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You are woken up by the ring of your cell phone.
It is 4am. You lazily look at your phone and it's an old friend from high school.
Strange, you haven't heard from them in quite a while. You wonder why they're calling you as you [[answer your phone->Answer Phone]].You hear sobbing on the other line, "Hey, I'm really sorry to call you right now but I really need [[someone->Someone To Talk To]] to talk to."You'd hang out with her a lot in class in high school. You two were pretty close, actually. There was never a really big reason to lose contact, no fall out, no drama, you just seemed to go your separate ways after graduation. You wonder [[what's wrong->What's Wrong]].
She was always the calm and collected type, at least from what you [[remember->Never That Close]].It's a friend you've known for years now but [[lost contact->Never That Close]] a little while back due to moving to different cities. You've never heard her sound [[so distressed->So Distressed]]."I feel like my head is going to explode, [[I can't take it anymore->Can't Take it Anymore]]. I'm a terrible person.""I'm absolutely done. I'm done with [[school->School]] and I'm done with [[relationships->Relationships]]. I honestly don't know what to do. I'm so sorry to call you like this.""I don't see the point of it. I'm going absolutely nowhere. I'm behind on everything and can't keep up because so much is going on right now. But it's [[no excuse->No Excuse]]. I honestly need to [[drop out->Drop Out]].""Relatonships in general. With friends and with my ex. I just don't have the [[time->Time]] or [[energy->Energy]] to keep up anymore.""I've tried to [[talk to->Talk To]] my parents but they never listen to me. I've literally called them in tears and they just say "Oh, keep your head up. There's nothing to worry about," meanwhile there's everything to worry about.""Theres no excuse for my academic performance, everyone else is [[doing fine->Doing Fine]]. Why cant I??"I've reached my breaking point and I'm almost failing half of my courses. No one will help. Not the [[counsellors->Counsellors]] nor the [[school->School]].""Don't ask me to try again. I've tried going to the counsellors and they only helped me when I was going through crisis. After the 10 week limit they just tried to pass me on to some random private counsellor for $200/hr expecting me to be able to pay for it. [[Everyone->You]] is throwing me under the bus.""I can't keep up with my classmates. They make it look so easy. They even act like it's easy. It's not that easy at all. [[People->You]] honestly don't get it.""I didn't mean to throw you under the bus. I'm sorry. I just don't know what to do at this point. I don't know whether to [[quit->Quit]] or [[keep going->Keep Going]].""I honestly don't think I can.
It's really hard to even try when my [[family->Family]], my quote-endquote "support system" don't even try.""You think I should quit?
I guess that's an option. It's nice to hear that someone approves. My [[family->Family]] sure doesn't."She recalls a conversation she had on the phone with her Mom recently.
//...Mom I honestly don't know what to do. Can you stop [[talking->Talking]] for one second and [[listen->Listen]] to me for once?////Mom proceeds to go on and on about how I need to work harder, how I need to work faster, and how I need to work longer. Then tries to tie it up with a bow saying "You can do it!"//
"She never actually listens. She's living vicariously through me since she couldn't even get into college. I don't know how to [[approach her->Approach Her]] anymore about school. I just want to [[shut her out->Shut Her Out]]."//"Can you be quiet for one minute?"
Mom stops talking but immediately buts in as soon as there's a break in my sentence.//
"There's no point, I just want to [[shut her out->Shut Her Out]].""Honestly, you think I [[should->Should]]?
You're [[not serious->Not Serious]], are you?""How should I approach her then? She never listens to me at all. I'm done calling. I only see her once a month and it will [[ruin dinner->Ruin Dinner]] if I start something.""You're right, I guess. I need more independance in my life anyways. I need to learn to stop caring about things that just make me [[feel worse->Ruin Dinner]]...""I guess the other option is actually doing something then? I don't know [[what good will come out of it->Ruin Dinner]]. They'll just call me selfish.""I... They... Fine, whatever, I agree. There's a point when you need to put yourself before others when it's [[detrimental->Detrimental]] I guess.""I can't believe I was having an anxiety attack over something that feels so small right now. It just felt like it was the end of the world, you know? I'm really sorry I called you so late over something I could handle myself... Probably.
By the way... Is it okay if we [[talk more often->Talk More Often]]? I didn't mean to disappear after grad. If you [[don't want to->Don't Want To]], that's perfectly fine. You're probably really busy anyways.""I really appreciate it. I really missed how much time we spent together and didn't think we'd reconnect under these circumstances but it makes me feel a lot better.
And you know, if anything in life is going bad for you, feel free to call me. Any time. Really.
Thank you.""Oh. I totally understand. I didn't mean to intrude. It's... really late too.
I'm really sorry to call you this late but for what it's worth, you really helped me see through the fog in my head. I hope everything goes well for you in the future.
Thank You.""Literally every time someone asks something of me, I do it. I will drop when I'm doing at the time and just do whatever they ask of me. I'm a [[people pleaser->People Pleaser]], it's in my nature.""It's tiring being the one one who always supports people, the [[Mother Goose->People Pleaser]]. I've reached a point where I just need to stop talking to people.""I'm always the one helping other people. I'm told drama and complaints all the time and am expected to help people. Yet, when I ever [[need help->Need Help]], everyone just so happens to go [[MIA->MIA]], but the next day they're back talking to me like nothing happened.""It never dawns on anyone that maybe I'm the one who needs [[help->Help Me]]. It never dawns on anyone that I'm not okay. It never freaking dawns on anyone that outside of their own little bubble, the world is falling apart for others, too."
"You think I should try doing that to? I don't think I could. I care about everyone's feelings too much. I feel like it's unfair for me to put myself forward because that would be unfair to [[others->Help Me]].""I have absolutely nobody to go to. No [[support system->Family]]."