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Lion Messenger: Direct chat messages to Jesus for 40 days over Lent NOT letter format! Should look like a messenger chat. First time viewed and revealed over time: As typing Available to scroll through after it's been released. Shown over some time period: 40 days? 40 refreshes? +Add read/unread counter for new days +Main menu should show current texts, newest unread text at top +Archive to show old texts, or "memory" like function for same day things +Only current day plays live action animation, all old texts don't have any animation -Old writing released slowly over time, slow drip COPY/PASTE UNREAD COMMAND TO EACH NEW PASSAGE purple for lent Add unread colors + sidebar next week

$date[//March 18, 2020//] [$t8nright[$oldme[Spiritual communion.]]](l1b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[When we can't recieve the Eucharist physically, it's the next best thing.]]](l2b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[Where we want Jesus and His grace so badly and profoundly, but cannot because of physical limitations. I guess that's our future for the time being.]]](l3b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[This idea that you can ask and do this at any time and any place is wild to me. We can ask for you at all times? That sounds silly to say. I think I'm hung up on wanting you.]]](l4b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[I feel unprepared to receive anything. Low-key unworthy.]]](l5b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[I think I want to want you, Jesus. But, I keep getting distracted right now. That's always how my art life has been. In the moment, it's good and powerful and meaningful and moving. Outside of it, I'm distracted and it's hard to return.]]](l6b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[Spiritual communion. Help me want you, Lord. To be prepared. To fully desire your grace in my life.]]](l7b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #7580BD)+(hover-style: (text-color: #EFC3E6)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Archive")]]]]](back| { (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 2.3s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 2.6s)[(show: ?back)] }

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$date[//February 26, 2020//] [$t8nright[$oldme[It's Ash Wednesday.]]](l1b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[I wasn't really sure what I wanted to do this year. I stopped giving up things.]]](l2b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #7580BD)+(hover-style: (text-color: #EFC3E6)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Archive")]]]]](back| { (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?back)] }

$date[//February 27, 2020//] [$t8nright[$oldme[Late, late, I'm always late.]]](l1b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[I'm sorry it's taken me so long to get around to doing this. I've had all these great ideas in my head for so long, but it always takes me so long to start them. Will I ever finish them?]]](l2b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[...]]](l3b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[I even get distracted while writing these. Sorry.]]](l4b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[I'm afraid of not finishing these "in time." What if this doesn't matter?]]](l5b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[I think I'm scared of talking to you, too.]]](l6b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #7580BD)+(hover-style: (text-color: #EFC3E6)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Archive")]]]]](back| { (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 2.3s)[(show: ?back)] }

$date[//February 29, 2020//] [$t8nright[$oldme[It's leap year day and it feels quite... ordinary.]]](l1b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[When I was in middle school, I lied to my friends online about my birthday being on Feb 29.]]](l2b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[I'm not really sure why I did that to be honest. Who was I trying to impress? I guess I was trying to be cool.]]](l3b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[It's fun to pretend.]]](l4b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #7580BD)+(hover-style: (text-color: #EFC3E6)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Archive")]]]]](back| { (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?back)] }

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$date[//March 19, 2020//] [$t8nright[$oldme[It is strange how people aren't really taking this seriously. It makes me feel crazy.]]](l1b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[People are out and about like it's no big deal. It takes a collective behavioral shift to mitigate and lower the potential damage. I don't think we've seen the worst of anything yet.]]](l2b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[Social distancing. In some ways, it feels like not much as changed for me, Jesus. My online life doesn't feel disrupted at all, and perhaps, has prepared me better in that regard.]]](l3b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[Are you here in digital spaces, too? Perhaps it's silly to you: you don't have a physical body here anymore either so of course you are present in non-physical space. Isn't that a little funny? Yes, no? Lol.]]](l4b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[There is no space or place out of your reach.]]](l5b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #7580BD)+(hover-style: (text-color: #EFC3E6)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Archive")]]]]](back| { (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?back)] }

$date[//March 20, 2020//] [$t8nright[$oldme[Am I lonely?]]](l1b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[Perhaps I've needed to do some long overdue reflection. Really, I keep putting it off.]]](l2b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[I am avoiding things. Typical. Isolating myself because I thought I deserved it. Because I didn't want to deal with the pain.]]](l3b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[I've always thrived in community spaces, intentionally and unintentionally. We are meant to seek out people, but I gave up and have done exactly the opposite. I suppose I stumbled into and now lead community online, but it all feels like another distraction from my true calling.]]](l4b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[I stopped looking for you too, God. I feel hurt and upset that you've given me this great purpose and responsibility and vocation, yet I don't feel like I can accomplish it.]]](l5b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[So while you have definitely been with me this whole time, I have not felt it. Perhaps that's because I chose to ignore you. I've been lonely. I think I miss you.]]](l6b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[So, I'm back. I know I need you in my life. Help me want you.]]](l7b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[I cannot achieve anything without you.]]](l8b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #7580BD)+(hover-style: (text-color: #EFC3E6)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Archive")]]]]](back| { (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 2.3s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 2.6s)[(show: ?l8b)] (after: 2.9s)[(show: ?back)] }

$date[//April 2nd, 2020//] [$t8nright[$oldme[Jesus - I'm overwhelmed. I don't know what to do.]]](l1b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[Everything feels like too much. I can't get myself to focus.]]](l2b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[I wish I had more time, which feels crazy to say because technically we've been given plenty of it.]]](l3b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[Easter is coming up.]]](l4b| [$t8nright[$oldme[I slept.]]](l5b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[With rest, I know I can do everything you've tasked me to do with You. You've created me for this. You've provided everything for me.]]](l6b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme[I can do this. I can get through this.]]](l7b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #7580BD)+(hover-style: (text-color: #EFC3E6)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Archive")]]]]](back| { (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 2.3s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 2.6s)[(show: ?back)] }

$date[//Feburary 17, 2021//] [$t8nright[$oldme2[Fast forward one year.]]](l1b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[It's Ash Wednesday.]]](l2b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[I got into an argument with my mom about going to church in-person with the pandemic still going on. I don't trust the people going in to church.]]](l3b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[Yesterday I met up with my best friend, my soul mate. We both left unsatisfied and found our true restoration tonight instead. Cutting edge realizations from you. With you.]]](l4b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[I still cannot wrap my head around the fact that you trust me. That's absurd. Ridiculous.]]](l5b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[Even wilder is the fact that I want to talk to you. That I have wanted to talk to you. That at the end of the day, I will naturally seek you. It is perhaps the one and only instinct I have fought hardest against, especially when I need you most.]]](l6b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[Avoiding you will be the death of me.]]](l7b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #7580BD)+(hover-style: (text-color: #EFC3E6)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Archive")]]]]](back| { (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 2.3s)[(show: ?l7b)] }

