organised down a hall with two on either side of the hall. The commissary is through the main door at the end of the hall. The commissary is a large room, compared to the sleep pods, with a kitchenette, some seating arranged around a table and several couches and hammocks around a relaxation zone that has some board and video games, a large screen and some speakers. It is painted a "soothing" shade of soft yellow, but within weeks of being in space, everyone put posters all over the walls filled with memes and pop culture references. The only part of the room that still has it's original off-yellow colouring is the kitchen and that was only because we decided that it may be a fire hazard to put the posters we brought up. Overall the space is quite relaxing and even has some desks and chairs for working in one corner for when you get tired of working alone or want to body double with some one. [[Back to main passage|Breakfast Day 1]]

The center of the ship houses the main TREE that is the backbone of this ship, ADAM. Getting to ADAM requires going into the center of the ship. Through the commissary, past the pilot cockpit where Annie works, past the captain suite, which holds the main console for all of the utility systems on the ship and finally, past the experimental SEED nursery, which is the closest space to ADAM but still needs it's own specialized biome for Ethan's research. Getting to ADAM needs you to go through the ADAM lab. Once you open the door to ADAM's biome, you are greeted by the sight of him. ADAM is still technically a sapling at 18 months old, but he is already 15m tall and quite large around his trunk, coming in at a trunk diameter of around 3m. But he is still quite small compared to his mother EVE, who was over 150m and had a 30m trunk diameter the last time you saw her. [[Back to the main tasks for today|ADAM day 1]]