how to hide

<a href="https://imgur.com/B2lZEGC"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/B2lZEGC.gif" title="source: imgur.com" /></a> //how to hide a [[body]]//

<a href="https://imgur.com/UeuSsRt"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/UeuSsRt.gif" title="source: imgur.com" /></a> i've been planning my suicide for months. [[...]]

<a href="https://imgur.com/55wuXX0"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/55wuXX0.gif" title="source: imgur.com" /></a> i exist permanently at the crossroads of wanting to live and wanting to die. it’s a sort of painful purgatory that i have become intimately familiar with. it’s a constant negotiation, an ongoing conversation with my own mortality. [[...->1]]

<a href="https://imgur.com/kuRCStu"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/kuRCStu.gif" title="source: imgur.com" /></a> a body has to fight every impulse to survive in order to kill itself. [[...->2]]

<a href="https://imgur.com/n0dbNw2"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/n0dbNw2.gif" title="source: imgur.com" /></a> [[...->35]]

<a href="https://imgur.com/473Xz0w"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/473Xz0w.gif" title="source: imgur.com" /></a> i hide myself in plain sight using aliases, putting distance between the world and myself. i wish to be static, the feeling of hair standing on end. i wish to be shadow and fog or a whisper. [[...->4]]

<a href="https://imgur.com/QrGMuxc"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/QrGMuxc.gif" title="source: imgur.com" /></a> there used to be a time when identity didn't matter the way it does now, before we were forced to brand ourselves by bloated corporations with their connections to state sponsored surveillance mechanisms. [[...->45]]

<a href="https://imgur.com/SgX1UCh"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/SgX1UCh.gif" title="source: imgur.com" /></a> we gave ourselves up. [[...->6]]

<a href="https://imgur.com/DhoY8FX"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/DhoY8FX.gif" title="source: imgur.com" /></a> [[...->65]]

<a href="https://imgur.com/KOWpl9d"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/KOWpl9d.gif" title="source: imgur.com" /></a> what even is safety? constant monitoring under a watchful eye. diligent observation. [[...->8]]

<a href="https://imgur.com/zecTSzm"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/zecTSzm.gif" title="source: imgur.com" /></a> true privacy is when the world forgets we exist. when there are no more footprints to track. [[...->9]]

<a href="https://imgur.com/0jVahME"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/0jVahME.gif" title="source: imgur.com" /></a> Natasha Lennard, in her essay //of suicide// describes her suicide attempts as, “attempts at self-annihilation rooted in a transient despair.” [[...->10]]

<a href="https://imgur.com/Hk5ZBDR"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/Hk5ZBDR.gif" title="source: imgur.com" /></a> my body holds a lifetime of secrets and devastation and chaos. my suicidal intensity is the bull in the China shop of my own transient despair. it escapes me through my mouth and fingertips. the trauma eats through the keyboard in my lap like battery acid. [[...->11]]

<a href="https://imgur.com/Fll0osv"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/Fll0osv.gif" title="source: imgur.com" /></a> [[...->12]]

<a href="https://imgur.com/sVwoV2E"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/sVwoV2E.gif" title="source: imgur.com" /></a> [[...->13]]

<a href="https://imgur.com/DzrFmmB"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/DzrFmmB.gif" title="source: imgur.com" /></a> i spend hours thinking about how i didn't ask to exist here. [[...->3]]

<a href="https://imgur.com/sr80pEW"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/sr80pEW.gif" title="source: imgur.com" /></a> i'm tired of being watched. i feel safest outside of algorithms. [[...->7]]

<a href="https://imgur.com/MzmhWff"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/MzmhWff.gif" title="source: imgur.com" /></a> [[...->14]]

<a href="https://imgur.com/UCwhdaK"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/UCwhdaK.gif" title="source: imgur.com" /></a> we have the right to be forgotten. we have the right to disappear. [[...->end]]

<a href="https://imgur.com/NDbziJY"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/NDbziJY.gif" title="source: imgur.com" /></a> [[...->5]]

<a href="https://imgur.com/B0N3631"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/B0N3631.gif" title="source: imgur.com" /></a> [[...->TITLE PAGE]]