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<center>(text-size: 5)[part](text-size: 6)[;](text-size: 5)[e] { (set: _man_is_open to false) (set: _cred_is_open to false) (show: ?disclaimer) } [[EN->EN Menu]] | ''FR'' (transition-arrive: "blur")+(transition-time: 1.5s)[[LANCER LA PARTIE->Jour 1]] (link-rerun: "Manuel")[{ (if: _man_is_open is false)[ (hide: ?cred_list, ?disclaimer) (set: _cred_is_open to false) (set: _discl_is_open to false) (show: ?man_list) (set: _man_is_open to true) ](else:)[ (hide: ?man_list) (set: _man_is_open to false)(show: ?disclaimer) ]}] (link-rerun: "Crédits")[{ (if: _cred_is_open is false)[ (hide: ?man_list, ?disclaimer) (set: _man_is_open to false) (set: _discl_is_open to false) (show: ?cred_list) (set: _cred_is_open to true) ](else:)[ (hide: ?cred_list) (set: _cred_is_open to false)(show: ?disclaimer) ]}]</center> |disclaimer>[(align:"<==")+(box:"=XX=")[''part;e'' est une tentative de mettre des mots sur des émotions et un quotidien difficiles à partager. <br> ''Avertissements sur le contenu :'' * Thèmes abordés : dépression, anxiété, dévalorisation de soi. * Texte animé.] ]|man_list)[(align:"<==")+(box:"=XX=")[''Comment jouer'' Le récit est interactif. Cliquez sur les (colour: #757575)[''liens''] et les ''cases à cocher'' disséminés dans le texte pour révéler des parties cachées ou faire des choix ; Pour naviguer dans les scènes déjà visitées, utilisez les ''flèches'' sur la gauche ; Cliquez sur (color: #757575)[//''suite''//] pour passer les animations et afficher la page d'un coup ;]] |cred_list)[<center>Écriture et code par <a href="https://tuundra.itch.io/"; target="_blank">Urlee</a> Beta reading par ''wvv'' Fait avec <a href="http://twinery.org/"; target="_blank">Twine</a></center>]

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "suite")[(hide: ?part2)(show: ?part1, ?part3, ?part4, ?part5, ?choices) (set: $animate to false)]</div>] (set: $animate to true) Réveil. |part1)[Où est mon téléphone ?] |part2)[Ah, ici...] |part3)[Ah...] |part4)[Il est déjà 11h.] |part5)[Pas la force de me lever. Juste envie de rester au lit. Au chaud sous la couette. Envie de dormir, de ne penser à rien. Je devrais me remettre au travail, avancer dans mes révisions, mais je n'ai pas la force. Vu que les cours ont désormais lieu à distance, ce n'est pas trop grave si je loupe quelques jours, non ? Il suffira de mettre les bouchées doubles plus tard.] |choices)[ (transition-depart: "fade-down")+(transition-arrive: "blur")+(transition-time: 1.5s)[[Se recoucher]] (transition-depart: "dissolve")+(transition-time: 1.5s)[[Se lever]] ] {(show: ?skip_button) (live: 3s)[ (show: ?part1)(stop:) ] (live: 4s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?part2)(stop:)] ] (live: 6s)[ (hide: ?part2)(show: ?part3)(stop:) ] (live: 7s)[ (show: ?part4)(stop:) ] (live: 9s)[ (show: ?part5)(stop:) ] (live: 12s)[ (hide: ?skip_button)(show: ?choices)(stop:) ]}

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "suite")[(show: ?part1, ?lever, ?faire_lit, ?douche, ?manger, ?cafe, ?part3) (set: $animate to false)]</div>] (set: $animate to true) Allez, debout ! |part1)[//Ton devoir ne va pas se faire tout seul !//] { (set: $is_done to true) (set: _will_do to false) } |lever)[(checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "Se lever.")] |faire_lit)[(checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "Faire son lit.")] |douche)[(checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "Aller à la douche.")] |manger)[(checkbox: bind _will_do, "Manger un morceau.")] |cafe)[(checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "Se faire un café.")] |part2)[(text-style: "fade-in-out")[(text-style: "blur")[//Pas faim.//]]] |part3)[(link-reveal: "Je vais travailler quelques heures.")[= (checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "//Travailler.//") |constat)[(checkbox: bind $is_done, "//Arrête de te dévaloriser !//")] Ça me soulage d'avoir réussi à me concentrer et à avancer sur mon programme. C'est une petite victoire qui me donne la sensation d'avoir remporté la partie aujourd'hui. Il est 20h et je me sens déjà KO. Peut-être que si je vais me coucher maintenant, j'arriverai à me lever tôt demain. (transition-depart: "fade-down")+(transition-time: 1.5s)[[Demain est un autre jour.->Jour2]] ] {(show: ?skip_button) (live: 1s)[ (if: $is_done is false)[(show: ?constat)(stop:)] ] (live: 2s)[ (show: ?part1)(stop:) ] (live: 4s)[ (show: ?lever)(stop:) ] (live: 5s)[ (show: ?faire_lit)(stop:) ] (live: 6s)[ (show: ?douche)(stop:) ] (live: 7s)[ (show: ?manger)(stop:) ] (live: 8s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?part2)(stop:)] ] (live: 10s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(hide: ?part2)(stop:)] ] (live: 11s)[ (show: ?cafe)(stop:) ] (live: 13s)[ (show: ?part3)(stop:) ]}

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "suite")[(show: ?choices)]</div>] J'ai pas la force. Je rattraperai mon retard plus tard. De toute manière, je n'arrive pas à me concentrer en ce moment. Même m'assoir pour regarder un film, j'y arrive pas. L'autre jour, j'ai reçu un email qui faisait quoi ? 10 lignes ? J'ai dû le relire plusieurs fois avant de le comprendre. (link: "Peut-être que si je vais me coucher maintenant, j'arriverai à me lever tôt demain.")[(text-style: "blur")[//Peut-être...//] (set: $will_do to false) |lever)[(checkbox: bind $will_do, "Se lever.")] |faire_lit)[(checkbox: bind $will_do, "Faire son lit.")] |douche)[(checkbox: bind $will_do, "Aller à la douche.")] |manger)[(checkbox: bind $will_do, "Manger un morceau.")] |travailler)[(checkbox: bind $will_do, "Travailler.")] |pensee)[(text-style: "fade-in-out")+(text-style: "blur")[//T'aurais pu te bouger quand même.//]] |constat)[(text-style: "blur")[//Arrête... Tu n'as rien fait de tout cela.//]] |choices)[(transition-depart: "fade-down")+(transition-time: 1.5s)[[Demain est un autre jour.->Jour2]]] {(show: ?skip_button) (live: 1s)[ (if: $will_do is true)[(show: ?constat)(stop:)] ] (live: 1s)[ (show: ?lever)(stop:) ] (live: 2s)[ (show: ?faire_lit)(stop:) ] (live: 3s)[ (show: ?douche)(stop:) ] (live: 4s)[ (show: ?manger)(stop:) ] (live: 5s)[ (show: ?travailler)(stop:) ] (live: 6s)[ (show: ?pensee)(stop:) ] (live: 8s)[ (hide: ?pensee)(stop:) ] (live: 8s)[ (hide: ?skip_button)(show: ?choices)(stop:) ]}]

<div class="phone-time">(text-size: 0.5)[Mer. 7 Avr. 2021]</div> <div class="phone-time">(text-size: 5)[10:40]</div> <div class="alert">S. (text-size: 0.5)+(font: "Open Sans")[maintenant] [[Nouveau message (1)->Nouveau message]] </div> <center>(text-style: "blur")[//Tiens, un message de ma sœur.//]</center>