$date[//February 19, 2021//] [$t8nright[$oldme2[I have been told that I am fully myself at all times to an extent that I'm unaware of.]]](l1b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[Everything I've ever done, written, tried to make work about - it was always about You. Talking around you, talking about you, talking at you. But, never with You.]]](l2b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[What happened to me? My memory and attention are not what they used to be, but not because of myself. It feels like something else. I fear my depression has impacted my memory.]]](l3b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[I re-read everything I wrote. It's crazy. I'm crazy. I'm in awe of what I told you before. It feels unbelievable. Why?]]](l4b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[Much of it is the same, but there is a weight that feels very different.]]](l5b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[I've written a lot looking for You.]]](l6b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[I suppose a conversation means that I shouldn't be the only one talking, huh?]]](l7b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #7580BD)+(hover-style: (text-color: #EFC3E6)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Archive")]]]]](back| { (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 2.3s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 2.6s)[(show: ?back)] }

$date[//February 20, 2021//] [$t8nright[$oldme2[I feel like I've lost control.]]](l1b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #7580BD)+(hover-style: (text-color: #EFC3E6)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Archive")]]]]](back| { (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?back)] }

$date[//March 21, 2021//] [$t8nright[$oldme2[I cannot believe how quickly you answered my single prayer request.]]](l1b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[I rarely ever ask for help.]]](l2b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[I was losing my mind over my keys - I knew there was no way I could have truly misplaced them. A sign I should trust myself more.]]](l3b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[But more than that: peace of mind. You really gave me peace of mind, the one thing I asked for regardless of outcome.]]](l4b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[Thank you. Maybe I'll ask for help more often.]]](l5b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #7580BD)+(hover-style: (text-color: #EFC3E6)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Archive")]]]]](back| { (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?back)] }

$date[//February 25, 2021//] [$t8nright[$oldme2[Meeting up with my best friend is always so healing. I'm glad we got to be ourselves today.]]](l1b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[I suppose at some point I won't have to talk to you like this huh?]]](l2b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[No, and that's a good thing.]]](l3b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[I think this is the most excited I've felt in years.]]](l4b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #7580BD)+(hover-style: (text-color: #EFC3E6)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Archive")]]]]](back| { (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?back)] }

$date[//February 28, 2021//] [$t8nright[$oldme2[We talked last night - but I don't remember what we said.]]](l1b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[I don't want to forget about this specific project here. You know me, I always drop things off.]]](l2b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[But, I think I'm also just more comfortable with talking to you. The idea of talking with you. Wild.]]](l3b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[I've been trying to build better boundaries. Really listen to myself and needs. Say no to people, slowly. I think it's a good thing?]]](l4b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #7580BD)+(hover-style: (text-color: #EFC3E6)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Archive")]]]]](back| { (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?back)] }

$date[//February 27, 2021//] [$t8nright[$oldme2[I can't sleep.]]](l1b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[How do I help him?]]](l2b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Love him.]]](l3b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[I'm not sure I can do that - have I ever done that?]]](l4b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[He cries in pain, Lord. My heart races. My senses are all at 100%. I feel guilty for putting in ear buds so I can block out the noise while I'm trying to sleep. But, I need to sleep.]]](l5b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[I just want to help him.]]](l6b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #7580BD)+(hover-style: (text-color: #EFC3E6)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Archive")]]]]](back| { (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 2.3s)[(show: ?back)] }

$date[//March 18, 2021//] [$t8nright[$oldme2[It's been a while.]]](l1b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[I think a big part of that is because I'm more comfortable talking to you. The idea of talking with you. It's kind of nice.]]](l2b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[I know I've been slacking again though. I know I've gained weight and I don't want that trend to continue. I don't wanna lose the progress I've made about feeling better about myself and taking care of my body. Taking care of myself.]]](l3b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[I'm not even sure what to think right now.]]](l4b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[People are dead. People are dying. We're tired.]]](l5b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[I don't get how people can be so twisted. Evil.]]](l6b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[It's so hard being a minority. Minority of minorities. Borderstalkers. Margins.]]](l7b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[I get it though. I get why people want to protect themselves. It feels like the only answer to violence is... more violence. Can't beat them, so join them. It's an endless cycle of death.]]](l8b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[My friends are hurting.]]](l9b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[I thought I was angrier. I want to have this burning rage. But, I don't.]]](l10b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[I am just sad. Grieving. Sad at all the lost potential.]]](l11b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #7580BD)+(hover-style: (text-color: #EFC3E6)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Archive")]]]]](back| { (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 2.3s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 2.6s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 2.9s)[(show: ?l8b)] (after: 3.3s)[(show: ?l9b)] (after: 3.6s)[(show: ?l10b)] (after: 3.9s)[(show: ?l11b)] (after: 4.3s)[(show: ?back)] }

$date[//July 29, 2021//] [$t8nright[$oldme2[Hey, it's been a while... again.]]](l1b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[It's been kind of crazy to look back at everything here. It feels surreal that I might even be sharing some of this with the world soon. I don't yet know how exactly this final piece will come alive yet.]]](l2b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[It's terrifying. It's exciting.]]](l3b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[It's easy to get distracted.]]](l4b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #7580BD)+(hover-style: (text-color: #EFC3E6)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Archive")]]]]](back| { (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?back)] }

$date[//September 27, 2021//] [$t8nright[$oldme2[We've been talking a lot, but not directly.]]](l1b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[I have this need, I have to make something, do something, say something.]]](l2b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #7580BD)+(hover-style: (text-color: #EFC3E6)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Archive")]]]]](back| { (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?back)] }

$date[//October 8, 2021//] [$t8nright[$oldme2[Even in my loss of not knowing how to move forward, I seek you. I want You. I want you to tell me that it'll be okay. That what I'm doing is the right thing. There's so much I want to know - so much I'm still afraid of.]]](l1b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[What do I do? What do I do next? How do I keep making work? How will I know it's even good? When will I get into another show? When will I be brave enough to reach out to my professors? I'm still so scared to message them for whatever reason.]]](l2b| \ [$t8nright[$oldme2[So, talking my friends is your answer. You truly do know me.]]](l3b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #7580BD)+(hover-style: (text-color: #EFC3E6)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Archive")]]]]](back| { (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?back)] }

