I'm Going Home

I can't believe that she did this to me. I've done nothing but give her everything that I could and yet she doesn't care. I'm done with her. I'm going home. I'm moving on. [[What's happening]]

I've been sick for an entire week now. I'm sure that my girlfriend is worried. I should probably text her and tell her what's happening. I don't want her to think that I've stopped caring. [[send first text]]

I sent the first text on Sunday. I haven't received an answer from her. I don't know what's going on. I'm starting to get worried. I should probably text her again. Maybe she didn't get the first message. [[send second text]]

Well, I've sent her another message. I should've gotten a response by now. But, I still haven't gotten anything from her. This is weird. I really need her to answer. I'm starting to get worried. What is she doing where she can't answer a message. I'll just send another message, just in case. [[send third]]

Okay. What the hell is going on? She never takes so long to respond to my messages. I'm really confused. I'm starting to get the feeling that she's ignoring me. Or, maybe her phone is not working right? Her phone may just be acting stupid. If that's the case. I'll just send her a message on snaphat. I might get a respone on there. [[send snapchat]]

She should have gotten my snapchat already. Let me check and see if she sent a response. What the fuck? How is she just going to see the snapchat and not respond? Oh, I see that she posted something. Wow, that's fucked up. Just gonna act like your boyfriend is not even trying to get in touch with you. You better answer this next message. [[next message]]

Oh my god! Are you fucking serious? You don't respond to my message again. Do you even care about me? Don't you think that you are getting a lot of messages from your boyfriend. Am I just to sit here and not worry that my girlfriend isn't responding to a single message. I'm extremely worried right now. I need you to answer a goddamn message. [[another message]]

I'm really getting tired of this one-sided phone tag. [[next text]]

"Are you fucking serious right now? How are you going to ignore me for almost a whole week?" This is bullshit. Fuck it, I'm calling her. [[phone call 1]]

Voicemail. you can't be serious right now. [[call 2]]

Pick up the fucking phone!! [[call 3]]

This is really fucking annoying. You really need to answer your fucking phone. [[call 4]]

I'm really done with this. I'm tired of being ignored. I got back with you to try and fix the communication between us and this is how I'm repaid? Fuck that bullshit. I'm done. [[leave voicemail]]

"Hey, look, I'm really tired of this bullshit. I'm tired of texting you and getting no answer. I'm tired of sending you snapchats and you just looking at them like they don't matter. I'm over here getting worried while you are somewhere partying. i saw your snapchat and it pisses me off. It pisses me off that I'm the only one working on communicating in this relationship while you do nothing to fix it. I'm done. I'm done with this relationship. If you actually want to contact me and talk about it, do it. Otherwise, leave me alone." This voicemail seems to do it. I don't care if she actually calls. I'm done. [[next day]]

I'm feeling better now. Now, that I left that message I feel a huge weight off my shoulders. I'm about to go out with this girl that has been trying to hang out with me for a while. I think I'll be good. Phone rings. Who's callin-- Oh my god! Guess who decides to grace my phone with her presence. I wonder what she has to say. [[the phone call]]

Her: "Hey, I'm sorry. Can we talk about this." Me: "What is there to talk about? You ignored me for a whole week and a half. As far as I can tell, I don't think we have to talk about anything." Her: "I'm sorry. I was in the process of getting another phone, so I couldn't answer any of your messages or calls." Me: "See, that's where you're wrong because I messaged you on snapchat and you know what you did? You read the message and didn't respond. So, you could've responded and told me what was going on, but you didn't." Her: "Look, I didn't think that you would get so upset." Me: "I wouldn't get upset? I was ignored for almost two weeks. How the fuck am I supposed to feel? Look, long story short, I'm done with this relationship." Her: "Okay, if that is how you feel." Me: "Oh, it is definitely how I feel. Now, I need to go. I'm going out. Bye." [[aftermath]]

I went on that date. It was fun. We went bowling and for once, I didn't feel like I had to get serious about what I was doing. I'm friends with my ex and she is trying to get back with me, but I'm done. I don't like feeling ignored and thinking that I don't matter. I'll find somebody that is going to take me and make me matter as much as I would make them matter. I'm not going to be stuck dwelling on whether I should've given my ex a second chance. I'm just going to move on and see where it takes me. But for right now, I'm going home. [[I'm going home]]