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "suite")[(hide: ?timed_conv) (show: ?full_conv) (set: $reveal1 to true) (set: $reveal2 to true)]</div>] { (set: $reveal1 to false) (set: $reveal2 to false) |timed_conv>[<section class="discussion"> <div class="bubble bubble-right" style="--delay: 11s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>(link: "Rien de ouf")[Ça va pas mais je ne saurais pas t'expliquer pourquoi (set: $reveal2 to true)]</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 8s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Quoi de beau toi ??</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 6s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Nickel ! Un peu dur ce confinement mais on fait avec</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right" style="--delay: 4s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>(link: "Bien et toi ?")[Ça va pas trop je crois (set: $reveal1 to true)]</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right" style="--delay: 2s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Hey !</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 1s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Comment tu vas ???</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Heey</p></div> </div> </section>] |full_conv)[<section class="discussion"> <div class="bubble bubble-right"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Ça va pas mais je ne saurais pas t'expliquer pourquoi</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Quoi de beau toi ??</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Nickel ! Un peu dur ce confinement mais on fait avec</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Ça va pas trop je crois</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Hey !</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Comment tu vas ???</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Heey</p></div> </div> </section>] } |choices)[<div class="answer">(color: #757575)[["Sinon, je voulais te dire un truc... Ça va pas fort"->Ça va pas fort]]</div> <div class="answer">(color: #757575)[["Et toi quoi de beau ? :)"->Et toi]]</div> ] {(show: ?skip_button) (live: 3s)[ (replace: "Bien et toi ?")[(text-style:"upside-down")[Bien et toi ?]] ] (live: 3s)[ (replace: "Bien et toi ?")[Bien et toi ?] ] (live: 3s)[ (replace: "Rien de ouf")[(text-style:"upside-down")[Rien de ouf]] ] (live: 3s)[ (replace: "Rien de ouf")[Rien de ouf] ] (live: 1s)[ (if: $reveal1 is true and $reveal2 is true)[(hide: ?skip_button)(show: ?choices)(stop:)] ]}

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "suite")[(hide: ?timed_conv) (show: ?full_conv) (show: ?choices)]</div>] { (set: $reveal1 to false) |timed_conv>[<section class="discussion"> <div class="bubble bubble-right" style="--delay: 10s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>(link: "Oui t'as raison, je vais me ressaisir !")[J'aurais dû fermer ma gueule... (set: $reveal1 to true)]</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 7s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Ça arrive à tout le monde les coups de mous !</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 5s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Lol tkt</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 4s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Euh</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right" style="--delay: 1s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Sinon, je voulais te dire un truc... Ça va pas fort</p></div> </div> </section>] |full_conv)[<section class="discussion"> <div class="bubble bubble-right"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>J'aurais dû fermer ma gueule...</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Ça arrive à tout le monde les coups de mous !</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Lol tkt</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Euh</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Sinon, je voulais te dire un truc... Ça va pas fort</p></div> </div> </section>] } |choices)[<div class="answer">(color: #757575)[["Écoute. En fait, ça va vraiment pas"->Ça va vraiment pas]]</div> <div class="answer">(color: #757575)[[Mettre fin à la discussion->Fermer tel]]</div>] {(show: ?skip_button) (live: 3s)[ (replace: "Oui t'as raison, je vais me ressaisir !")[(text-style:"upside-down")[Oui t'as raison, je vais me ressaisir !]] ] (live: 3s)[ (replace: "Oui t'as raison, je vais me ressaisir !")[Oui t'as raison, je vais me ressaisir !] ] (live: 1s)[ (if: $reveal1 is true)[(hide: ?skip_button)(show: ?choices)(stop:)] ]}

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "suite")[(hide: ?timed_conv) (show: ?full_conv) (show: ?choices)]</div>] { |timed_conv>[<section class="discussion"> <div class="bubble bubble-right" style="--delay: 9s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Bah grave !</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 7s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Ça me ferait plaisir de te voir :)</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 5s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Bah écoute tout baigne ! Hâte de pouvoir ressortir boire des verres</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 3s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Hehe !</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right" style="--delay: 1s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Et toi quoi de beau ? :)</p></div> </div> </section>] |full_conv)[<section class="discussion"> <div class="bubble bubble-right"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Bah grave !</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Ça me ferait plaisir de te voir :)</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Bah écoute tout baigne ! Hâte de pouvoir ressortir boire des verres</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Hehe !</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Et toi quoi de beau ? :)</p></div> </div> </section>] } |choices)[<div class="answer">[["Écoute. En fait, ça va pas si bien que ça"->Ça va pas si bien]]</div> <div class="answer">[[Mettre fin à la discussion->Pas parler]]</div>] {(show: ?skip_button) (live: 11s)[ (hide: ?skip_button)(show: ?choices)(stop:) ]}

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "suite")[(hide: ?timed_conv) (show: ?full_conv) (show: ?next_button)]</div>] { |timed_conv>[<section class="discussion"> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 10s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Remue-toi et ça ira mieux !</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 7s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Beaucoup de monde déprime en ce moment à cause du confinement</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 5s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Je sais pas quoi te dire</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 4s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Écoute</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right" style="--delay: 1s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Écoute. En fait, (text-style:"blur")[ça va vraiment pas]</p></div> </div> </section>] |full_conv)[<section class="discussion"> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Remue-toi et ça ira mieux !</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Beaucoup de monde déprime en ce moment à cause du confinement</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Je sais pas quoi te dire</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Écoute</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Écoute. En fait, (text-style:"blur")[ça va vraiment pas]</p></div> </div> </section>] } |next_button)[<center>(t8n-arrive:"dissolve")+(t8n-time:1s)[[Il vaut mieux tout garder pour soi parfois.->Garder pour soi 1]]</center>] {(show: ?skip_button) (live: 12s)[ (hide: ?skip_button)(show: ?next_button)(stop:) ]}

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "suite")[(hide: ?timed_conv) (show: ?full_conv) (show: ?next_button)]</div>] { |timed_conv>[<section class="discussion"> <div class="bubble bubble-right" style="--delay: 14s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Oui t'as raison ahah</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 12s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Remue-toi et ça ira mieux !</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 10s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Les étudiants et tout</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 8s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Beaucoup de monde déprime en ce moment</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 5s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Je ne sais pas quoi te dire</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 4s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Euh</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right" style="--delay: 1s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Écoute. En fait, ça va pas si bien que ça</p></div> </div> </section>] |full_conv)[<section class="discussion"> <div class="bubble bubble-right"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Oui t'as raison ahah</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Remue-toi et ça ira mieux !</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Les étudiants et tout</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Beaucoup de monde déprime en ce moment</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Je ne sais pas quoi te dire</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Euh</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Écoute. En fait, ça va pas si bien que ça</p></div> </div> </section>] } |next_button)[<center>(link-reveal: "Qui a envie de voir ou de proposer de prendre un verre à quelqu'un de déprimant ?")[ (text-style: "fade-in-out")+(transition-arrive: "blur")+(transition-time: 1.5s)[[Personne.->Garder pour soi 2]]]</center>] {(show: ?skip_button) (live: 17s)[ (hide: ?skip_button)(show: ?next_button)(stop:) ]}