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$date[//March 2, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[It's Ash Wednesday, again.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[We haven't talked in months. I'm not sure what happened. Christmas season was good: my family life felt refreshed and renewed. I couldn't believe it and didn't think it was real. But, any time past the New Year, I don't really remember. I can't really tell you what happened. Everything is so hazy.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[I haven't talked to you - maybe because I didn't want to, maybe because I couldn't. I'm not really sure. What I do know is that I've been the most depressed I've been in a really long time. There were really some days where I thought the solution would be to end it all. That thought comes up time to time, but only when I'm not doing well.]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[But, it's incredible how quickly things change. Appliances, among other things, have been broken in the house for months. Today my family finally chose to do something about it. I'm pressed to keep track of certain changes now. I feel compelled to talk to you again. ]]](l4b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l5a| \[$t8nright[$me[I even had the idea to pick up this project again during mass. Let's hope I keep wanting to talk with you.]]](l5b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 5s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 7s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 25s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 27s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 45s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 47s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 65s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 67s)[(show: ?l5a)] (after: 75s)[(hide: ?l5a) (show: ?l5b)] (after: 80s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//March 3, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[So high, so low.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[I'm so alone. I can't share with anyone. It's hard to admit this, even to you, for the first time, truly. I want to die. I don't want to tell anyone else because I don't want to ruin the good things happening in their lives - I don't want to be just another burden. I don't want to inconvenience them.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[Besides, what happens? I tell them? And then what? I haven't felt loved in so long. I don't think anyone cares.]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[So why, Lord? I turn to you. Save me from myself. I'm my own worst enemy.]]](l4b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l5a| \[$t8nright[$me[Why can't I hear you? Why don't I feel you?]]](l5b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 5s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 7s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 30s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 32s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 45s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 50s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 55s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 60s)[(show: ?l5a)] (after: 65s)[(hide: ?l5a) (show: ?l5b)] (after: 70s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//March 4, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[I talked to my best friend tonight and I told her everything. But where are you, Lord? Where are you?]]](l1b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Right here.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[It was hard, you know. In some ways a confession, to her, to me, to you.]]](l3b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[I know.]]](l4b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l5a| \[$t8nright[$me[Should I feel relieved? Should I feel better? I did what I should have done, I think. I still feel scared. I feel weak. I'm not sure it matters who I share it with really. ]]](l5b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l6a| \[$t8nright[$me[I think this journey is just between you and me.]]](l6b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Yes.]]](l7b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l8a| \[$t8nright[$me[Lord]]](l8b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l9a| \[$t8nright[$me[What have I done?]]](l9b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 10s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 14s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 16s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 26s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 30s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 32s)[(show: ?l5a)] (after: 40s)[(hide: ?l5a) (show: ?l5b)] (after: 42s)[(show: ?l6a)] (after: 50s)[(hide: ?l6a) (show: ?l6b)] (after: 54s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 56s)[(show: ?l8a)] (after: 60s)[(hide: ?l8a) (show: ?l8b)] (after: 61s)[(show: ?l9a)] (after: 63s)[(hide: ?l9a) (show: ?l9b)] (after: 68s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 2.3s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 2.6s)[(show: ?l8b)] (after: 2.9s)[(show: ?l9b)] (after: 3.3s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//March 5, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[You work very quickly, you know.]]](l1b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[:)]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[I'm still scared. The last 24 hours have been truly healing. I guess you really are listening to me. Thank you.]]](l3b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[You're welcome.]]](l4b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l5a| \[$t8nright[$me[It's the first day I've felt like my true self in so long.]]](l5b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l6a| \[$t8nright[$me[But Lord, what am I going to do? I have so much fear.]]](l6b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Trust me.]]](l7b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l8a| \[$t8nright[$me[I don't know if I can do that.]]](l8b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 7s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 10s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 12s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 20s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 23s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 28s)[(show: ?l5a)] (after: 32s)[(hide: ?l5a) (show: ?l5b)] (after: 34s)[(show: ?l6a)] (after: 40s)[(hide: ?l6a) (show: ?l6b)] (after: 44s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 50s)[(show: ?l8a)] (after: 55s)[(hide: ?l8a) (show: ?l8b)] (after: 60s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 2.3s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 2.6s)[(show: ?l8b)] (after: 2.9s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//March 6, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[You said something today, what was it? Something about Lent being a battle. At least, that's what stood out to me from whatever the priest said today.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[Is it really a battle?]]](l2b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Yes.]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[Will we always be fighting? I don't want to be fighting all the time. Not with you. I don't think I could do that, not with you.]]](l4b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l5a| \[$t8nright[$me[I'm sorry.]]](l5b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[It's okay.]]](l6b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l7a| \[$t8nright[$me[Is it really okay?]]](l7b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l8a| \[$t8nright[$me[I forget you are quick to forgive.]]](l8b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 1s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 15s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 17s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 22s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 25s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 27s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 35s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 37s)[(show: ?l5a)] (after: 40s)[(hide: ?l5a) (show: ?l5b)] (after: 43s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 44s)[(show: ?l7a)] (after: 48s)[(hide: ?l7a) (show: ?l7b)] (after: 49s)[(show: ?l8a)] (after: 54s)[(hide: ?l8a) (show: ?l8b)] (after: 59s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 2.3s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 2.6s)[(show: ?l8b)] (after: 2.9s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//March 7, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[I'm not sure it's right or fair for me to take this vacation still. All of my fears about money and worth jump out like some feral beast.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[Perhaps worst of all though is confronting the fact that my family will never understand my art, my work, or what I'm doing. I'll never be good enough for them. They've never actually supported me. Perhaps I am better off dead - they'd never have to worry about their failed "investment" again.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[I'm so sad, Lord.]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[Sorry I left you hanging - I got distracted, per usual.]]](l4b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l5a| \[$t8nright[$me[I had the sudden rush to search all things new media. I think I have to reach out to the people most important to me. I haven't felt this passionate about things in a while.]]](l5b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 10s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 12s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 40s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 42s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 46s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 50s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 55s)[(hide: ?l4a)] (after: 60s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 70s)[(hide: ?l4a)] (after: 80s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 85s)[(hide: ?l4a)] (after: 95s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 100s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 102s)[(show: ?l5a)] (after: 110s)[(hide: ?l5a) (show: ?l5b)] (after: 115s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

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$date[//March 8, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[So many things to do, so little time, Lord.]]](l1b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[I know.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[I'm not sure if I'll finish everything I want to in time.]]](l3b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 7s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 10s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 12s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 20s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 25s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

