So [[I named my parasite]], and then I understood.
The mere implication of a [[self]] is anthema to me, but then I named my parasite, and then I understood.
(if: $ever is true)[But that is behind me now, for I have been [[named.]]]
I named it and I understood, but also was faced by a [[temple]] of confusion, pillars for walls and a roof higher then [[expectation.]]
(if: $ever is true)[But that is behind me now, for I have been [[named.]]]
That to destroy it I must [[change]] and adapt, not seperate, for cutting it off only left me wondering on the nature of my interior.
(if: $ever is true)[But that is behind me now, for I have been [[named.]]]
Not to self perscribe, for that is gauche, but one without a self, and only a parasite in its place, is more self then any other. I [[understood]] the answer to this problem to be destruction.
(if: $ever is true)[But that is behind me now, for I have been [[named.]]]
For your [[body]] is a temple, they would say, but mine feels more like a parking garage.
(if: $ever is true)[But that is behind me now, for I have been [[named.]]]
Within this temple there is only the absense of space, between the pillars tall is not a charming vista, or perhaps one could find charm in the absense of [[landscape.]]
(if: $ever is true)[But that is behind me now, for I have been [[named.]]]
Change of this sort is unprecidented, and if not unprecidented, surely it is not economically viable.
But sometimes it is enough just to name the [[parasite]].
(if: $ever is true)[But that is behind me now, for I have been [[named.]]]
And although I still seperate in partial, I am not two different compounds at odds with the others [[construction]], but one compound drawn apart.
(if: $ever is true)[But that is behind me now, for I have been [[named.]]]
Beleived to be two, a coercion to say the least, there is not even one, only zero. Only a maelstrom of [[compound]](s), wherin I dwell.
(if: $ever is true)[But that is behind me now, for I have been [[named.]]]
The chemicals that spring from within and without, or messages in the form of a [[parasite]] and a inkling in your stomach.
(if: $ever is true)[But that is behind me now, for I have been [[named.]]]
And although now I understand what the purpose of such a thing could be, it still [[eludes]] me on occassion.
(if: $ever is true)[But that is behind me now, for I have been [[named.]]]
That confusion is the true drawstring, for without it all my carefully built simulcrums would [[seperate]].
(if: $ever is true)[But that is behind me now, for I have been [[named.]]]
In the absense of [[anything.]]
(if: $ever is true)[But that is behind me now, for I have been [[named.]]]
Im sure I could have taken the parasite out, or at least suffocated it the antibiotics of internalization, but then I would still be wandering outside those pillars, in the absense.
But now I am the parasite, or rather I was now the host, and what I had perceived as a parasite was the grip of the host my birth had inflicted with such a parasite.
But now (link-replace: "it is named")[I am [[named.]]]
Born of wordplay and cleverness to a cloak of a name, I am the [[parasite]] and the host, I am the [[temple]] and the pillars, I am the [[compound]] and the [[construction]], the [[body]], the mind, [[the confusion->eludes]], the parking garage, and perhaps together that creates a [[self]].
(set: $ever to true)
I named my Self, and hir name was Ever.