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "suite")[(hide: ?wont_do) (show: ?part1)]</div>] { (set: $is_done to true) (set: $will_do to false) } (checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "Se lever.") Aujourd'hui, je vais faire des efforts. |wont_do)[Il faudrait que je fasse au moins 3 tâches de cette liste : (checkbox: bind $will_do, "Faire son lit.") (checkbox: bind $will_do, "Aller à la douche.") (checkbox: bind $will_do, "Faire le ménage.") (checkbox: bind $will_do, "Faire les courses.") (checkbox: bind $will_do, "Rattraper le travail en retard.")] |part1)[Hm... Je me sens seulement capable d'accomplir ces trois-là : (checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "Faire son lit.") (checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "Aller à la douche.") (checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "Rattraper le travail en retard.") C'est plutôt cool, j'ai pu rattraper mon retard. L'idéal aurait été d'aller faire les courses mais c'est éprouvant. Trop de bruits, trop de monde, trop d'odeurs. Je n'arrivais plus à gérer la situation seule alors j'ai décidé de me faire aider. Ça m'aura pris du temps pour prendre cette décision. (t8n-depart:"dissolve")+(t8n-arrive:"fade-down")+(t8n-time:1.5s)[[C'est parti pour aller chez le psy.->Psy]] ] {(show: ?skip_button, ?wont_do) (live: 1s)[ (if: $will_do is true)[ (hide: ?wont_do) (show: ?part1)(stop:) ] ]}

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "suite")[(hide: ?wont_do) (show: ?part1)]</div>] { (set: $is_done to true) (set: $will_do to false) } (checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "Se lever.") (checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "Faire son lit.") J'ai pas trop mal dormi. Ça m'a fait du bien de discuter avec S. hier. |wont_do)[Aujourd'hui, j'ai encore pas mal de choses à faire : (checkbox: bind $will_do, "Aller à la douche.") (checkbox: bind $will_do, "Faire le ménage.") (checkbox: bind $will_do, "Faire les courses.") (checkbox: bind $will_do, "Travailler.")] |part1)[Hm... Je ne me sens pas capable de tout faire. Commençons par ces trois tâches : (checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "Aller à la douche.") (checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "Faire les courses.") (checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "Travailler.") C'est cool ! C'était une journée plutôt productive. Je suis même allée faire les courses alors que c'est éprouvant. Trop de bruits, trop de monde, trop d'odeurs. Encore une victoire aujourd'hui. La partie est loin d'être terminée. Du coup, j'ai décidé de me faire aider. Ça m'aura pris du temps pour prendre cette décision. (t8n-depart:"dissolve")+(t8n-arrive:"fade-down")+(t8n-time:1.5s)[[C'est parti pour aller chez le psy.->Psy]] ] {(show: ?skip_button, ?wont_do) (live: 1s)[ (if: $will_do is true)[ (hide: ?wont_do) (show: ?part1)(stop:) ] ]}

(set: _list_is_open to false) Des psys, il y en aura plusieurs. Avant de trouver la bonne ou le bon thérapeuthe, ce sera la loterie. (link: "Celui qui t'écoute pendant 10 mn puis te raconte sa vie.")[Euh... Sérieusement ?] (link: "Celle qui va rien faire à part te recommander de lire des bouquins de développement personnel.")[Comme si ça réglait tout par magie.] (link: "Celle qui voudra te faire avaler que t'es trop intelligent·e pour être heureux·se.")[Spoiler : Ensuite, elle te dira d'acheter des bouquins de développement personnel.] (link: "Et tous·tes les psys colorblind, sexistes, homophobes et j'en passe.")[C'est plus courant qu'on ne le croit. Les psys restent des êtres humains.] En tout cas, je souffre apparemment de : (link: "dépression")[=''dépression'' nom féminin <div class="dict-latin">(bas latin depressio, -onis, enfoncement)</div> État pathologique marqué par une tristesse avec douleur morale, une perte de l'estime de soi, un ralentissement psychomoteur. (align:"==>")+(box:"=XX=")[– Dictionnaire Larousse, 2021] Mince alors... Après la honte, vient l'envie de se renseigner. Je tombe sur plusieurs ressources et témoignages dont certains apporteront un réel soulagement. Au bout d'un moment, je finis par tomber sur une personne avec qui je me sens à l'aise. (t8n-depart:"dissolve")+(t8n-arrive:"fade-down")+(t8n-time:1.5s)[[Les choses vont s'arranger.->Jour 4]]

<center>(text-size: 2)[(transition-arrive: "dissolve")+(t8n-time: 3s)[[;->Menu]]]</center>

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "suite")[(show: ?part1, ?part2, ?part3, ?part4, ?part5, ?part6, ?part7) (set: $animate to false)]</div>] (set: $animate to true) =><= Je me sens dépassée et incapable de trouver une raison à mon mal-être. Le premier réflexe est de tenter d'en parler à quelqu'un. Sauf que personne ne veut entendre "Ça va pas", surtout quand on est dans l'incapacité d'expliquer pourquoi "Ça va pas". |part1)[Souvent, les proches répondront] |dot1)[.]|dot2)[.]|dot3)[.] |part2)[{(live: 1.5s)[ (text-style: "blur")[(either: "//Remue-toi et ça ira mieux !//", "//T'as trop de temps libre pour penser à ça.//", "//Il y a bien pire dans le monde.//", "//Il suffit de se bouger !//", "//Occupe-toi.//")] ]}] |part3)[Ils ne pensent pas à mal, au contraire. Cependant, je suis tellement en repli que je ne m'en rends pas compte et que tout prend des allures de jugement ou de rejet.] |part4)[Dans ma tête, résonne] |dot4)[.]|dot5)[.]|dot6)[.] |part5)[(text-size: 2)+(text-style:"rumble")+(text-style: "blur")[Fais un effort]] |part6)[Je me dis qu'il vaut mieux garder tout cela pour moi.] |part7)[Tous les soirs, je me répète (text-style: "fade-in-out")+(transition-arrive: "blur")+(transition-time: 1.5s)[["Ça ira mieux demain"->Jour 3 efforts]]] {(show: ?skip_button) (live: 4s)[ (show: ?part1)(stop:) ] (live: 5s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?dot1)(stop:)] ] (live: 6s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?dot2)(stop:)] ] (live: 7s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?dot3)(stop:)] ] (live: 8s)[ (show: ?part2)(stop:) ] (live: 9s)[ (hide: ?dot1, ?dot2, ?dot3)(stop:) ] (live: 15s)[ (show: ?part3)(stop:) ] (live: 18s)[ (show: ?part4)(stop:) ] (live: 19s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?dot4)(stop:)] ] (live: 20s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?dot5)(stop:)] ] (live: 21s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?dot6)(stop:)] ] (live: 22s)[ (hide: ?dot4, ?dot5, ?dot6)(show: ?part5)(stop:) ] (live: 24s)[ (show: ?part6)(stop:) ] (live: 26s)[ (hide: ?skip_button)(show: ?part7)(stop:) ]}