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$date[//March 9, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[I can't believe how different things have been already.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[Even though I still get distracted, the process of making has felt good again. Am I working with you? Are you working with me? Are we really working together?]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[How do I know your voice, Lord?]]](l3b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 7s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 10s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 20s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 30s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 35s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 40s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//March 10, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[You don't need the bracket...]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[Fuck]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[While this has taken me a lot longer to put out than I wanted, I've really enjoyed the process. So much trial and error: making mistakes, fixing mistakes, forgetting why you fixed them, making the same mistakes, rinse and repeat.]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[I feel silly, but it's fun.]]](l4b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l5a| \[$t8nright[$me[Weird considering I'm baring my soul.]]](l5b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l6a| \[$t8nright[$me[I don't care. This is between us. This is for me.]]](l6b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l7a| \[$t8nright[$me[My heart feels a little lighter.]]](l7b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 5s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 10s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 12s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 15s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 30s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 32s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 36s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 38s)[(show: ?l5a)] (after: 42s)[(hide: ?l5a) (show: ?l5b)] (after: 44s)[(show: ?l6a)] (after: 54s)[(hide: ?l6a) (show: ?l6b)] (after: 56s)[(show: ?l7a)] (after: 60s)[(hide: ?l7a) (show: ?l7b)] (after: 65s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 2.3s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 2.6s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

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**Artist Statement** \(size: 0.8)[ //Lion Messenger// is an interactive chat log following my own conversations with God throughout the Christian season of Lent. Conversations are added regularly. Each entry's content is unplanned: I have no idea what each day will bring nor how the conversation will unfold. Lent has always been an important spiritual season in my life. In following Catholic tradition, simply giving up things for Lent was never particularly helpful for me. Instead, I found choosing to start something new was far more healing. This project was initially born from that - I wanted to be more intentional with Jesus. //Lion Messenger// is now my second piece referencing my spiritual life, but it's my first directly addressing it. My relationship with Jesus is unconventional by all means. It feels only natural that I process this significant aspect of my life through my art practice. I invite the viewer to read and experience a slice of my personal chat history as I continue to seek some higher truth. ] =|= (button:)[(link: "Vimeo")[(open-url: "https://vimeo.com/angelicaverdan")]] =|= (button:)[(link: "Website")[(open-url: "https://angelicaverdan.wordpress.com")]] |==|

$date[//March 11, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[There's really nothing quite like the pressure of procrastination.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[There's also nothing like community. Whether it's my best friends IRL or my beloved clan online, the support I feel from all of them is astounding. It is their kindness, patience, understanding, and generosity that's kept me going.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[To be known and loved.]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[Thank you, too.]]](l4b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l5a| \[$t8nright[$me[I know I am still outside of the community I so desperately need. I gave up on finding it, so I was alone. But, I think I have the heart to try again.]]](l5b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l6a| \[$t8nright[$me[Will I find them? Where are they, Lord?]]](l6b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[I was with you. I am still with you.]]](l7b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l8a| \[$t8nright[$me[But, where are they? What about everyone else?]]](l8b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[I know the people you need.]]](l9b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l10a| \[$t8nright[$me[...That doesn't answer my question.]]](l10b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 10s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 12s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 25s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 30s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 33s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 35s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 38s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 40s)[(show: ?l5a)] (after: 48s)[(hide: ?l5a) (show: ?l5b)] (after: 50s)[(show: ?l6a)] (after: 54s)[(hide: ?l6a) (show: ?l6b)] (after: 60s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 63s)[(show: ?l8a)] (after: 67s)[(hide: ?l8a) (show: ?l8b)] (after: 70s)[(show: ?l9b)] (after: 75s)[(show: ?l10a)] (after: 80s)[(hide: ?l10a) (show: ?l10b)] (after: 85s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 2.3s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 2.6s)[(show: ?l8b)] (after: 2.9s)[(show: ?l9b)] (after: 3.3s)[(show: ?l10b)] (after: 3.6s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//March 12, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[Liminal spaces. The airport. This vacation.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[There is no plan. I'm still not sure what we're getting ourselves into, but I know it'll be good. It's the kind of quality time I've been craving.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[What do you have in store for us, Lord?]]](l3b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 6s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 8s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 20s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 23s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 30s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 35s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//March 13, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[Real rest.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[The beginning of real rest.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[Everything is awe inspiring. Breathtaking. Everything feels new and exciting.]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[Peaceful.]]](l4b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 6s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 8s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 12s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 15s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 25s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 30s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 35s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 40s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//March 14, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[When everything is new around you, are you really refreshed and renewed? Or are you just distracted?]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[Our time has just started and it's all been so good - it's kind of surreal. It almost feels too good to be true.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[In the back of my mind, I'm worried about this piece still.]]](l3b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Don't worry.]]](l4b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l5a| \[$t8nright[$me[What?]]](l5b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 16s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 18s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 32s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 37s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 42s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 45s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 47s)[(show: ?l5a)] (after: 50s)[(hide: ?l5a) (show: ?l5b)] (after: 55s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//March 15, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[I have been doing my best and pushing through. Sometimes I can't keep up or I have to slow down, sometimes I have to stop. But, I'm trying.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[It's hard.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[At the same time, I've been trying to take it easy. When you're so small, the world is a whole wonder. It really forces you to pause and reflect.]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[...When did I pick up this fake laugh? Restrained and not my full self.]]](l4b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l5a| \[$t8nright[$me[I laugh so freely, unabashedly, full of joy. What happened to me? How did I not notice? Who have I become?]]](l5b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 15s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 20s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 23s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 26s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 40s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 50s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 60s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 65s)[(show: ?l5a)] (after: 75s)[(hide: ?l5a) (show: ?l5b)] (after: 80s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//March 16, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[This trip has shown me that we can really truly do anything we set our minds to do. It's also more than that. You're here in it all too.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[The timing for everything seems too perfect.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[Don't act like I didn't notice - it's not lost on me.]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[Thanks.]]](l4b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 14s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 16s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 20s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 25s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 30s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 35s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 37s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 42s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//March 17, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[Why can't I hear you? Where are you?]]](l1b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Hey, are you okay? You look really sad.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[I'm okay, I'm fine.]]](l3b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Do you want to talk about it? What are you thinking about?]]](l4b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l5a| \[$t8nright[$me[Don't worry about me.]]](l5b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Do you believe in God?]]](l6b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l7a| \[$t8nright[$me[Yeah, ha. I do.]]](l7b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Cast all your burdens on the Lord.]]](l8b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l9a| \[$t8nright[$me[Yeah. Yeah...]]](l9b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[I'll stop bothering you now.]]](l10b| [$rightdot[. . .]](l11a| \[$t8nright[$me[Lmao, ofc. Okay, I get it. I get it. You're here.]]](l11b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l12a| \[$t8nright[$me[I was expecting to hear something profound. Isn't that how things always are between us in moments like this?]]](l12b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l13a| \[$t8nright[$me[I waited for something, anything. I became impatient. Angry. I yelled at you. And You answered me immediately through this stranger.]]](l13b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l14a| \[$t8nright[$me[They left me with a Bible. How funny.]]](l14b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 10s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 15s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 18s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 20s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 23s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 26s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 28s)[(show: ?l5a)] (after: 30s)[(hide: ?l5a) (show: ?l5b)] (after: 33s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 35s)[(show: ?l7a)] (after: 38s)[(hide: ?l7a) (show: ?l7b)] (after: 41s)[(show: ?l8b)] (after: 46s)[(show: ?l9a)] (after: 48s)[(hide: ?l9a) (show: ?l9b)] (after: 51s)[(show: ?l10b)] (after: 60s)[(show: ?l11a)] (after: 66s)[(hide: ?l11a) (show: ?l11b)] (after: 68s)[(show: ?l12a)] (after: 78s)[(hide: ?l12a) (show: ?l12b)] (after: 80s)[(show: ?l13a)] (after: 95s)[(hide: ?l13a) (show: ?l13b)] (after: 100s)[(show: ?l14a)] (after: 105s)[(hide: ?l14a) (show: ?l14b)] (after: 110s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 2.3s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 2.6s)[(show: ?l8b)] (after: 2.9s)[(show: ?l9b)] (after: 3.3s)[(show: ?l10b)] (after: 3.6s)[(show: ?l11b)] (after: 3.9s)[(show: ?l12b)] (after: 4.3s)[(show: ?l13b)] (after: 4.6s)[(show: ?l14b)] (after: 4.9s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//March 18, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[Surreal.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[I'm home. Home, as if nothing happened.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[But, everything is different now, isn't it?]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[I'm tired.]]](l4b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Sleep.]]](l5b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 5s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 10s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 18s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 20s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 28s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 36s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 40s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 43s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 48s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//March 19, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[What is the rest after rest?]]](l1b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Sleep.]]](l2b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 5s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 10s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 15s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//March 20, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[What now, Lord?]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[I have a lot to do. It will be hard and I have to push through. Sometimes I will have to slow down, sometimes I will have to stop. But, I can do anything I want to do. You are here with me.]]](l2b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[I am. Don't forget what I told you.]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[What?]]](l4b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Your burdens.]]](l5b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Give them to me.]]](l6b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[And that we're doing this together.]]](l7b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l8a| \[$t8nright[$me[Oh. Right.]]](l8b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l9a| \[$t8nright[$me[Are we really together?]]](l9b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Yes.]]](l10b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 5s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 8s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 24s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 31s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 33s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 35s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 38s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 41s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 44s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 48s)[(show: ?l8a)] (after: 50s)[(hide: ?l8a) (show: ?l8b)] (after: 54s)[(show: ?l9a)] (after: 57s)[(hide: ?l9a) (show: ?l9b)] (after: 60s)[(show: ?l10b)] (after: 65s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 2.3s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 2.6s)[(show: ?l8b)] (after: 2.9s)[(show: ?l9b)] (after: 3.3s)[(show: ?l10b)] (after: 3.6s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//March 21, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[I'm sorry. I can't today.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[I'm falling asleep.]]](l2b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 5s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 10s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 15s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 20s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//March 22, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[It's hard getting back into the swing of things.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[But it'll be worth it. This... will be worth it.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[I hope.]]](l3b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 6s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 8s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 16s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 20s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 22s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 27s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//March 23, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[Sometimes I worry I fill in the blank for you.]]](l1b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[You don't.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[But what if I am?]]](l3b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 6s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 8s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 12s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 18s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 23s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

