No.
[[No?]]Yes. No.
[[What Do You Mean?]]
[[Fine.]]I mean no! You think this is gonna be some indy game with a point, but I'm telling you now, no. There is no point.
[[There has to be a point]]Fine.
[[Fine]]Good!
[[Good!]]Ugh, I'm Done!
[[What Do You Mean?]] Nope, no point at all.
[[Is the point that there is no]]AND I SWEAR TO GOD IF YOU SAY THAT THE POINT IS THAT THERE IS NO POINT I WILL TURN OFF THE GAME!!
[[Can you even do that?]]...no
[[You know this isn't much of a game]]Oh? What is it missing?
[[graphics]]
[[music]]
You know how the internet, go Google a picture of a cat or something, I don't care. Or look out your window, BOOM! Graphics
[[ok...]]You know how Youtube works, go throw on some My Chemical Romance or something. I dig Africa by Toto, go listen to that, you know what, let's get crazy, put on the Weezer cover!
[[ok...]] But you're right. This isn't much of a game. I wasn't even sure I wanted to make this. I guess I just needed to vent.
[[So the point is to vent?]]
[[Vent about what?]]THERE IS NO POINT!!!!!!
[[Okay, there is no point, got it...]]I don't know, everything? About my anxiety. About how I struggle to make simple choices, and when I do make choices, they're wrong?
[[I'm sure you're not always wrong?]]Okay, glad we understand each other...
[[Vent about what?]] I know I'm not, but it feels like it. Everytime I go out I do something wrong. I have a breakdown, or I get upset, or I make a scene. It happens so much, I feel I don't deserve to be around people.
[[Maybe the point is that you deserve to be around people?]]
[[that really sucks.]]THERE IS NO POINT! Besides, that can't be the point. It's too simple
[[points don't have to be complicated. They can be simple.]]Ya...ya it does. I just don't know what to do.
[[So, not to be rude, but how do I win this game?]]Well, that depends on whether or not I let you
[[Are you going to let me?]]True, but me struggling through my anxiety isn't worth making a game about.
[[but you did...]]Ya, I guess I did... Anyway...
[[So, not to be rude, but how do I win this game?]] It depends on how my anxiety is. See, if you win, it means there is hope in the world. If you lose, it means there's no point in even trying. And don't get your hopes up, I'm too lazy to write alternate endings, either you win or lose, that's it.
[[So what can I do?]]Nothing. I mean did you notice how few dialogue options you have? This isn't really a game, it's more just a conversation between me and me. Two halves of me I guess.
[[Which half am I?]]You're the outer half. The result that people see. I'm the inner dialogue. The struggle as to whether or not we give into the anxiety. If we don't give in, it means you win, and you do well. If we do give in, it means I win, because all my fears then become a self-fufilling prophecy.
[[Well, sounds like you all have the power?]]
[[So the point is...]]I do, and trust me, it's not something you want. Honestly there are days where me just making a scene is still a good day, and is still you winning. There are days where making a scene is the good outcome, and the bad outcome is...
[[Are you okay?]]FOR THE LAST TIME THERE IS NO POINT...
[[You do know you could just stop making that an option for me to click right?]]Fair...I guess I do have that power.
[[Well, sounds like you all have the power?]] Does it matter? Even if I admitted to something bad, and you contacted me, I could just say that the game does not reflect me and all characters are fictional and that the narrrator is not the author and blah blah blah.
[[I'm worried]]
[[oh.]]Thank you, but honestly I'm okay. I've had hard days, but I'm getting the help I need.
[[oh.]] I'm okay, I'm getting help. Are you getting help?
[[Yes]]
[[no...]]
[[I don't need help]]Great, well honestly I'll let you in on a secret. There is a point, getting help. So you can just walk away now if you want. The rest of the game just gets mushy.
[[ok.]]Why not?
[[I'm scared to]]
[[I don't need help]] We all need help with something
[[No I don't]]
[[it's not worth it]]
[[Like what]]So let's pretend you don't need help
[[I don't need help]] It's okay to be scared. But trust me, the problem doesn't go away. And facing the problem alone is much worse.
[[okay, thank you]]Now are you gonna get help?
[[Yes]]
[[I don't need help]] Yes you do. I may not know what's going on in your life, and it may not be something that's a therapy kind of call, but you need help. No one person has ever gone through life alone, and if you believe you don't need help, then you're only fooling yourself.
[[oh crap]] didn't you just tell me my problems are worth it?
[[oh crap]]Like anything. Maybe you have anxiety like me? Maybe you want to hurt yourself? Maybe you just went through something really tough and just need someone to talk to? Maybe it's a finacial burden, or a physical ailment and you need a doctor but you don't want to admit it because you don't want to go to the doctor(I feel that) or any number of things?
[[oh crap]] This problem you need help with, are you at risk of hurting yourself?(No, this game can't report you)
[[Yes I am]]
[[No I'm not]]Well I can tell you from experience, it's not worth it. Full stop. Whatever you think you did to deserve hurting yourself, or whatever you're trying to escape. It's not worth it. I've been in your shoes. Want to know what it got me? A trip to the ER and I night of being sarcastic with a true angel of a nurse who put up with me.
[[yikes]]Good! That's awesome! But just because your problems don't require the suicide hotline, doesn't mean they aren't worth getting help. Reach out to family, friends, anyone who will listen. And if no one will listen, and you just really feel sad and lonely, you can still call the suicide hotline at 1-800-273-8255, and if you're outside the USA go www.iasp.info
[[Thank you]]Ya, not my greatest night. The point is, you are worth help, no matter why you want to hurt yourself, you are worth reaching out to. If you live in the United States, you can text CONNECT to 741741, or call 1-800-273-8255. If you're outside the USA, go to www.iasp.info All these places will get you the help you need. Even if you just want to talk, they can do that.
[[Thank you]] Well, that's all this little game has to say. That you're worth it. No matter what you're struggling with, get help. Find ways to express yourself. Maybe you just need to write it down, I mean that's what I did. Get the help you need, and remember to take care of yourself
[[I will]]
[[I won't]]THE END
Would you like to play again?
[[No]] NOOOOO, like I said, only one ending. Now are you gonna take care of yourself?
[[I will]]