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "suite")[(show: ?part1, ?part2, ?part3, ?part4, ?part5, ?part6, ?part7) (set: $animate to false)]</div>] (set: $animate to true) =><= Je me sens dépassée et incapable de trouver une raison à mon mal-être. Je pourrais tenter d'en parler à quelqu'un. Sauf que personne ne veut entendre "Ça va pas", surtout quand on est dans l'incapacité d'expliquer pourquoi "Ça va pas". |part1)[Souvent, les proches répondront] |dot1)[.]|dot2)[.]|dot3)[.] |part2)[{(live: 1.5s)[ (text-style: "blur")[(either: "//Remue-toi et ça ira mieux !//", "//T'as trop de temps libre pour penser à ça.//", "//Il y a bien pire dans le monde.//", "//Il suffit de se bouger !//", "//Occupe-toi.//")] ]}] |part3)[Ils ne pensent pas à mal, au contraire. Cependant, je suis tellement en repli que je ne m'en rends pas compte et que tout prend des allures de jugement ou de rejet.] |part4)[Dans ma tête, résonne] |dot4)[.]|dot5)[.]|dot6)[.] |part5)[(text-size: 2)+(text-style:"rumble")+(text-style: "blur")[Fais un effort]] |part6)[Je me dis qu'il vaut mieux garder tout cela pour moi.] |part7)[Tous les soirs, je me répète (text-style: "fade-in-out")+(transition-arrive: "blur")+(transition-time: 1.5s)[["Ça ira mieux demain"->Jour 3 ok]]] {(show: ?skip_button) (live: 4s)[ (show: ?part1)(stop:) ] (live: 5s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?dot1)(stop:)] ] (live: 6s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?dot2)(stop:)] ] (live: 7s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?dot3)(stop:)] ] (live: 8s)[ (show: ?part2)(stop:) ] (live: 9s)[ (hide: ?dot1, ?dot2, ?dot3)(stop:) ] (live: 15s)[ (show: ?part3)(stop:) ] (live: 18s)[ (show: ?part4)(stop:) ] (live: 19s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?dot4)(stop:)] ] (live: 20s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?dot5)(stop:)] ] (live: 21s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?dot6)(stop:)] ] (live: 22s)[ (hide: ?dot4, ?dot5, ?dot6)(show: ?part5)(stop:) ] (live: 24s)[ (show: ?part6)(stop:) ] (live: 26s)[ (hide: ?skip_button)(show: ?part7)(stop:) ]}

<div class="phone-time">(text-size: 0.5)[Ven. 23 Avr. 2021]</div> <div class="phone-time">(text-size: 5)[11:27]</div> <div class="alert30">P. (text-size: 0.5)+(font: "Open Sans")[il y a 20 mn] [[Nouveau message (1)->Lire message]] </div> <div class="alert30">EMAIL (text-size: 0.5)+(font: "Open Sans")[il y a 1h] ''RE: Candidature'' Bonjour, Nous avons bien accusé réception de ... </div> <center>(text-style: "blur")[//Je ne me sens pas très bien aujourd'hui... J'ai reçu un message d'un pote et un email.//]</center>

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "suite")[(hide: ?timed_conv) (show: ?full_conv) (show: ?next_button)]</div>] { (set: $reveal1 to false) |timed_conv>[<section class="discussion"> <div class="bubble bubble-right" style="--delay: 10s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>(link: "Ah mince ! J'avais pas vu ! Merci")[Tout le monde doit se dire que je suis stupide (set: $reveal1 to true)]</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 7s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Il y a une coquille dans le pdf que t'as envoyé hier au groupe, page 3</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 4s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Bien merci, par contre je voulais te dire</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right" style="--delay: 2s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Salut |smile)[:D ] |neutral)[:| ] |sad)[:( ] Oui et toi ?</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Coucou ! Tu vas bien ?</p></div> </div> </section>] |full_conv)[<section class="discussion"> <div class="bubble bubble-right"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Tout le monde doit se dire que je suis stupide</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Il y a une coquille dans le pdf que t'as envoyé hier au groupe, page 3</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Bien merci, par contre je voulais te dire</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Salut :( Oui et toi ?</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Coucou ! Tu vas bien ?</p></div> </div> </section>] } |next_button)[<center>(transition-arrive: "blur")+(transition-time: 1.5s)+(color: #757575)[[Ouvrir l'email->Lire email]]</center> ] {(show: ?skip_button, ?smile) (live: 6s)[ (hide: ?smile)(show: ?neutral)(stop:) ] (live: 3s)[ (replace: "Ah mince ! J'avais pas vu ! Merci")[(text-style:"upside-down")[Ah mince ! J'avais pas vu ! Merci]] ] (live: 3s)[ (replace: "Ah mince ! J'avais pas vu ! Merci")[Ah mince ! J'avais pas vu ! Merci] ] (live: 1s)[ (if: $reveal1 is true)[(hide: ?skip_button, ?smile, ?neutral)(show: ?sad, ?next_button)(stop:)] ]}

(set: _pensee_is_open to false) |email)[<div class="alert60"> ''RE: Candidature'' Bonjour, (text-style:"blur")[Nous avons bien reçu votre candidature répondant à notre offre de stage. Nous vous remercions de l’intérêt que vous portez à notre société.] (text-style:"blurrier")[Cependant, malgré ses qualités, nous regrettons de ne pouvoir donner suite à votre candidature. Bien à vous,] </div>] |pensees)[{<center>|pensee>[(text-size: 5)+(text-style:"rumble")+(text-style: "blur")[Tu sers à rien]] (live: 1s)[ (hide: ?pensee)(text-size: 5)+(text-style:"rumble")+(text-style: "blur")[(either: "Tu sers à rien", "T'es stupide", "Encore un échec", "Lâche l'affaire")] ]</center>}] <center>En temps normal, j'arriverais à gérer ce genre de nouvelles. Mais là, ce n'est pas possible. Les échecs deviennent une fatalité. Je finis par ressasser en boucle mes erreurs, qui prennent des proportions gigantesques (link-rerun: "dans ma tête.")[{ (if: _pensee_is_open is false)[ (hide: ?email)(show: ?pensees)(set: _pensee_is_open to true) ](else:)[ (hide: ?pensees)(show: ?email)(set: _pensee_is_open to false) ]}] Je veux juste dormir. (transition-arrive: "blur")+(transition-time: 1.5s)[[Je ne veux pas être demain.->Descente]] </center> (show: ?email)

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "suite")[(hide: ?all_days, ?mantra) (show: ?fin)]</div>] { (set: _days to 0) (show: ?skip_button) } |mantra>[Il faut s’entraîner pour apprendre à gagner la partie. Je me répète comme un mantra (text-style:"shadow")[(link-rerun: "Ça ira mieux demain")[(set: _days to _days + 1){ (if: _days is 1)[(show: ?day_1) ](else-if: _days is 2)[(show: ?day_2) ](else-if: _days is 3)[(show: ?day_3) ](else-if: _days is 4)[(show: ?day_4) ](else-if: _days is 5)[(show: ?day_5) ](else-if: _days is 6)[(show: ?day_6) ](else-if: _days is 7)[(show: ?day_7)(hide: ?doute) ](else:)[(hide: ?skip_button, ?all_days, ?mantra)(show: ?fin) ]}]]] |fin)[Et un jour, (t8n-arrive:"fade-up")+(t8n-time:1.5s)[[ça va mieux->Ça va mieux]]] |all_days>[ |day_1)[Il faut s’entraîner à ne pas perdre espoir. Chasser les idées noires. Continuer de se lever le matin.] |day_2)[(align:"<==")+(box:"=XX=")[Il y a des jours qui sont des victoires. D'autres où on se demande si la dépression ne va pas remporter la partie.]] |day_3)[(align:"<==")+(box:"=X")[Je me sens à bout tout le temps à bout de souffle à bout de nerfs je me porte à bout de bras.]] |day_4)[(align:"<==")+(box:"=XX=")[Il y a des jours où on se remet à penser au futur.]] |day_5)[(align:"<==")+(box:"=XX=")[À faire des projets. (text-style:"smear")[//"Ça me ferait plaisir d'aller faire de la randonnée quand il fera beau."//]]] |day_6)[Mais il y a des nuits où les échecs viennent nous hanter. |doute>[(text-style:"sway")[//"Vais-je y arriver un jour ?"//]]] |day_7)[(align:"<==")+(box:"=X")[(text-style:"blur")[Mes efforts ne servent à rien. J'aimerais juste partir très loin.]]]]