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(restart:)

$date[//March 24, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[I feel well rested.]]](l1b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Good.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[But there is more to be done.]]](l3b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Together.]]](l4b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 6s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 8s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 12s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 18s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 20s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 25s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//March 25, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[My clan is so full of joy and love. I feel incredibly lucky to have found such family online.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[True community online is something I've been thinking about for a long time now. I know you had a hand in this.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[It's still funny to me how you show up here in this non-physical space. Maybe I shouldn't be too surprised, ha.]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[Here we are, in this project that lives online and displays our conversations - even if it looks one-sided sometimes.]]](l4b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 10s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 12s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 22s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 25s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 35s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 40s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 48s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 53s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//March 26, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[Infuriating. I'm at my ends.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[How can someone make me feel so incredibly angry? Incredibly tired?]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[My attempt to portray and embody true community, real friendship - all for what? All for nothing.]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[There is no helping them anymore.]]](l4b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l5a| \[$t8nright[$me[What's the point?]]](l5b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l6a| \[$t8nright[$me[Why am I burdened with this? Why do I care so much?]]](l6b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[It's your heart. I made you this way.]]](l7b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l8a| \[$t8nright[$me[I hate this.]]](l8b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[You don't.]]](l9b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 10s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 12s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 20s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 22s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 34s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 40s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 44s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 48s)[(show: ?l5a)] (after: 50s)[(hide: ?l5a) (show: ?l5b)] (after: 52s)[(show: ?l6a)] (after: 60s)[(hide: ?l6a) (show: ?l6b)] (after: 63s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 67s)[(show: ?l8a)] (after: 70s)[(hide: ?l8a) (show: ?l8b)] (after: 72s)[(show: ?l9b)] (after: 77s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 2.3s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 2.6s)[(show: ?l8b)] (after: 2.9s)[(show: ?l9b)] (after: 3.3s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//March 27, 2022//] [$t8nleft[$god[Come back.]]](l1b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Come back off the edge.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[Where am I?]]](l3b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Come back.]]](l4b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l5a| \[$t8nright[$me[Was I on the edge?]]](l5b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Yes.]]](l6b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l7a| \[$t8nright[$me[I didn't even notice.]]](l7b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Come back.]]](l8b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l9a| \[$t8nright[$me[From where? To where?]]](l9b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Come back to my side.]]](l10b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Come back to me.]]](l11b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 10s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 15s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 18s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 24s)[(show: ?l5a)] (after: 30s)[(hide: ?l5a) (show: ?l5b)] (after: 33s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 40s)[(show: ?l7a)] (after: 46s)[(hide: ?l7a) (show: ?l7b)] (after: 48s)[(show: ?l8b)] (after: 52s)[(show: ?l9a)] (after: 57s)[(hide: ?l9a) (show: ?l9b)] (after: 60s)[(show: ?l10b)] (after: 63s)[(show: ?l11b)] (after: 68s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 2.3s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 2.6s)[(show: ?l8b)] (after: 2.9s)[(show: ?l9b)] (after: 3.3s)[(show: ?l10b)] (after: 3.6s)[(show: ?l11b)] (after: 3.9s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//March 28, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[I went to bed angry and woke up surprised.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[Behold! The reason I was angry was fixed. Solved. Somehow.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[Ridiculous that I had to sleep in one sweatshirt, two shirts, leggings, shorts, and long socks just to stay warm in what should be a functional household.]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[The heater in the house hasn't worked for weeks now. Several other appliances also broken, some for even longer. Slowly, my family has finally]]](l4b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l5a| \[$t8nright[$me[FINALLY]]](l5b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l6a| \[$t8nright[$me[started caring enough to change things.]]](l6b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l7a| \[$t8nright[$me[I did not expect to nap from 7pm to midnight.]]](l7b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l8a| \[$t8nright[$me[I also did not expect to find the heater fixed.]]](l8b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l9a| \[$t8nright[$me[Well I'll be damned, Lord, you got me.]]](l9b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l10a| \[$t8nright[$me[Thank you. I feel loved.]]](l10b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l11a| \[$t8nright[$me[You're a funny one.]]](l11b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 6s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 8s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 16s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 18s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 30s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 32s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 41s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 44s)[(show: ?l5a)] (after: 45s)[(hide: ?l5a) (show: ?l5b)] (after: 46s)[(show: ?l6a)] (after: 50s)[(hide: ?l6a) (show: ?l6b)] (after: 54s)[(show: ?l7a)] (after: 60s)[(hide: ?l7a) (show: ?l7b)] (after: 64s)[(show: ?l8a)] (after: 68s)[(hide: ?l8a) (show: ?l8b)] (after: 72s)[(show: ?l9a)] (after: 76s)[(hide: ?l9a) (show: ?l9b)] (after: 78s)[(show: ?l10a)] (after: 82s)[(hide: ?l10a) (show: ?l10b)] (after: 84s)[(show: ?l11a)] (after: 86s)[(hide: ?l11a) (show: ?l11b)] (after: 91s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 2.3s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 2.6s)[(show: ?l8b)] (after: 2.9s)[(show: ?l9b)] (after: 3.3s)[(show: ?l10b)] (after: 3.6s)[(show: ?l11b)] (after: 3.9s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//March 29, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[Lord, would you like to say anything right now?]]](l1b| [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[No? That's okay.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[I feel you here.]]](l3b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 10s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 55s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 60s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 63s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 66s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 71s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//March 30, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[It's been so long since I've edited any video so intricately.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[I settled for something else before, but now I am ready to put in the effort - even if it means animating frame by frame while facing the limitations of my beloved laptop.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[Most importantly, you are here with me.]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[I can do this through you, with you.]]](l4b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l5a| \[$t8nright[$me[Give me passion, give me patience.]]](l5b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[It will be good.]]](l6b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l7a| \[$t8nright[$me[It will be good.]]](l7b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 10s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 12s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 25s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 27s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 33s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 36s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 40s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 43s)[(show: ?l5a)] (after: 58s)[(hide: ?l5a) (show: ?l5b)] (after: 62s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 64s)[(show: ?l7a)] (after: 69s)[(hide: ?l7a) (show: ?l7b)] (after: 74s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 2.3s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 2.6s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//March 31, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[It feels good to be done. I'm really at peace with it.]]](l1b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[You did a good job.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[The work doesn't stop here though, huh.]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[The thrill of creation, the potential it holds.]]](l4b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l5a| \[$t8nright[$me[Are you proud of me, Lord?]]](l5b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l6a| \[$t8nright[$me[I thought I heard you say yes, but I wasn't sure. I thought I was-]]](l6b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[You are not filling in the blanks for me. I said what I said.]]](l7b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 10s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 12s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 15s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 22s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 25s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 33s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 40s)[(show: ?l5a)] (after: 44s)[(hide: ?l5a) (show: ?l5b)] (after: 54s)[(show: ?l6a)] (after: 64s)[(hide: ?l6a) (show: ?l6b)] (after: 65s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 70s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 2.3s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 2.6s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//April 1, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[Hello I am late because I got caught up doing other things with friends last night, whoops.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[It was a good day though - I got to relax after bringing that one video piece to its full form that I envisioned years ago. I settled for an inferior version and tried to roll with it. The hard work was frustrating but satisfying. True piece, true peace.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[I like to think that I am more like my true self, too.]]](l3b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 10s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 12s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 30s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 40s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 45s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 50s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//April 2, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[Kind of wild to think we've been talking like this for a month now.]]](l1b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Haha, yes.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[I've changed so much. I feel like a different person - not simply back to my old self, but more like my true self.]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[I started all these things because I was tired of myself. I wanted to be healthier, I wanted to be healed.]]](l4b| \ [$t8nleft[$god["Come back to video art."]]](l5b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[You listened to me.]]](l6b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l7a| \[$t8nright[$me[I... didn't expect all of these things to connect all at once.]]](l7b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l8a| \[$t8nright[$me[I really can do anything I set my mind to - I'll always get what I want.]]](l8b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l9a| \[$t8nright[$me[I guess I can't leave the healing circle again, heh?]]](l9b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Lol.]]](l10b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l11a| \[$t8nright[$me[I feel joy again.]]](l11b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 8s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 10s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 13s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 25s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 28s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 40s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 43s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 46s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 56s)[(show: ?l7a)] (after: 60s)[(hide: ?l7a) (show: ?l7b)] (after: 62s)[(show: ?l8a)] (after: 70s)[(hide: ?l8a) (show: ?l8b)] (after: 72s)[(show: ?l9a)] (after: 77s)[(hide: ?l9a) (show: ?l9b)] (after: 80s)[(show: ?l10b)] (after: 82s)[(show: ?l11a)] (after: 85s)[(hide: ?l11a) (show: ?l11b)] (after: 90s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 2.3s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 2.6s)[(show: ?l8b)] (after: 2.9s)[(show: ?l9b)] (after: 3.3s)[(show: ?l10b)] (after: 3.6s)[(show: ?l11b)] (after: 3.9s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//April 3, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[I cried today when I was reminded that You are bigger than all of our mistakes. That our past doesn't define us.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[That one truth from the past we should lean on is Your promise. That there is so much hope in Your promise.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[I've known for a long time now what you've promised me. I grew discouraged over time - I realize now that I stopped believing in that promise. I had no hope.]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[All I have to do is follow you.]]](l4b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[It won't be so bad.]]](l5b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l6a| \[$t8nright[$me[No, it won't. Besides, I have hope again.]]](l6b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 15s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 18s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 28s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 34s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 50s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 60s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 64s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 67s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 70s)[(show: ?l6a)] (after: 75s)[(hide: ?l6a) (show: ?l6b)] (after: 80s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 2.3s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//April 4, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[I just wanted to be.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[Help me rest.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[I want to be ready for you.]]](l3b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 6s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 10s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 16s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 20s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 25s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 30s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//April 5, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[I am looking towards the next thing... I'm not sure what that is yet though.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[I'm ready to make again.]]](l2b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[You are ready.]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[I don't take the gift of creation for granted. It's partly why I've been so hesitant to make anything.]]](l4b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l5a| \[$t8nright[$me[I'm still not sure what this is. Haha, maybe people just think I'm talking to myself, to nothing, to no one. That's not true though.]]](l5b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Don't worry about them. Focus on me.]]](l6b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l7a| \[$t8nright[$me[Okay, but why do I have to make this then? Why do I need to share it?]]](l7b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l8a| \[$t8nright[$me[...sigh.]]](l8b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Trust me.]]](l9b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 10s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 12s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 20s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 23s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 27s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 40s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 45s)[(show: ?l5a)] (after: 55s)[(hide: ?l5a) (show: ?l5b)] (after: 58s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 60s)[(show: ?l7a)] (after: 66s)[(hide: ?l7a) (show: ?l7b)] (after: 85s)[(show: ?l8a)] (after: 87s)[(hide: ?l8a) (show: ?l8b)] (after: 90s)[(show: ?l9b)] (after: 95s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 2.3s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 2.6s)[(show: ?l8b)] (after: 2.9s)[(show: ?l9b)] (after: 3.3s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//April 6, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[It's frustrating not seeing immediate results.]]](l1b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[I told you to trust me.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[I know, I know. I'm getting impatient. I want to see the effects of all the good things I've been doing for myself.]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[What if it's all for nothing?]]](l4b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l5a| \[$t8nright[$me[Lord, I want to know if things get better. Give me the strength to keep going.]]](l5b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 10s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 12s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 14s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 24s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 34s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 40s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 50s)[(show: ?l5a)] (after: 55s)[(hide: ?l5a) (show: ?l5b)] (after: 60s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//April 7, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[The opportunity to apply to more shows following the remake of my last video piece has not gone unnoticed by me. I know that is your doing.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[It's exciting.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[I don't feel like I'm just pushing stuff through anymore.]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[It'd be nice to get into something again though. I shouldn't need the validation about my work, but...]]](l4b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l5a| \[$t8nright[$me[I want it.]]](l5b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 12s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 14s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 17s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 20s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 26s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 40s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 48s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 50s)[(show: ?l5a)] (after: 52s)[(hide: ?l5a) (show: ?l5b)] (after: 57s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//April 8, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[Sometimes I just get so caught up in things I shouldn't be in.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[Thanks for being here despite my bad decisions.]]](l2b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Always.]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[Heh, you're always here, aren't you.]]](l4b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 6s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 12s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 20s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 25s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 28s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 30s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 35s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 40s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//April 9, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[Can I process something with you?]