Un jour, oui, ça va mieux. (live: 4s)[(go-to: "Ça va mieux 2")]

Puis, un deuxième jour. (live: 4s)[(go-to: "Ça va mieux 3")]

Puis, un troisième. (live: 3s)[(go-to: "Ça va mieux 4")]

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "suite")[(show: ?part1, ?part2, ?part3, ?part4)]</div>] Un jour, |part1)[se lever n'est plus insurmontable ;] |part2)[des projets prennent la place des idées noires ;] |part3)[reviennent l'appétit et le sommeil ;] |rechute1)[//Parfois, il y a des rechutes//] |rechute2)[(text-style:"fade-in-out")[//mais elles ne s'installent pas.//]] |part4)[Un jour, à nouveau, ça va (transition-depart: "dissolve")+(t8n-time:1.5s)[[bien->Fin]].] {(show: ?skip_button) (live: 2s)[ (show: ?part1)(stop:) ] (live: 4s)[ (show: ?part2)(stop:) ] (live: 6s)[ (show: ?part3)(stop:) ] (live: 9s)[ (show: ?rechute1)(stop:) ] (live: 11s)[ (show: ?rechute2)(stop:) ] (live: 13s)[ (hide: ?rechute2)(stop:) ] (live: 14s)[ (hide: ?rechute1)(stop:) ] (live: 15s)[ (hide: ?skip_button)(show: ?part4)(stop:) ]}

<center>(text-size: 5)[part](text-size: 6)[;](text-size: 5)[e] { (set: _man_is_open to false) (set: _cred_is_open to false) (show: ?disclaimer) } ''EN'' | [[FR->Menu]] (transition-arrive: "blur")+(transition-time: 1.5s)[[START->Day 1]] (link-rerun: "How to play")[{ (if: _man_is_open is false)[ (hide: ?cred_list, ?disclaimer) (set: _cred_is_open to false) (set: _discl_is_open to false) (show: ?man_list) (set: _man_is_open to true) ](else:)[ (hide: ?man_list) (set: _man_is_open to false)(show: ?disclaimer) ]}] (link-rerun: "Credits")[{ (if: _cred_is_open is false)[ (hide: ?man_list, ?disclaimer) (set: _man_is_open to false) (set: _discl_is_open to false) (show: ?cred_list) (set: _cred_is_open to true) ](else:)[ (hide: ?cred_list) (set: _cred_is_open to false)(show: ?disclaimer) ]}]</center> |disclaimer>[(align:"<==")+(box:"=XX=")[Partie is a French word that can both mean 'gone' and 'game'. This is an attempt to communicate about being depressed. <br> ''Content warnings:'' * Mention of depression, anxiety, self-deprecation. * Animated text.] ]|man_list)[(align:"<==")+(box:"=XX=")[''How to play'' The story is interactive. Click (colour: #757575)[''links''] and select ''checkboxes'' to reveal hidden parts or make choices ; Use the ''arrows'' on the left to navigate through scenes ; Click (color: #757575)[//''skip''//] to skip the timed animations and display everything immediately ;]] |cred_list)[<center>Writing and coding: <a href="https://tuundra.itch.io/"; target="_blank">Urlee</a> Beta reader: ''wvv'' Done with <a href="http://twinery.org/"; target="_blank">Twine</a></center>]

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "skip")[(hide: ?part2)(show: ?part1, ?part3, ?part4, ?part5, ?choices) (set: $animate to false)]</div>] (set: $animate to true) Eyes opening. |part1)[Where is my phone?] |part2)[Oh, here.] |part3)[Wait...] |part4)[It's already 11am.] |part5)[I can't get out of bed. I just want to stay there, protected by my blanket. My safe and warm blanket. All I want is to sleep. I want to stop thinking. I know I should get back to work, complete my school assignments. But, I don't have the energy. Since the classes are now online, is it such a big deal if I miss a few? No one will notice. I will work twice as hard when I get better. I promise.] |choices)[ (transition-depart: "fade-down")+(transition-arrive: "blur")+(transition-time: 1.5s)[[Go back to sleep]] (transition-depart: "dissolve")+(transition-time: 1.5s)[[Get up]] ] {(show: ?skip_button) (live: 3s)[ (show: ?part1)(stop:) ] (live: 4s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?part2)(stop:)] ] (live: 6s)[ (hide: ?part2)(show: ?part3)(stop:) ] (live: 7s)[ (show: ?part4)(stop:) ] (live: 9s)[ (show: ?part5)(stop:) ] (live: 12s)[ (hide: ?skip_button)(show: ?choices)(stop:) ]}

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "skip")[(show: ?choices)]</div>] I am so tired. I will catch up later. Anyway, I can't concentrate right now. I can't even watch a movie and stay focused. The other day, I got an email. How long was it? Maybe 10 lines? I had to read it several times in order to understand what it was about. (link: "Maybe, if I go to bed now, I'll be able to get up early tomorrow.")[(text-style: "blur")[//I hope so...//] (set: $will_do to false) |lever)[(checkbox: bind $will_do, "Get up.")] |faire_lit)[(checkbox: bind $will_do, "Make the bed.")] |douche)[(checkbox: bind $will_do, "Shower")] |manger)[(checkbox: bind $will_do, "Eat something.")] |travailler)[(checkbox: bind $will_do, "Study.")] |pensee)[(text-style: "fade-in-out")+(text-style: "blur")[//You should have done more.//]] |constat)[(text-style: "blur")[//Stop it... You haven't done any of that.//]] |choices)[(transition-depart: "fade-down")+(transition-time: 1.5s)[[Tomorrow is another day.->Day 2]]] {(show: ?skip_button) (live: 1s)[ (if: $will_do is true)[(show: ?constat)(stop:)] ] (live: 1s)[ (show: ?lever)(stop:) ] (live: 2s)[ (show: ?faire_lit)(stop:) ] (live: 3s)[ (show: ?douche)(stop:) ] (live: 4s)[ (show: ?manger)(stop:) ] (live: 5s)[ (show: ?travailler)(stop:) ] (live: 6s)[ (show: ?pensee)(stop:) ] (live: 8s)[ (hide: ?pensee)(stop:) ] (live: 8s)[ (hide: ?skip_button)(show: ?choices)(stop:) ]}]

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "skip")[(show: ?part1, ?lever, ?faire_lit, ?douche, ?manger, ?cafe, ?part3) (set: $animate to false)]</div>] (set: $animate to true) Come on, get up! |part1)[//You have a lot of homework to do to!//] { (set: $is_done to true) (set: _will_do to false) } |lever)[(checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "Get up.")] |faire_lit)[(checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "Make the bed.")] |douche)[(checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "Shower.")] |manger)[(checkbox: bind _will_do, "Eat something.")] |cafe)[(checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "Get some coffee.")] |part2)[(text-style: "fade-in-out")[(text-style: "blur")[//I don't feel like eating.//]]] |part3)[(link-reveal: "Let's work for a few hours.")[= (checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "//Study.//") |constat)[(checkbox: bind $is_done, "//Stop blaming yourself!//")] What a relief! I was able to concentrate and study a little. This small victory that gives makes me feel like I won this day. It's 8pm, and I already feel exhausted. If I go to bed now, I will be able to get up early tomorrow. (transition-depart: "fade-down")+(transition-time: 1.5s)[[Tomorrow is another day.->Day 2]] ] {(show: ?skip_button) (live: 1s)[ (if: $is_done is false)[(show: ?constat)(stop:)] ] (live: 2s)[ (show: ?part1)(stop:) ] (live: 4s)[ (show: ?lever)(stop:) ] (live: 5s)[ (show: ?faire_lit)(stop:) ] (live: 6s)[ (show: ?douche)(stop:) ] (live: 7s)[ (show: ?manger)(stop:) ] (live: 8s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?part2)(stop:)] ] (live: 10s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(hide: ?part2)(stop:)] ] (live: 11s)[ (show: ?cafe)(stop:) ] (live: 13s)[ (show: ?part3)(stop:) ]}