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[By all means, I should feel great today.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[But something is bothering me - I feel an emptiness.]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[Should I be worried? I'm concerned.]]](l4b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l5a| \[$t8nright[$me[I think... it's not mine.]]](l5b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 5s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 12s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 14s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 20s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 23s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 30s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 32s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 36s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 50s)[(show: ?l5a)] (after: 53s)[(hide: ?l5a) (show: ?l5b)] (after: 58s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//April 10, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[Oh Jesus what do I want to say?]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[I never really knew the significance of Palm Sunday. Apparently, palms are a reminder for us year-round that we follow You.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[Palm Sunday is my favorite day of Holy Week for what feels like the wrong reasons.]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[My grandma used to weave palms into these intricate and elegant designs: //palaspas// is what my quick Google search tells me. I forgot the name.]]](l4b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l5a| \[$t8nright[$me[She never actually taught me how, but years after she passed I reverse engineered one that my family kept in the house and figured out how to recreate it. Haha, she said it's shaped like a sword that symbolizes how You protect us. She had a shield design, too.]]](l5b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l6a| \[$t8nright[$me[Today I sat in the pew, deftly and diligently folding these two sad palm leaves together. There were no thick pieces left. I doubted the potential outcome: I didn't think it'd turn out well. But I kept going, weaving together this tiny thing.]]](l6b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l7a| \[$t8nright[$me[The final result was small, but stunning regardless. I was proud of what I made. What we made, I suppose.]]](l7b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l8a| \[$t8nright[$me[Palm Sunday gives me the chance to make something simple and beautiful. To remember my family. In honor of You.]]](l8b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[I don't think those are the wrong reasons.]]](l9b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l10a| \[$t8nright[$me[Oh.]]](l10b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 6s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 8s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 20s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 23s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 30s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 32s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 44s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 46s)[(show: ?l5a)] (after: 60s)[(hide: ?l5a) (show: ?l5b)] (after: 63s)[(show: ?l6a)] (after: 77s)[(hide: ?l6a) (show: ?l6b)] (after: 82s)[(show: ?l7a)] (after: 88s)[(hide: ?l7a) (show: ?l7b)] (after: 90s)[(show: ?l8a)] (after: 97s)[(hide: ?l8a) (show: ?l8b)] (after: 100s)[(show: ?l9b)] (after: 103s)[(show: ?l10a)] (after: 105s)[(hide: ?l10a) (show: ?l10b)] (after: 110s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 2.3s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 2.6s)[(show: ?l8b)] (after: 2.9s)[(show: ?l9b)] (after: 3.3s)[(show: ?l10b)] (after: 3.6s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//April 11, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[Lord, why is it family that hurts us the most?]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[I want that perfect love, from the perfect Father.]]](l2b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Come here.]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[We've lived in brokenness for so long, now I just accept brokenness.]]](l4b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l5a| \[$t8nright[$me[I always wanted more. I settled. I thought I made my peace.]]](l5b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Trust me, please. Trust me and my word.]]](l6b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l7a| \[$t8nright[$me[I trust you. I don't trust them.]]](l7b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l8a| \[$t8nright[$me[Easter can't come soon enough.]]](l8b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 5s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 10s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 12s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 20s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 23s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 28s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 36s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 38s)[(show: ?l5a)] (after: 45s)[(hide: ?l5a) (show: ?l5b)] (after: 48s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 52s)[(show: ?l7a)] (after: 56s)[(hide: ?l7a) (show: ?l7b)] (after: 60s)[(show: ?l8a)] (after: 63s)[(hide: ?l8a) (show: ?l8b)] (after: 68s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 2.3s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 2.6s)[(show: ?l8b)] (after: 2.9s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//April 12, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[It feels like the calm before the storm.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[Is there anything you want to say to me?]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[Hmm... I don't think you're telling me anything related to sliding behind the rubble of a broken building with a sword, something about space and shame?]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[I'm falling asleep haha, good night.]]](l4b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 6s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 8s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 12s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 44s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 54s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 56s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 60s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 65s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//April 13, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[There are days where time just passes me by.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[Waiting for something. Someone.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[Anticipation.]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[I think I'm waiting for you.]]](l4b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Actually, I'm waiting for you.]]](l5b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l6a| \[$t8nright[$me[Oh.]]](l6b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l7a| \[$t8nright[$me[Well, shit.]]](l7b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 8s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 11s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 18s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 21s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 24s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 30s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 36s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 39s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 45s)[(show: ?l6a)] (after: 48s)[(hide: ?l6a) (show: ?l6b)] (after: 52s)[(show: ?l7a)] (after: 55s)[(hide: ?l7a) (show: ?l7b)] (after: 60s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 2.3s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 3.6s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//April 14, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me["Do this in memory of me."]]](l1b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Do this in memory of me.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[Freedom.]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[Perhaps, that's what this has been all about.]]](l4b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 4s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 9s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 12s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 24s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 28s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 30s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 35s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 40s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//April 15, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[I'm not sure I will ever fully understand Your passion.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[You're gone - paid the ultimate sacrifice. It wasn't right, it wasn't just, it wasn't fair, but You did it anyway.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[Today I can't help but feel your absence. You told me about all these great things. Where's the good news, Jesus? I'm supposed to trust You still?]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[I know I'll get over it soon, but damn it is hard following You.]]](l4b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l5a| \[$t8nright[$me[I just want to be loved.]]](l5b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 3s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 10s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 13s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 23s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 27s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 42s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 43s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 50s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 60s)[(show: ?l5a)] (after: 65s)[(hide: ?l5a) (show: ?l5b)] (after: 70s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//April 16, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[Waiting.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me["Hope has a name, and it is Jesus" keeps repeating in my head.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[Just waiting.]]](l3b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 5s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 7s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 12s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 22s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 27s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 30s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 35s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?back)] ] }

$date[//April 17, 2022//] [$rightdot[. . .]](l1a| \[$t8nright[$me[And just like that, it's over.]]](l1b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l2a| \[$t8nright[$me[Lent is done, Easter is here. You're back.]]](l2b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l3a| \[$t8nright[$me[We continue on like nothing's happened, but everything has changed.]]](l3b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l4a| \[$t8nright[$me[Christ is risen. We are saved, now what?]]](l4b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Follow me.]]](l5b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l6a| \[$t8nright[$me[Ha, as if I wasn't already.]]](l6b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[Relunctantly. Begrudgingly.]]](l7b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l8a| \[$t8nright[$me[Yeah okay, alright, alright.]]](l8b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l9a| \[$t8nright[$me[You know, I used to think our conversations would reveal some giant, loud, revelation. I would be some completely new person at the end-]]](l9b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[But, you are. I've made it so.]]](l10b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[You showed up every night. Just as you said you would.]]](l11b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l12a| \[$t8nright[$me[I- I'm not worthy...]]](l12b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[It was enough. You are more than enough.]]](l13b| \ [$t8nleft[$god[We did this together.]]](l14b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l15a| \[$t8nright[$me[Right. Together.]]](l15b| \ [$rightdot[. . .]](l16a| \[$t8nright[$me[Life made anew.]]](l16b| [$back[(size: 1.5)[(link-style: via (text-color: #614ad3)+(hover-style: (text-color: #F991CC)))[(button:)[(link-goto: "←", "Main Menu")]]]]](back| { (if: visits is 1)[ (after: 2s)[(show: ?l1a)] (after: 6s)[(hide: ?l1a) (show: ?l1b)] (after: 9s)[(show: ?l2a)] (after: 15s)[(hide: ?l2a) (show: ?l2b)] (after: 18s)[(show: ?l3a)] (after: 24s)[(hide: ?l3a) (show: ?l3b)] (after: 26s)[(show: ?l4a)] (after: 30s)[(hide: ?l4a) (show: ?l4b)] (after: 33s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 35s)[(show: ?l6a)] (after: 37s)[(hide: ?l6a) (show: ?l6b)] (after: 40s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 42s)[(show: ?l8a)] (after: 44s)[(hide: ?l8a) (show: ?l8b)] (after: 44s)[(show: ?l9a)] (after: 59s)[(hide: ?l9a) (show: ?l9b)] (after: 61s)[(show: ?l10b)] (after: 63s)[(show: ?l11b)] (after: 66s)[(show: ?l12a)] (after: 70s)[(hide: ?l12a) (show: ?l12b)] (after: 73s)[(show: ?l13b)] (after: 76s)[(show: ?l14b)] (after: 79s)[(show: ?l15a)] (after: 82s)[(hide: ?l15a) (show: ?l15b)] (after: 90s)[(show: ?l16a)] (after: 94s)[(hide: ?l16a) (show: ?l16b)] (after: 99s)[(show: ?back)] ] (else:)[ (after: 0.3s)[(show: ?l1b)] (after: 0.6s)[(show: ?l2b)] (after: 0.9s)[(show: ?l3b)] (after: 1.3s)[(show: ?l4b)] (after: 1.6s)[(show: ?l5b)] (after: 1.9s)[(show: ?l6b)] (after: 2.3s)[(show: ?l7b)] (after: 2.6s)[(show: ?l8b)] (after: 2.9s)[(show: ?l9b)] (after: 3.3s)[(show: ?l10b)] (after: 3.6s)[(show: ?l11b)] (after: 3.9s)[(show: ?l12b)] (after: 4.3s)[(show: ?l13b)] (after: 4.6s)[(show: ?l14b)] (after: 4.9s)[(show: ?l15b)] (after: 5.3s)[(show: ?l16b)] (after: 5.6s)[(show: ?back)] ] }