<div class="phone-time">(text-size: 0.5)[Wed. 7 Apr. 2021]</div> <div class="phone-time">(text-size: 5)[10:40]</div> <div class="alert">S. (text-size: 0.5)+(font: "Open Sans")[now] [[1 unread message->New message]] </div> <center>(text-style: "blur")[//A message from my sister.//]</center>

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "skip")[(hide: ?timed_conv) (show: ?full_conv) (set: $reveal1 to true) (set: $reveal2 to true)]</div>] { (set: $reveal1 to false) (set: $reveal2 to false) |timed_conv>[<section class="discussion"> <div class="bubble bubble-right" style="--delay: 11s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>(link: "Nothing new")[I'm not doing well, but I don't know why (set: $reveal2 to true)]</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 8s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>What about you?</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 6s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Great! The lockdown is a bit tough but manageable</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right" style="--delay: 4s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>(link: "Fine! You?")[Not fine actually(set: $reveal1 to true)]</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right" style="--delay: 2s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Hey!</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 1s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>How are you???</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Heey</p></div> </div> </section>] |full_conv)[<section class="discussion"> <div class="bubble bubble-right"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>I'm not doing well, but I don't know why</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>What about you?</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Great! The lockdown is a bit tough but manageable</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Not fine actually</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Hey!</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>How are you???</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Heey</p></div> </div> </section>] } |choices)[<div class="answer">(color: #757575)[["By the way, I wanted to tell you something... I'm not doing well"->Not doing well]]</div> <div class="answer">(color: #757575)[["And what about you? :)"->What about you]]</div> ] {(show: ?skip_button) (live: 3s)[ (replace: "Fine! You?")[(text-style:"upside-down")[Fine! You?]] ] (live: 3s)[ (replace: "Fine! You?")[Fine! You?] ] (live: 3s)[ (replace: "Nothing new")[(text-style:"upside-down")[Nothing new]] ] (live: 3s)[ (replace: "Nothing new")[Nothing new] ] (live: 1s)[ (if: $reveal1 is true and $reveal2 is true)[(hide: ?skip_button)(show: ?choices)(stop:)] ]}

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "skip")[(hide: ?timed_conv) (show: ?full_conv) (show: ?choices)]</div>] { (set: $reveal1 to false) |timed_conv>[<section class="discussion"> <div class="bubble bubble-right" style="--delay: 10s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>(link: "Yeah I guess you're right")[I should've kept quiet... (set: $reveal1 to true)]</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 7s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Everyone can be sad sometimes</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 5s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Lmao</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 4s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Uh</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right" style="--delay: 1s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>By the way, I wanted to tell you something... I'm not doing well</p></div> </div> </section>] |full_conv)[<section class="discussion"> <div class="bubble bubble-right"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>I should've kept quiet...</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Everyone can be sad sometimes</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Lmao</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Uh</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>By the way, I wanted to tell you something... I'm not doing well</p></div> </div> </section>] } |choices)[<div class="answer">(color: #757575)[["I'm really not okay"->Really not okay]]</div> <div class="answer">(color: #757575)[[Say goodbye->End conversation]]</div>] {(show: ?skip_button) (live: 3s)[ (replace: "Yeah I guess you're right")[(text-style:"upside-down")[Yeah I guess you're right]] ] (live: 3s)[ (replace: "Yeah I guess you're right")[Yeah I guess you're right] ] (live: 1s)[ (if: $reveal1 is true)[(hide: ?skip_button)(show: ?choices)(stop:)] ]}

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "skip")[(hide: ?timed_conv) (show: ?full_conv) (show: ?choices)]</div>] { |timed_conv>[<section class="discussion"> <div class="bubble bubble-right" style="--delay: 9s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Definitely!</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 7s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>I'd love to see you :)</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 5s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Everything's good! Can't wait to go out for drinks again</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 3s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Hehe!</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right" style="--delay: 1s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>And what about you? :)</p></div> </div> </section>] |full_conv)[<section class="discussion"> <div class="bubble bubble-right"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Definitely!</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>I'd love to see you :)</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Everything's good! Can't wait to go out for drinks again</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Hehe!</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>And what about you? :)</p></div> </div> </section>] } |choices)[<div class="answer">[["Listen. Actually, things aren't going so well."->Not so well]]</div> <div class="answer">[[Say goodbye->Say nothing]]</div>] {(show: ?skip_button) (live: 11s)[ (hide: ?skip_button)(show: ?choices)(stop:) ]}

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "skip")[(hide: ?timed_conv) (show: ?full_conv) (show: ?next_button)]</div>] { |timed_conv>[<section class="discussion"> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 7s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>And stop overthinking! Try to exercise, think positive</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 4s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>See you soon!</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right" style="--delay: 2s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Bye!</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right" style="--delay: 1s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>I have to go</p></div> </div> </section>] |full_conv)[<section class="discussion"> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>And stop overthinking! Try to exercise, think positive</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>See you soon!</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Bye!</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>I have to go</p></div> </div> </section>] } |next_button)[<center>That was the right choice. (t8n-arrive:"dissolve")+(t8n-time:1s)[[I want to be someone people want to see again.->Keep it 1]]</center>] {(show: ?skip_button) (live: 10s)[ (hide: ?skip_button)(show: ?next_button)(stop:) ]}

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "skip")[(hide: ?timed_conv) (show: ?full_conv) (show: ?next_button)]</div>] { |timed_conv>[<section class="discussion"> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 10s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Get yourself together</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 7s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>A lot of people are feeling bad because of the lockdown</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 5s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>I don't know what to say to you</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 4s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>And</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right" style="--delay: 1s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>I'm really (text-style:"blur")[not okay]</p></div> </div> </section>] |full_conv)[<section class="discussion"> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Get yourself together</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>A lot of people are feeling bad because of the lockdown</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>I don't know what to say to you</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>And</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>I'm really (text-style:"blur")[not okay]</p></div> </div> </section>] } |next_button)[<center>(t8n-arrive:"dissolve")+(t8n-time:1s)[[It's better not to talk sometimes.->Keep it 1]]</center>] {(show: ?skip_button) (live: 12s)[ (hide: ?skip_button)(show: ?next_button)(stop:) ]}

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "skip")[(show: ?part1, ?part2, ?part3, ?part4, ?part5, ?part6, ?part7) (set: $animate to false)]</div>] (set: $animate to true) =><= I feel overwhelmed. I feel sad all the time for no reason. The first thing that comes to my mind is to try to talk to someone. But nobody wants to hear "I'm not okay" especially if you can't explain them why. |part1)[Most of the time, loved ones will answer something like] |dot1)[.]|dot2)[.]|dot3)[.] |part2)[{(live: 1.5s)[ (text-style: "blur")[(either: "//Get some fresh air. You'll feel better!//", "//You ruminate about the past because you have too much free time.//", "//There are worse situations than yours.//", "//Exercise!//", "//Find something to do.//")] ]}] |part3)[They mean no harm. They care, they worry, but I don't see it. I feel judged or rejected.] |part4)[In my head, I hear] |dot4)[.]|dot5)[.]|dot6)[.] |part5)[(text-size: 2)+(text-style:"rumble")+(text-style: "blur")[Try harder]] |part6)[I convince myself it's better to keep it all to myself.] |part7)[Every evening, I fall asleep on this thought (text-style: "fade-in-out")+(transition-arrive: "blur")+(transition-time: 1.5s)[["Tomorrow will be better."->Day 3 efforts]]] {(show: ?skip_button) (live: 4s)[ (show: ?part1)(stop:) ] (live: 5s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?dot1)(stop:)] ] (live: 6s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?dot2)(stop:)] ] (live: 7s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?dot3)(stop:)] ] (live: 8s)[ (show: ?part2)(stop:) ] (live: 9s)[ (hide: ?dot1, ?dot2, ?dot3)(stop:) ] (live: 15s)[ (show: ?part3)(stop:) ] (live: 18s)[ (show: ?part4)(stop:) ] (live: 19s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?dot4)(stop:)] ] (live: 20s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?dot5)(stop:)] ] (live: 21s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?dot6)(stop:)] ] (live: 22s)[ (hide: ?dot4, ?dot5, ?dot6)(show: ?part5)(stop:) ] (live: 24s)[ (show: ?part6)(stop:) ] (live: 26s)[ (hide: ?skip_button)(show: ?part7)(stop:) ]}

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "skip")[(hide: ?wont_do) (show: ?part1)]</div>] { (set: $is_done to true) (set: $will_do to false) } (checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "Get up.") Today, I will try harder. |wont_do)[I must do at least 3 tasks below: (checkbox: bind $will_do, "Make the bed.") (checkbox: bind $will_do, "Shower.") (checkbox: bind $will_do, "Clean up the flat.") (checkbox: bind $will_do, "Grocery shopping.") (checkbox: bind $will_do, "Catch up on overdue work.")] |part1)[Wait. This requires too much energy. I can only do these three: (checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "Make the bed.") (checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "Shower.") (checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "Catch up on overdue work.") But it's fine. I was able to study a bit. It would have been ideal to buy some food, but it's exhausting. Too much noise, too many people, too many smells. I couldn't handle the situation on my own anymore, so I decided to seek help. It took me a while to make that decision. (t8n-depart:"dissolve")+(t8n-arrive:"fade-down")+(t8n-time:1.5s)[[Let's see a therapist.->Shrimp]] ] {(show: ?skip_button, ?wont_do) (live: 1s)[ (if: $will_do is true)[ (hide: ?wont_do) (show: ?part1)(stop:) ] ]}

(set: _list_is_open to false) I will meet several therapists. Before I find the right one, I will get: (link: "The one who listens for 10 minutes and then tells you about their own life.")[Seriously?] (link: "The one who won't do anything except recommend self-help books.")[It doesn't help at all.] (link: "The one who tries to convince you that you're too intelligent to be happy.")[Spoiler: Then, they tell you to buy self-help books.] (link: "Colorblind, sexist, homophobic, and more (unfortunately), therapists.")[It's more common than you think. Therapists are human beings after all.] In any case, I seem to suffer from: (link: "depression")[=''depression'' noun <div class="dict-latin">[uncountable]</div> A medical condition in which a person feels very sad, anxious and without hope and often has physical symptoms such as being unable to sleep, etc. (align:"==>")+(box:"=XX=")[– Oxford Learner's Dictionaries, 2024] Uh... Shame is what comes first. Soon after, the desire to know more. I read several resources and online confessions. Some of them are very helpful. After a while, I finally find a therapist I feel comfortable with. (t8n-depart:"dissolve")+(t8n-arrive:"fade-down")+(t8n-time:1.5s)[[Things will get better.->Day 4]]

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "suite")[(hide: ?timed_conv) (show: ?full_conv) (show: ?next_button)]</div>] { |timed_conv>[<section class="discussion"> <div class="bubble bubble-right" style="--delay: 14s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Yeah, you're right ahah</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 12s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Try to exercise maybe</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 10s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Especially students you know</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 8s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>A lot of people feels bad right now</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 5s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Don't worry</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 4s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Uh</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right" style="--delay: 1s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Actually, things aren't going so well</p></div> </div> </section>] |full_conv)[<section class="discussion"> <div class="bubble bubble-right"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Yeah, you're right ahah</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Try to exercise maybe</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Especially students you know</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>A lot of people feels bad right now</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Don't worry</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Uh</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Actually, things aren't going so well</p></div> </div> </section>] } |next_button)[<center>(link-reveal: "Who wants to see someone who is so negative all the time?")[ (text-style: "fade-in-out")+(transition-arrive: "blur")+(transition-time: 1.5s)[[Nobody.->Keep it 2]]]</center>] {(show: ?skip_button) (live: 17s)[ (hide: ?skip_button)(show: ?next_button)(stop:) ]}

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "skip")[(show: ?part1, ?part2, ?part3, ?part4, ?part5, ?part6, ?part7) (set: $animate to false)]</div>] (set: $animate to true) =><= I feel overwhelmed. I feel sad all the time for no reason. The first thing that comes to my mind is to try to talk to someone. But nobody wants to hear "I'm not okay" especially if you can't explain them why. |part1)[Most of the time, loved ones will answer something like] |dot1)[.]|dot2)[.]|dot3)[.] |part2)[{(live: 1.5s)[ (text-style: "blur")[(either: "//Get some fresh air. You'll feel better!//", "//You ruminate about the past because you have too much free time.//", "//There are worse situations than yours.//", "//Exercise!//", "//Find something to do.//")] ]}] |part3)[They mean no harm. They care, they worry, but I don't see it. I feel judged or rejected.] |part4)[In my head, I hear] |dot4)[.]|dot5)[.]|dot6)[.] |part5)[(text-size: 2)+(text-style:"rumble")+(text-style: "blur")[Try harder]] |part6)[I convince myself it's better to keep it all to myself.] |part7)[Every evening, I fall asleep on this thought (text-style: "fade-in-out")+(transition-arrive: "blur")+(transition-time: 1.5s)[["Tomorrow will be better."->Day 3 ok]]] {(show: ?skip_button) (live: 4s)[ (show: ?part1)(stop:) ] (live: 5s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?dot1)(stop:)] ] (live: 6s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?dot2)(stop:)] ] (live: 7s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?dot3)(stop:)] ] (live: 8s)[ (show: ?part2)(stop:) ] (live: 9s)[ (hide: ?dot1, ?dot2, ?dot3)(stop:) ] (live: 15s)[ (show: ?part3)(stop:) ] (live: 18s)[ (show: ?part4)(stop:) ] (live: 19s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?dot4)(stop:)] ] (live: 20s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?dot5)(stop:)] ] (live: 21s)[ (if: $animate is true)[(show: ?dot6)(stop:)] ] (live: 22s)[ (hide: ?dot4, ?dot5, ?dot6)(show: ?part5)(stop:) ] (live: 24s)[ (show: ?part6)(stop:) ] (live: 26s)[ (hide: ?skip_button)(show: ?part7)(stop:) ]}

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "skip")[(hide: ?wont_do) (show: ?part1)]</div>] { (set: $is_done to true) (set: $will_do to false) } (checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "Get up.") (checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "Make the bed.") I slept quite well. Taking to S. yesterday was nice. |wont_do)[Today, I still have a few things to do: (checkbox: bind $will_do, "Shower.") (checkbox: bind $will_do, "Clean up the flat.") (checkbox: bind $will_do, "Grocery shopping.") (checkbox: bind $will_do, "Study.")] |part1)[Wait. I don't feel capable of doing everything. Let's start with these three tasks: (checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "Shower.") (checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "Grocery shopping.") (checkbox: 2bind $is_done, "Study.") That's cool! What a productive day! I even went grocery shopping, even though it's exhausting. Too much noise, too many people, too many smells. Today is another victory. The battle is far from over. So, I decided to seek help. It took me a while to make that decision. (t8n-depart:"dissolve")+(t8n-arrive:"fade-down")+(t8n-time:1.5s)[[Let's see a therapist.->Shrimp]] ] {(show: ?skip_button, ?wont_do) (live: 1s)[ (if: $will_do is true)[ (hide: ?wont_do) (show: ?part1)(stop:) ] ]}

<div class="phone-time">(text-size: 0.5)[Fri. 23 Apr. 2021]</div> <div class="phone-time">(text-size: 5)[11:27]</div> <div class="alert30">P. (text-size: 0.5)+(font: "Open Sans")[20 minutes ago] [[1 unread message->Read message]] </div> <div class="alert30">EMAIL (text-size: 0.5)+(font: "Open Sans")[1 hour ago] ''Subject: Re: Internship Application'' Dear applicant, I hope this message finds you well ... </div> <center>(text-style: "blur")[//I'm not feeling very well today... I got a message from a friend and an email.//]</center>

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "skip")[(hide: ?timed_conv) (show: ?full_conv) (show: ?next_button)]</div>] { (set: $reveal1 to false) |timed_conv>[<section class="discussion"> <div class="bubble bubble-right" style="--delay: 10s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>(link: "Sorry! I didn't notice! I will fix it ty")[Everyone must think I'm stupid (set: $reveal1 to true)]</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 7s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>There's a typo in the PDF you sent to the group yesterday. Page 3</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left" style="--delay: 4s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>All good. But there is something I need to tell you</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right" style="--delay: 2s;"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Hi |smile)[:D ] |neutral)[:| ] |sad)[:( ] Good. What about you?</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Hey! How are you?</p></div> </div> </section>] |full_conv)[<section class="discussion"> <div class="bubble bubble-right"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Everyone must think I'm stupid</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>There's a typo in the PDF you sent to the group yesterday. Page 3</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>All good. But there is something I need to tell you</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble bubble-right"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Hi :| Good. What about you?</p></div> </div> <div class="bubble-left"> <div class="bubble-content"><p>Hey! How are you?</p></div> </div> </section>] } |next_button)[<center>(transition-arrive: "blur")+(transition-time: 1.5s)+(color: #757575)[[Let's read the email now.->Read email]]</center> ] {(show: ?skip_button, ?smile) (live: 6s)[ (hide: ?smile)(show: ?neutral)(stop:) ] (live: 3s)[ (replace: "Sorry! I didn't notice! I will fix it ty")[(text-style:"upside-down")[Sorry! I didn't notice! I will fix it ty]] ] (live: 3s)[ (replace: "Sorry! I didn't notice! I will fix it ty")[Sorry! I didn't notice! I will fix it ty] ] (live: 1s)[ (if: $reveal1 is true)[(hide: ?skip_button, ?smile, ?neutral)(show: ?sad, ?next_button)(stop:)] ]}

(set: _pensee_is_open to false) |email)[<div class="alert60"> ''Subject: Re: Internship Application'' Dear applicant, (text-style:"blur")[I hope this message finds you well. After careful consideration, we regret to inform you that your application has not been successful.] (text-style:"blurrier")[We genuinely appreciate your interest in our company, and we wish you all the best in your endeavors and hope you find the perfect fit for your talents. Best regards,] </div>] |pensees)[{<center>|pensee>[(text-size: 5)+(text-style:"rumble")+(text-style: "blur")[Useless]] (live: 1s)[ (hide: ?pensee)(text-size: 5)+(text-style:"rumble")+(text-style: "blur")[(either: "Useless", "Stupid", "Failure", "Give up")] ]</center>}] <center>I would usually be able to handle this kind of news. But right now, I just can't take it. Failure became too real. I end up obsessively ruminating about past mistakes. They are so heavy (link-rerun: "I can't ignore them")[{ (if: _pensee_is_open is false)[ (hide: ?email)(show: ?pensees)(set: _pensee_is_open to true) ](else:)[ (hide: ?pensees)(show: ?email)(set: _pensee_is_open to false) ]}] All I want is to sleep. (transition-arrive: "blur")+(transition-time: 1.5s)[[Please tomorrow, don't come.->Breakdown]] </center> (show: ?email)

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "skip")[(hide: ?all_days, ?mantra) (show: ?fin)]</div>] { (set: _days to 0) (show: ?skip_button) } |mantra>[Beating depression requires endurance and planning. I keep repeating to myself (text-style:"shadow")[(link-rerun: "It will get better")[(set: _days to _days + 1){ (if: _days is 1)[(show: ?day_1) ](else-if: _days is 2)[(show: ?day_2) ](else-if: _days is 3)[(show: ?day_3) ](else-if: _days is 4)[(show: ?day_4) ](else-if: _days is 5)[(show: ?day_5) ](else-if: _days is 6)[(show: ?day_6) ](else-if: _days is 7)[(show: ?day_7)(hide: ?doute) ](else:)[(hide: ?skip_button, ?all_days, ?mantra)(show: ?fin) ]}]]] |fin)[And one day, (t8n-arrive:"fade-up")+(t8n-time:1.5s)[[it gets better.->It gets better]]] |all_days>[ |day_1)[You have to learn to not let hope go. To stop the negative thoughts spiral. To keep getting out of bed in the morning.] |day_2)[(align:"<==")+(box:"=XX=")[Some days are victories. Some others make you wonder if depression will not win after all.]] |day_3)[(align:"<==")+(box:"=X")[I feel like I'm losing my mind my nerves myself I'm barely hanging on.]] |day_4)[(align:"<==")+(box:"=XX=")[There are also days when you let yourself dream about the future.]] |day_5)[(align:"<==")+(box:"=XX=")[You make plans again. (text-style:"smear")[//"It would be nice to go hiking when the weather is good."//]]] |day_6)[But there are nights haunted by failures. |doute>[(text-style:"sway")[//"Will I ever be myself again?"//]]] |day_7)[(align:"<==")+(box:"=X")[(text-style:"blur")[I struggle in vain. I just want to run far away.]]]]

Yes. One day, it does get better. (live: 4s)[(go-to: "It gets better 2")]

Then, a second day. (live: 4s)[(go-to: "It gets better 3")]

And another. (live: 3s)[(go-to: "It gets better 4")]

|skip_button)[<div class="skip-header">(link: "skip")[(show: ?part1, ?part2, ?part3, ?part4)]</div>] One day, |part1)[getting up is easy ;] |part2)[your brain is full of projects, not dark thoughts ;] |part3)[appetite and healthy sleep pattern are back ;] |rechute1)[//Sometimes, relapses happen//] |rechute2)[(text-style:"fade-in-out")[//but they don't linger.//]] |part4)[One day, once again, it's going (transition-depart: "dissolve")+(t8n-time:1.5s)[[fine->End]].] {(show: ?skip_button) (live: 2s)[ (show: ?part1)(stop:) ] (live: 4s)[ (show: ?part2)(stop:) ] (live: 6s)[ (show: ?part3)(stop:) ] (live: 9s)[ (show: ?rechute1)(stop:) ] (live: 11s)[ (show: ?rechute2)(stop:) ] (live: 13s)[ (hide: ?rechute2)(stop:) ] (live: 14s)[ (hide: ?rechute1)(stop:) ] (live: 15s)[ (hide: ?skip_button)(show: ?part4)(stop:) ]}

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